Job at work quite slow down recently.
the functioning of my brain getting slower and slower.
cant even figure out well for small problem.
haiz...
my mind are doomed.
cant really focus on work.
Freaking hate OT recently. dun noe why , juz feel like wanted to get home as fast as possible.
i recently i made a big mistakes during work.
Quotation given to client was under quoted.
when it question by client to my manager, and found out that the amount between the corrected one and my one having a big gap!
after the finding of the big gap, juz only realise that i miss some big amount items and forgot to include into the quotation!
Damn it.! and coming monday which mean tomorrow i had to go with manager and clarify to client about such big difference between the 2 quotations.
=|
the longer the time i worked in singapore, the desperation of going back to kl to work becoming larger and larger.
Oh GOD! i really feeling wanted to go back to KL and work.
In singapore, the daily routine are the same!
Breakfast > work > lunch > work > dinner > sleep
Sunday worse.
staying at home all day long and sometimes only one meal for a day.
Damn it! what kind of life isit?
even tough sometimes go for badminton and basketball, but still feeling having a routine boring life.
thinking of planning a trip, but cant get a partner to go with.
feeling like getting a girlfriend and travel together with her.
It is quite difficult to find a girlfriend here i noe.
because of the work place environment, my site women workforce only 10 percent are women. mostly are married and partnered.
cant i stick to you?
i can chase you back?
do i have a chance?
recently i feel like i am losing hope (you).
had a hard feeling that you are not talking to me anymore.
have you got yours own special one?
hmmm....
i am far from you.
if i lose you i have no say.
sorry i choose to leave you alone there.
is the biggest mistake i made.
sorry.
actually i planned to get a car and drive up as frequent as possible juz to visit you and see you.
is because i do really miss you alots.
sometimes i seldom find you is because if i go near you too much, you will get rebounded faster or slip away faster.
You do really appear in my dream a lots of time.
but it just a dream.
dream will or never become true?
hmm...
can it become true?
i really hope so.
the next round i will be meeting you is when?
can it be like now?
haiz.
only if miracle happened.!
good night.
sleep early and dun always sleep so late ah...
sweet dream~ <3
I <3 you.
Sunday, May 10, 2015
Monday, April 27, 2015
Messed mind
Recently dun really feel like working for OT.
Feeling like going home earlier even though there is not much thing i can do at home beside gaming and internet.
My mind are messed up with all kind of thinking
cant really focus on work recently, keep having mistakes during works
no inspiration, no mood to work.
WHY??? TELL ME WHY???
issit i too worry bout my future?
Or smtg else?
yes, i admit i am worrying about my future in many ways, as in
work, family and also getting my the other half.
there are lots of frustration and they messed and choked up my mind.
When client approach me for question, i cant really answer properly.
haiz...
if i continue like this i think i will lost my job.
i am sleepy now....
i will continue my writing tomorrow.
between~ very niz pictures but the bamboo village one got a bit over edited with the temperature liao.. hehe...hei hei～
And that pataya made my saliva all over the floor liao!!! .... xD
4 more days~
good night~ sweet dream~ <3 =)
ps: I.M.Y~ <3
Feeling like going home earlier even though there is not much thing i can do at home beside gaming and internet.
My mind are messed up with all kind of thinking
cant really focus on work recently, keep having mistakes during works
no inspiration, no mood to work.
WHY??? TELL ME WHY???
issit i too worry bout my future?
Or smtg else?
yes, i admit i am worrying about my future in many ways, as in
work, family and also getting my the other half.
there are lots of frustration and they messed and choked up my mind.
When client approach me for question, i cant really answer properly.
haiz...
if i continue like this i think i will lost my job.
i am sleepy now....
i will continue my writing tomorrow.
between~ very niz pictures but the bamboo village one got a bit over edited with the temperature liao.. hehe...hei hei～
And that pataya made my saliva all over the floor liao!!! .... xD
4 more days~
good night~ sweet dream~ <3 =)
ps: I.M.Y~ <3
Sunday, April 26, 2015
1 years 3 months 16 days.
i have been working here for such period
isit really too fast the time passing?
or the thing i doing are too much?
No idea!
Through catching up old friend at mamak stall and chit-chatting,
obviously to other people thinking, > Woah ! working in sg is very good! earn big money!
Every time i getting myself ready before catching up with old friend at mamak stall from all those "super positive" thinking of theirs.
Actually to me, yes, the salary is a bit more than what they got in msia after converting;
buti have left quite lot of important thingy and people behind.
After working for such period of time, i feel that a not really worth to work here.
i dunnoe maybe i will have this thinking when i am in emotional mode? or it is true?
After working for this period of time, i did learnt and picked up quite lots of things. 90% are mechanical thingy which are not related to what my parents had paid for me in college and university. Such a waste?
Every-time i will question my mum, will it be a waste as i choose to work in different field to what u had paid for in my study?
I know mum always goes for the best answer, she said no worry, study in one thing, working is another thing; The most important things in life is learnt how to face the real world and earning money through your career.
hmmm... it is quite inspiring to me and i take it as a inspiration.
My mum supported me without failed since i was a little boy as i was not good in study and get scolded by dad all the time juz because he demand to high to me in getting good result because of all my 3 sisters are doing it very well.
I am not blaming them but this is what i feel.
i will do my best to what my mum told me.
hmmm.....
Thanks for letting me to date you out.
i am really happy to see you actually,
i did miss you a lot when i am in sg.
sorry that i din talk much when we were together, i am just feeling good of staying right besides you.
All the frustration from work, messy thinking melted at the second i see your sweet smile. Feeling like laying my head on your shoulder. But i dun really have the guts to do it as i am respecting you too.
Everyday i will drop by your blog to read if there is any new personal article as you will spit all your bad moment there and there is any help or people needed to spit all your bad feeling to.
Actually i dun mind to be the one, cause just wanted you to be happy all the time.
I do really have a very special on you where i wish i could care of you and be with you all the time.
Oh ya, i had a "nightmare" yesterday midnight. i dream of you... XD
i really really wish i can sleep forever and live in the dream with you. It was a quite sweety dream actually. hehe.
Enjoy your travel day.
Good night ~
sweet dream~ <3 <3 <3
NOTE: Envies create messy thinking~
Monday, September 8, 2014
Yes! i miss you and i need you~
Coming to 4 months~
At work, i having a smiling face all the day, can i say i am pretending?
actually, i am thinking every-night before i sleep~
am i choosing the right path?
am i coming the right place to work?
am i doing the right choice to leave her hundred miles away to work?
everyday and night, i was thinking of her.
My mum really understand me.
That day, my mum friend was asking my mum: ur son got girlfriend ad?sure got someone he like ba.
my mum straight away answered>> he got, but he dun dare to wan.
yes i do. i had her in my heart all the time. but i really dun dare to want.
Maybe is because of my foreseeing and over thinking and made me like that, moreover, i need a girl who really care and really talk to me. i hope she would be the one. I dun have confidence at all on long distance relationship, i scare i will implicate her and ruin her wonderful life now.
Maybe she is prioritize more to friends and most are opposite sex, and this confuse me. sorry for saying this but this is how i feel. =)
To her, who am i ? am i important to her?
or just a normal friend as other do?
=)
i really miss her.
i cried silently sometimes when i thought of her.
i do really love her.
good night and sweet dream=) <3
-Jerry-
i nearly forgot i have a blog for me to spit all my tension and feeling at...
in these 4 months, beside work still works.
nothing much i can do here.
tension? yes, like a whole building on the top of my head.
boring? yes, it is.
lonely? yes, is lonely.
now i am the only one who handle the whole maintenance job at a site twice the size of TARCollege.
previously was 2 guys handling the whole site of maintenance job.
But curiously, why left me alone ???
why boss so rest assured that letting me alone to handle the maintenance jobs of the freaking whole site since i am not old at this company?
confident in me? or lack of manpower?
haiz....
i wont mumble at this load of works.
i will try my best to take them.
but i cannot assured that i met all clients requirements especially deadlines.
Currently right now,
I having at least 10 jobs pending and in progress, and new jobs are coming in accordingly and continuously without giving me any preparation.
Frenchly speaking, these will accumulate tensions on me if i couldn't met each clients requirements and deadline.
What i have to do if a job being activated:
1. walk down with clients
2. walk down with my supervisor
3. verified the ISO drawing drawn by my supervisor
4. get approval for the drawing and waiting costing engineer to produce the quotation
5. get client to sign off the quotation before start work.
6. clients signed, purchase all the materials needed.
7. get supervisors to fabricate all the materials.
8. fabrication done? start to erect at site and get the work done and handover to clients
this is oni 60% of the process of a jobs. how if there is 10 jobs one shot coming to me???
@@"""
sometimes i juz trying my best to do what i able to do.
i refuse to do it when i not able to do rather than i simply do and give a low quality work to client and bring down the reputation of the company.
anyhow, i really hope that boss will assign an assistance for me to carry out the tonnes of works that i am handling alone.
6. clients signed, purchase all the materials needed.
7. get supervisors to fabricate all the materials.
8. fabrication done? start to erect at site and get the work done and handover to clients
this is oni 60% of the process of a jobs. how if there is 10 jobs one shot coming to me???
@@"""
sometimes i juz trying my best to do what i able to do.
i refuse to do it when i not able to do rather than i simply do and give a low quality work to client and bring down the reputation of the company.
anyhow, i really hope that boss will assign an assistance for me to carry out the tonnes of works that i am handling alone.
At work, i having a smiling face all the day, can i say i am pretending?
actually, i am thinking every-night before i sleep~
am i choosing the right path?
am i coming the right place to work?
am i doing the right choice to leave her hundred miles away to work?
everyday and night, i was thinking of her.
My mum really understand me.
That day, my mum friend was asking my mum: ur son got girlfriend ad?sure got someone he like ba.
my mum straight away answered>> he got, but he dun dare to wan.
yes i do. i had her in my heart all the time. but i really dun dare to want.
Maybe is because of my foreseeing and over thinking and made me like that, moreover, i need a girl who really care and really talk to me. i hope she would be the one. I dun have confidence at all on long distance relationship, i scare i will implicate her and ruin her wonderful life now.
Maybe she is prioritize more to friends and most are opposite sex, and this confuse me. sorry for saying this but this is how i feel. =)
To her, who am i ? am i important to her?
or just a normal friend as other do?
=)
i really miss her.
i cried silently sometimes when i thought of her.
i do really love her.
good night and sweet dream=) <3
-Jerry-
Wednesday, May 14, 2014
有时候~ 或许每个时候~
有時侯覺得自己其實一無所有
彷彿被世界拋棄
有時候 明明自己身邊很多朋友
卻依然覺得孤單
有時候 走過熟悉的街角
看到熟悉的背影
突然就想起一個人的臉
有時候 突然很想哭
卻難過的哭不出來
有時候 夜深人靜的時候
突然覺得寂寞深入骨髓
有時候 突然找不到自己
就让自己往镜子里看
至少还看到自己的脸
有时候，宁愿呆在家了都不愿意出街
是因为怕看到一对对情侣的甜蜜的时刻
自己却双手牵着自己的口袋成为独行侠
有时候~ 或许每个时候~ =)
我真的真的想你了~ =/
i need you ~
彷彿被世界拋棄
有時候 明明自己身邊很多朋友
卻依然覺得孤單
有時候 走過熟悉的街角
看到熟悉的背影
突然就想起一個人的臉
有時候 突然很想哭
卻難過的哭不出來
有時候 夜深人靜的時候
突然覺得寂寞深入骨髓
有時候 突然找不到自己
就让自己往镜子里看
至少还看到自己的脸
有时候，宁愿呆在家了都不愿意出街
是因为怕看到一对对情侣的甜蜜的时刻
自己却双手牵着自己的口袋成为独行侠
有时候~ 或许每个时候~ =)
我真的真的想你了~ =/
i need you ~
Sunday, May 11, 2014
Need some courages and answers to keep going~ May i ?
Fourth months!
been working for 4 months.
working in people country and made me a outsider.
but i was lucky that i being sent to a good site with good site manager and colleagues.
Before i started my working life, i heard lots of friends who have step into working life complaining about their company have lots of politics.
actually i was ready to face that kind of working life, but now i am working in an environment which have only a minor politics.
Everyone in the office are friendly and willing to help each others when facing problems even they are busy.
i am glad to be part of PEC LTD employee.
i think this is the job i am looking for.
My own requirement of my job is NOT SITTING INSIDE OFFICE 24 HOURS!!! XD
And now i have been awarded by god with the job i am wishing for.
appreciated! =D
Yesh! i am happy to such job.
Yesh! is the job i am wishing for.
Yesh! is earning more than working in malaysia.
but~ life changed~
boring, lonely, missing all come to me now~
After working time, there is no significant things to do beside dinner and sleep.
The only significant thing i can do in my current life is doing OT.
the only thing that is significant which is earning extra money.
if weekend no work, i will be very very damn boring.
Staying at home whole damn day!
nobody to talk to. nobody to meet, nobody to chat to release some stresss....
aiks~
NO LIFE!
Everyday when i lay on my bed i starting thinking,
i chosen to work at the field that is different from what i study.
issit a correct choice?
or is a must to work on wat i studied?
if i done this choice to work on different field, will it be wasting parent money which they invested on me for my course i chosen?
hmmm.... big question! lol
<3
When i lay on my bed i think of her.
when i closed my eye i see her.
When my brain rest and slept i meet her in my dream.
i think i missed her real lots.
especially now!(when u read it now)
did she accept long distance relationship
is she still available?
or she had someone else in her heart?
=X
I have no idea why the love to her never change since the first time i fell for her.
i guess the love trap is too deep and I fell in too deep.
i wish to take care, love, pampered her.
i wish to have her accompany everytime i am down and i am in pressure.
=(
possible?
but anyhow i really love her.
From true heart~ =|
<3
Sunday, March 9, 2014
Trying Hard!
Y time past sooooo fast???!!!!\
i worked for 2 months in Singapore ad.
kinda pressure... kinda enjoy....
weird feeling actually...
the colleagues are very friendly....
they help me a lots...
taught me a lots of things...
Actually...
i really want to grumble that..
i am a bit regret of accepting this job due to the field...
as everyone noe that i graduated from electronic engineering...
but what i am work on now???
i am more to construction and civil engineer...
/_\
should i happy or sad???
i am not grumbling that is very hot and very tired a lot of things to be done...
i am grumbling that i am doing it as so called "STARTING FROM ZERO"..!
i noe nothing about the civil, construction and mechanical....
i nid to learn from ZERO
haiz....
but currently i still doing my best to catching up on what i should learn and listed in my job scope
I am assigned to client GSK site (Glaxo Smith Klien)...
The main things that i should do for the new me in this company is-
relation between me, workers, colleagues and the most important are the clientsss...
up to now...
i should say i still can handle them...
quite friendly with all of them...
i think i should thank to all the event i involved during my college life...
Still not really get use to singapore life...
no friends...
go shopping see oni but not buying...
saturday and sunday stay at home boring...
wanted to go home but cant predict the time as urgent job suddenly pop out in company...
i think i can change my name to blurr leeqiang ad...
recently really blurr...
day dreaming while walking...
i can walking distance during my working time can go up to 5 km everyday...
the whole site is as big as TARUC maybe more than that.....! @@"
i think after working for a year i can go take part in walkathon ady...
is quite tiring coz the super duper hot weather plus the super duper hot PPE....
i hope i can hide in office the whole day...!!!! haha..
Read ur lastest update on ur blog...
if really dun feel like staying there... thn find a way out...
example like find job in other place?
other country?
go for an interview of job?
it might be work...
far way better than u forced urself to stay there.
i am here to help anytime...
need help can find me anytime... i very willing to help...
=)
good night and sweet dream~ =) <3
i worked for 2 months in Singapore ad.
kinda pressure... kinda enjoy....
weird feeling actually...
the colleagues are very friendly....
they help me a lots...
taught me a lots of things...
Actually...
i really want to grumble that..
i am a bit regret of accepting this job due to the field...
as everyone noe that i graduated from electronic engineering...
but what i am work on now???
i am more to construction and civil engineer...
/_\
should i happy or sad???
i am not grumbling that is very hot and very tired a lot of things to be done...
i am grumbling that i am doing it as so called "STARTING FROM ZERO"..!
i noe nothing about the civil, construction and mechanical....
i nid to learn from ZERO
haiz....
but currently i still doing my best to catching up on what i should learn and listed in my job scope
I am assigned to client GSK site (Glaxo Smith Klien)...
The main things that i should do for the new me in this company is-
relation between me, workers, colleagues and the most important are the clientsss...
up to now...
i should say i still can handle them...
quite friendly with all of them...
i think i should thank to all the event i involved during my college life...
Still not really get use to singapore life...
no friends...
go shopping see oni but not buying...
saturday and sunday stay at home boring...
wanted to go home but cant predict the time as urgent job suddenly pop out in company...
i think i can change my name to blurr leeqiang ad...
recently really blurr...
day dreaming while walking...
i can walking distance during my working time can go up to 5 km everyday...
the whole site is as big as TARUC maybe more than that.....! @@"
i think after working for a year i can go take part in walkathon ady...
is quite tiring coz the super duper hot weather plus the super duper hot PPE....
i hope i can hide in office the whole day...!!!! haha..
Read ur lastest update on ur blog...
if really dun feel like staying there... thn find a way out...
example like find job in other place?
other country?
go for an interview of job?
it might be work...
far way better than u forced urself to stay there.
i am here to help anytime...
need help can find me anytime... i very willing to help...
=)
good night and sweet dream~ =) <3
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Take it or leave it!
New year-New life~
this is what really happening to me this year~
A great and challenging starting year of 2014!
Say bye bye to Digistar, ampang...
Say hi to PEC LTD...
i made up my mind of jumping for the singapore job...
although i really dun wan to let someone behind and left...
but really sorry that i made this decision.. (to myself and maybe ...her)..
it was really hard to choose...
it was a matter of leaving to other country to work but without the period of time
dunnoe when i will be back..
hardly to choose to leave because of i am leaving someone i really in love~
i was thinking that it was a good chance to get closer to her and have her heart...
but... but... it was ruined...
i also dun why i will made the decision of leaving to Singapore...
maybe is because digistar company too stingy?
maybe is because the pay doesn't insure my saving for my future life? wife? family?house?
after calculation is made...
the most i can save a month is oni RM 200
RM 2400/per year of saving....
if the latest i get married is in 6 years time....
i only have RM 14400 for my wedding??
how bout house? car? who going to pay for thm? parent? hell no~!
i really hope my choice is correct and not the wrong one...
the current client site is GSK company...
if not i will really feel disappointing to myself...
this is the 2nd day of work~
the working environment is far more what i expected...
i was assigned to client site.... so every morning i had to touch in myself at client...
i cant really expect that my office is located in a cabin...
but luckily there are aircond installed in the cabin...
it is really a brand new working environment for me..
working with all kind of workers from different country....
malaysia,china,singapore,mnyamar,bangladesh,philiphine....
the most workers are from mnyamar,bangladesh,philiphine a.k.a 外劳 in malaysia..
i cant call thm as what i do in malaysia here because i myself also one of them!!!!
haha....xD
but some of them really intelligent... the really learn from experiences...
i guess their English are far more better than mine....
the oni problem i face is their English slang....
i cant really get what they are talking...
but soon i will catch that....
good luck to myself... is a must to catch up with their English slang because i will be working together with them~
There good things about this company ...
they provide a lots of different kind of training course and company pay for it...
i will be having training from tomorow onward untill next monday....
i am ready to learning new things...
i really made a very very big decision!
i took up something not related to me course!
i graduated from Electronic Course but now i am working in construction field...
more to piping...
The things that PEC do are more on piping...
the design the pipe line...
they built it... the pipe to contain chemical liquid and gases..
so it is quite dangerous job...
they also do piping for oil and gas company~
they are main in Pharmaceuticals, Vaccines and Consumer Healthcare...
they are dealing with all kind of flammable and acidic chemical...
Safety is in the first place of my company!
everything we do are related to safety~
hope everything will go smooth and i hope i can learn a lots from this site...
although i will be working under hot sun most of the time but i will get myself used to it....
TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT! =D
Lastly,
i am here in singapore alone...
i din forget her...
i never fail of miss her every moment...
i wish to text her every night before i sleep...
but seem like nid to wait for miracle???
i really care about her feeling...
i really scare of disturbing her by texting her a "good night" every night~
am i disturbing her?
or she dun feel comfortable with it?
i dun noe~ =|
i hope to noe~ hee~~
take care~
i miss you~ <3 =)
this is what really happening to me this year~
A great and challenging starting year of 2014!
Say bye bye to Digistar, ampang...
Say hi to PEC LTD...
i made up my mind of jumping for the singapore job...
although i really dun wan to let someone behind and left...
but really sorry that i made this decision.. (to myself and maybe ...her)..
it was really hard to choose...
it was a matter of leaving to other country to work but without the period of time
dunnoe when i will be back..
hardly to choose to leave because of i am leaving someone i really in love~
i was thinking that it was a good chance to get closer to her and have her heart...
but... but... it was ruined...
i also dun why i will made the decision of leaving to Singapore...
maybe is because digistar company too stingy?
maybe is because the pay doesn't insure my saving for my future life? wife? family?house?
after calculation is made...
the most i can save a month is oni RM 200
RM 2400/per year of saving....
if the latest i get married is in 6 years time....
i only have RM 14400 for my wedding??
how bout house? car? who going to pay for thm? parent? hell no~!
i really hope my choice is correct and not the wrong one...
the current client site is GSK company...
if not i will really feel disappointing to myself...
this is the 2nd day of work~
the working environment is far more what i expected...
i was assigned to client site.... so every morning i had to touch in myself at client...
i cant really expect that my office is located in a cabin...
but luckily there are aircond installed in the cabin...
it is really a brand new working environment for me..
working with all kind of workers from different country....
malaysia,china,singapore,mnyamar,bangladesh,philiphine....
the most workers are from mnyamar,bangladesh,philiphine a.k.a 外劳 in malaysia..
i cant call thm as what i do in malaysia here because i myself also one of them!!!!
haha....xD
but some of them really intelligent... the really learn from experiences...
i guess their English are far more better than mine....
the oni problem i face is their English slang....
i cant really get what they are talking...
but soon i will catch that....
good luck to myself... is a must to catch up with their English slang because i will be working together with them~
There good things about this company ...
they provide a lots of different kind of training course and company pay for it...
i will be having training from tomorow onward untill next monday....
i am ready to learning new things...
i really made a very very big decision!
i took up something not related to me course!
i graduated from Electronic Course but now i am working in construction field...
more to piping...
The things that PEC do are more on piping...
the design the pipe line...
they built it... the pipe to contain chemical liquid and gases..
so it is quite dangerous job...
they also do piping for oil and gas company~
they are main in Pharmaceuticals, Vaccines and Consumer Healthcare...
they are dealing with all kind of flammable and acidic chemical...
Safety is in the first place of my company!
everything we do are related to safety~
hope everything will go smooth and i hope i can learn a lots from this site...
although i will be working under hot sun most of the time but i will get myself used to it....
TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT! =D
Lastly,
i am here in singapore alone...
i din forget her...
i never fail of miss her every moment...
i wish to text her every night before i sleep...
but seem like nid to wait for miracle???
i really care about her feeling...
i really scare of disturbing her by texting her a "good night" every night~
am i disturbing her?
or she dun feel comfortable with it?
i dun noe~ =|
i hope to noe~ hee~~
take care~
i miss you~ <3 =)
Thursday, November 14, 2013
everything went odd~~ not smooth~~~
Well~
The last time i updated here was 8 months ago
never touch or update it although i had a very wonderful moment in UK
Too busy? Too many trips? or Too lazy? XD
i dunno...
Anyway~ i can use one word to describe the whole 3 months life in UK!
DOPE!
Everything was just out of my expectation and imaginary while i was still in Malaysia
the weather, peoples and etc was just awesome!
really make me wanna stay there for life!
OK~ change topic... will update more photos of UK life here when i am free...
more than 10k photos~
skip~
Come to the things that i wanted to release stress here!
i find no more place or people for me to cry to~
only here... the best and the only place that nobody will read it only myself
Was really really frustrated recently due to job hunting attending interview
up to now only got 2 interview called up....
The first one~ and is the very first official interview for myself...
was really nervous due to i dun have confidence to answer and refresh my memory on the things i learnt in
Diploma end up failed to get it ...
Partly, the company also put too high expectation on fresh graduates who went for interview especially me
3 went for interview but only me failed to be recruited in the company
Disappointing to myself cos i cant do well in the interview and because i got a bad result
they recruiting based on result...
Issit only people with good result can work better???
The people with bad result cant work well???
can i say they underestimating people who cant study well???
i was asked that why i get so low result???
how i am going to answer???
at last i juz smile to them as i really dunno how to answer and my heart is slashed...
The second interview was in ampang, it is a quite big company, quite lots of things to be learned from...
that are the thing i wanted to learn and the jobscope i wish to have...
Went for interview last friday and get hired...
i was told that is a 5 days work...
i was told that rm 350 is for car allowance
i was not told anything about boding things (WTF???!!! applying for scholarship meh??!!!)
i was not told that i had night shift work...
i went to collected the offer letter today from ampang office...
when the first page i flip i tot i took the wrong letter because it written saturday working hour~@@"
keep reading through~~ i saw the boding things~
i do ask whether i got any training when i am in the company??
he answered me that i only have to follow the senior and he will guide me.. he never mention about the boding things... so if i dun have any training needed ,,, why the hell you include told training and boding stuff into my offer letter??? trying to framed me and seek benefit from my carelessness??
keep read through flipping through the next page
the allowance of RM 350 written as NIGHT SHIFT allowance~
what i have been told this RM 350 is for car allowance and what da hell is NIGHT SHIFT allowance??!!
FUCKING you never mention to me about working night shift??!!!
the most u told me is OT!
night shift and OT is fucking big different things! u noe that??
wondering how u can be a head of department!
or this is wat CEO told to do to their new coming employees??
End Up i had told the HR department to make an appointment for me with the one who interview me since he is not in today! i really wishing to hear what is he going to say!
i wanted to face to face to talk to him!
That is not the way u cutting cost for ur company man...
u keep doing this and not changing style of cheating people to come for interview...
ur company wouldn't stay long!
especially the graduates nowaday!
i hope it is HR department mistakes~
i really hope i can work here since there are lots of things i wish to learn from here...
i hope everything will goes well...
Really lost my mind... and really really down
looking for someone to accompany me.. but find no one~~
due something related self matter...
y they wanted to decide for me whether to work o not...
y not giving a decision-making chance for me to decide whether to accept this job o not~~
i really sked if they keep doin this to me ... I WILL NEVER GROW!!!
i am 23rd now arrrrr~~~~
when oni i got my own decision-making chance???
aiks...
o felt really really stress juz now...
really feel very very helpless and find no one to cry to~~ =(
the only is i went for pool alone at least able to cool down myself little bit~
The only wish now is i can get better offer from this company so that i can stay in company...
i wish to stay in ampang for changing a new environment for myself and due to some of the reason also~ =)
Wish myself good luck~
Amithaba~~
Good Night~ =) <3
The last time i updated here was 8 months ago
never touch or update it although i had a very wonderful moment in UK
Too busy? Too many trips? or Too lazy? XD
i dunno...
Anyway~ i can use one word to describe the whole 3 months life in UK!
DOPE!
Everything was just out of my expectation and imaginary while i was still in Malaysia
the weather, peoples and etc was just awesome!
really make me wanna stay there for life!
OK~ change topic... will update more photos of UK life here when i am free...
more than 10k photos~
skip~
Come to the things that i wanted to release stress here!
i find no more place or people for me to cry to~
only here... the best and the only place that nobody will read it only myself
Was really really frustrated recently due to job hunting attending interview
up to now only got 2 interview called up....
The first one~ and is the very first official interview for myself...
was really nervous due to i dun have confidence to answer and refresh my memory on the things i learnt in
Diploma end up failed to get it ...
Partly, the company also put too high expectation on fresh graduates who went for interview especially me
3 went for interview but only me failed to be recruited in the company
Disappointing to myself cos i cant do well in the interview and because i got a bad result
they recruiting based on result...
Issit only people with good result can work better???
The people with bad result cant work well???
can i say they underestimating people who cant study well???
i was asked that why i get so low result???
how i am going to answer???
at last i juz smile to them as i really dunno how to answer and my heart is slashed...
The second interview was in ampang, it is a quite big company, quite lots of things to be learned from...
that are the thing i wanted to learn and the jobscope i wish to have...
Went for interview last friday and get hired...
i was told that is a 5 days work...
i was told that rm 350 is for car allowance
i was not told anything about boding things (WTF???!!! applying for scholarship meh??!!!)
i was not told that i had night shift work...
i went to collected the offer letter today from ampang office...
when the first page i flip i tot i took the wrong letter because it written saturday working hour~@@"
keep reading through~~ i saw the boding things~
i do ask whether i got any training when i am in the company??
he answered me that i only have to follow the senior and he will guide me.. he never mention about the boding things... so if i dun have any training needed ,,, why the hell you include told training and boding stuff into my offer letter??? trying to framed me and seek benefit from my carelessness??
keep read through flipping through the next page
the allowance of RM 350 written as NIGHT SHIFT allowance~
what i have been told this RM 350 is for car allowance and what da hell is NIGHT SHIFT allowance??!!
FUCKING you never mention to me about working night shift??!!!
the most u told me is OT!
night shift and OT is fucking big different things! u noe that??
wondering how u can be a head of department!
or this is wat CEO told to do to their new coming employees??
End Up i had told the HR department to make an appointment for me with the one who interview me since he is not in today! i really wishing to hear what is he going to say!
i wanted to face to face to talk to him!
That is not the way u cutting cost for ur company man...
u keep doing this and not changing style of cheating people to come for interview...
ur company wouldn't stay long!
especially the graduates nowaday!
i hope it is HR department mistakes~
i really hope i can work here since there are lots of things i wish to learn from here...
i hope everything will goes well...
Really lost my mind... and really really down
looking for someone to accompany me.. but find no one~~
due something related self matter...
y they wanted to decide for me whether to work o not...
y not giving a decision-making chance for me to decide whether to accept this job o not~~
i really sked if they keep doin this to me ... I WILL NEVER GROW!!!
i am 23rd now arrrrr~~~~
when oni i got my own decision-making chance???
aiks...
o felt really really stress juz now...
really feel very very helpless and find no one to cry to~~ =(
the only is i went for pool alone at least able to cool down myself little bit~
The only wish now is i can get better offer from this company so that i can stay in company...
i wish to stay in ampang for changing a new environment for myself and due to some of the reason also~ =)
Wish myself good luck~
Amithaba~~
Good Night~ =) <3
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Hope everything goes smoothly~
i got my last semester result on the 5th of February....
almost fainted when i got my result..
got a C- for engineering management
i failed!
"finally" huh?
really dissapointed to myself once i got my result
i failed to do what i promised to myself at the time when i made up my mind to continue for my advanced
i failed to do that
i promised myself not to failed for the entire advanced diploma
and fell in the last second sem
At first i tot i can passed all and able to relax a bit and fully focus on the only one subject in the last semester
but so unlucky
i failed to do that
anyhow is failed
i cant do anything to make it pass except i resit! (i kept telling myself)
but i really really down on the day and the entire next day...
moody
anyhow
i nid to accept it also
i didnt perform well in the final exam due to the fucking silly mistakes
this is what i can blame
whatever... the most important things now is the focus on this two final subjects...
others things temporary i cant touch
sorry~
if i tell someone like this...
maybe he/she will say i keep giving reasons.... =X
i am sorry~~ =(
Finally my FYP thesis came to the end....
was really suffering period when doing the FYP...
at least it is working.... ^^
at least i learn how to write a android application although my coding is not so good
hehe
few more months i am flying
and i am going to spent quite a lot of money
i bought my dslr and ready for UK!
RM 40K needed to spent in UK
is a big amount of money
i feel a bit guilty of using dad sweat money
and i still not able to be as good as what i sister do
T_T
My tuition still going on
but will end at the end of MAY and get my self ready to fly!
i work hard to earn money and save some money to go UK and have some extra pocket money
but yet still not much
coz the currency of UK is 5 times our country @@"
i wil try my very best to save as much as i can
i found the spare part of my little digital camera on9~~
and it coz me rm 150
ship from US =X
i told my friend about it and he straight say me stupid
say i use rm 150 to fix a camera that cost rm 99
for him is stupid
but for me i just wan to try to fixed it by my own
gain some experience, try out new things.
fixing a digital camera is not easy though
waiting for it to reach here
hehe
as what i did fixed my desktop!
i went to lowyat and look for the spoilt spare parts~
and i search for the whole building of lowyat...
but end up i cant find
i was laughed by some of the shop owner
they told me, power supply cant be fixed one
and nobody go and fixed a power supply
they ask me to change straight away and dun waste time
i did go into their shop and look for a new power supply but it cost bout RM 200++
@@
i din buy coz too expensive for me
but i found the spare part in Malacca
HELL YEAH i fixed it
everything went back to normal
i proved u all wrong, power supply can be fixed!
and i spent RM10++ instead of rm 200++ ;)
.........................................................................................
我真的想你了
我时常梦见到你
在梦里很甜蜜
多希望是真的
有种想永远都睡不醒的感觉
但最终还是得醒
很想找你
但找不到话题
很想打给你
但怕打扰你
不是故意不找你
而是我不知道我在你心中是否重要
最后还是保持沉默
依然无时无刻地想你
=(
晚安 <3 =)
almost fainted when i got my result..
got a C- for engineering management
i failed!
"finally" huh?
really dissapointed to myself once i got my result
i failed to do what i promised to myself at the time when i made up my mind to continue for my advanced
i failed to do that
i promised myself not to failed for the entire advanced diploma
and fell in the last second sem
At first i tot i can passed all and able to relax a bit and fully focus on the only one subject in the last semester
but so unlucky
i failed to do that
anyhow is failed
i cant do anything to make it pass except i resit! (i kept telling myself)
but i really really down on the day and the entire next day...
moody
anyhow
i nid to accept it also
i didnt perform well in the final exam due to the fucking silly mistakes
this is what i can blame
whatever... the most important things now is the focus on this two final subjects...
others things temporary i cant touch
sorry~
if i tell someone like this...
maybe he/she will say i keep giving reasons.... =X
i am sorry~~ =(
Finally my FYP thesis came to the end....
was really suffering period when doing the FYP...
at least it is working.... ^^
at least i learn how to write a android application although my coding is not so good
hehe
few more months i am flying
and i am going to spent quite a lot of money
i bought my dslr and ready for UK!
RM 40K needed to spent in UK
is a big amount of money
i feel a bit guilty of using dad sweat money
and i still not able to be as good as what i sister do
T_T
My tuition still going on
but will end at the end of MAY and get my self ready to fly!
i work hard to earn money and save some money to go UK and have some extra pocket money
but yet still not much
coz the currency of UK is 5 times our country @@"
i wil try my very best to save as much as i can
i found the spare part of my little digital camera on9~~
and it coz me rm 150
ship from US =X
i told my friend about it and he straight say me stupid
say i use rm 150 to fix a camera that cost rm 99
for him is stupid
but for me i just wan to try to fixed it by my own
gain some experience, try out new things.
fixing a digital camera is not easy though
waiting for it to reach here
hehe
as what i did fixed my desktop!
i went to lowyat and look for the spoilt spare parts~
and i search for the whole building of lowyat...
but end up i cant find
i was laughed by some of the shop owner
they told me, power supply cant be fixed one
and nobody go and fixed a power supply
they ask me to change straight away and dun waste time
i did go into their shop and look for a new power supply but it cost bout RM 200++
@@
i din buy coz too expensive for me
but i found the spare part in Malacca
HELL YEAH i fixed it
everything went back to normal
i proved u all wrong, power supply can be fixed!
and i spent RM10++ instead of rm 200++ ;)
.........................................................................................
我真的想你了
我时常梦见到你
在梦里很甜蜜
多希望是真的
有种想永远都睡不醒的感觉
但最终还是得醒
很想找你
但找不到话题
很想打给你
但怕打扰你
不是故意不找你
而是我不知道我在你心中是否重要
最后还是保持沉默
依然无时无刻地想你
=(
晚安 <3 =)
Saturday, February 2, 2013
TIRED! BUT I DID IT!
YESH!
finally i passed!
i made it for wat i had promised to myself!
must passed and get back that RM800!
hahaha!!!
issit because, there is a rule of...
if we pass in the test...
and we are able to claim back the fees that cost RM 800~~
(is a way of motivation)
now i PASSED!
in short from wat i earned from this huawei company short courses>>
-free brand new knowledge
-free meals ~xD
-free exam~
-free very 3 informative books
-free multiples of useful software
-free certificate
last but not least~
i gained another opportunity to work in their company! =D
this is my first external extra short course i took in college.. weird huh?
i drained up a week to study off 700++ pages of notes~
really killing~
study till very very very blurrr~~~
nearly giving up~ @@""
i remember her words "要吗就不要开始, 既然开始了就完成它!" ~
this sentence woke me up~
and i "fly" back kl 2 days earlier to study with FU SOON & SHAWN~~~
our exam we appoint to the company was on wednesday...
1 day before i went fu soon house to study and work hard to finished the 800++ sample questions that given by the lecturer....
but at last i only manage to finished 400++ oni~
i was damn sked on the exam day because i am not really prepared for that....
after that exam i was glad that i passed.
the passing grade was 600/1000
but i got 750/1000.. i am the lowest among three of us...
shawn got 800++ and fusoon got 900++!!!!
to me~ they are god!!! =D
i admit i not good in study and i am satisfied with the result..
After that suffering period~
now get back in touch with my Final Year Project!
we were told to add in more feature into our project in order to get higher mark.. /_\
is not and easy stuff to add in~~~
coding~ lol...
but i will try my best...
recently bought a second hand DSLR... hehe...
Canon 550D kit lens 18-135mm~
with these accesories:-
-Canon 550D body
-lens 18-135mm
-canon original tripod
-canon original battery grip (BG-E8)
-nissin flash
-HOYA PRO 1 Digital filter
-2x Canon original battery
-dslr backpack bag (able to store two dslr)
-2 x 8GB memory card
the price is RM 2050 (asked my friends for opinion and he said can buy.. cheap)
thinking to sell off the nissin flash and the battery grip due to i am not a professional and i juz snap for interest only~
thinking of my nikon J1~ =(
meet her almost everynight in my dream...
is she in the same dream with me also?
hope she is~ ><
THINK TOO MUCH LAR! JERRY GUI! ><
but really she appeared in my dream everynight... =(
lastly~
no HOLIDAYS for this sem break!!!!!!!!!
all because of the short courses and FYP!!!
no matter how... still left 5 months!
and i am free! and i will do smtg that i wanted to do so much! <3 hehe~~
exam result released soon! 5th FEBRUARY 2013~~
wish me luck~~~
amitabha~~~
night lo~~
sweet dream yea...
how are u recently?
really miss u a lots.. <3
finally i passed!
i made it for wat i had promised to myself!
must passed and get back that RM800!
hahaha!!!
issit because, there is a rule of...
if we pass in the test...
and we are able to claim back the fees that cost RM 800~~
(is a way of motivation)
now i PASSED!
in short from wat i earned from this huawei company short courses>>
-free brand new knowledge
-free meals ~xD
-free exam~
-free very 3 informative books
-free multiples of useful software
-free certificate
last but not least~
i gained another opportunity to work in their company! =D
this is my first external extra short course i took in college.. weird huh?
i drained up a week to study off 700++ pages of notes~
really killing~
study till very very very blurrr~~~
nearly giving up~ @@""
i remember her words "要吗就不要开始, 既然开始了就完成它!" ~
this sentence woke me up~
and i "fly" back kl 2 days earlier to study with FU SOON & SHAWN~~~
our exam we appoint to the company was on wednesday...
1 day before i went fu soon house to study and work hard to finished the 800++ sample questions that given by the lecturer....
but at last i only manage to finished 400++ oni~
i was damn sked on the exam day because i am not really prepared for that....
after that exam i was glad that i passed.
the passing grade was 600/1000
but i got 750/1000.. i am the lowest among three of us...
shawn got 800++ and fusoon got 900++!!!!
to me~ they are god!!! =D
i admit i not good in study and i am satisfied with the result..
After that suffering period~
now get back in touch with my Final Year Project!
we were told to add in more feature into our project in order to get higher mark.. /_\
is not and easy stuff to add in~~~
coding~ lol...
but i will try my best...
recently bought a second hand DSLR... hehe...
Canon 550D kit lens 18-135mm~
with these accesories:-
-Canon 550D body
-lens 18-135mm
-canon original tripod
-canon original battery grip (BG-E8)
-nissin flash
-HOYA PRO 1 Digital filter
-2x Canon original battery
-dslr backpack bag (able to store two dslr)
-2 x 8GB memory card
the price is RM 2050 (asked my friends for opinion and he said can buy.. cheap)
thinking to sell off the nissin flash and the battery grip due to i am not a professional and i juz snap for interest only~
thinking of my nikon J1~ =(
meet her almost everynight in my dream...
is she in the same dream with me also?
hope she is~ ><
THINK TOO MUCH LAR! JERRY GUI! ><
but really she appeared in my dream everynight... =(
lastly~
no HOLIDAYS for this sem break!!!!!!!!!
all because of the short courses and FYP!!!
no matter how... still left 5 months!
and i am free! and i will do smtg that i wanted to do so much! <3 hehe~~
exam result released soon! 5th FEBRUARY 2013~~
wish me luck~~~
amitabha~~~
night lo~~
sweet dream yea...
how are u recently?
really miss u a lots.. <3
Saturday, January 19, 2013
一定要pass!!!
自从开始预备终考, 脑就一直没得休息....
上个星期，刚考完终考。。。
隔天，就直接开始已经因为学生的大假期而暂停两个月的补习。。。
接着下来的一个星期，也就是这星期。。。上课！！！
这是一堂六天的课程。。。是由华为技术有限公司提供的课程。。。
它是个在世界蛮有名的公司。。。
再来，这课程对我来说是全新的东西。。。
因为想学习新的东西，所以就报名啦。。。
还有就是拿了它的几十仙的纸来做我将来就业机会的备用。。。
万一在我这行失业，还可以带着那几十仙的纸到他们的公司面试。。。 xD
课程的报名费是RM800。。。
那时跟过老爸提起这件事。。。
可能是因为报名费的关系而劝我不报名。。。
钱我有存到。。。
结果，没再跟他提起。。。就用私家钱报名去了。。。
但是到最后，老爸不但没有责骂我。。。
反而还汇了钱给我（都跟他说不用了）。。。
我会好好用的。。。
谢谢你啦老爸！爱你~~ <3
这课程是关于电讯。。。
ip address, router, switch......
今天是课程的最后一天。。。
学到的东西虽然难了一点但是还真的蛮有趣的。。。
难？一定的嘛~
从零开始叻~~~
很快上手。。。
可能是因为讲师给多practical...而让我们快上手。。
有两位讲师。。一男一女。。。
两个都教得不错。。。
果然是有到过中国的总行训练过。。。
不错不错~~~
我果然做对的决定。。。 =D
上完课了嘛。。。
接着就要预备着课程的考试。。。
三本厚厚的书一共是七百多面等着我去读。。。 @@"
不上都上玩了。。。
只好乖乖的读完去pass 了它~~~
最近的身体不是很好。。。
手臂，背后。。。
还有着几天都有漫严重的扁头痛。。。
真是要了我的命啊~~~
手臂~有想要去医院治。。。
但是，政府医院最厉害的就是止痛药最畅销的啦。。。
痛？？？
给止痛药你吃。。。 吃了就不会痛。。。
这样的话，不如我忍着痛。。。=.=
这是我朋友去医院的后果。。。
他气得差点就要拆掉整个医院了。。。哈哈！
在ipad 下载了基本华语书。。。
还不错读。。。
无聊没事做的时候读的。。。 xD
一定要pass!!!!
为自己加油！='')
gambatek!
Monday, December 31, 2012
Everything in 2012 ended here~~
Today will be the last day of year 2012...
Obviously , this will be the last post for year 2012 ...
The reason i will be sitting in front of my computer to start blogging is...
i am too pressure on my study....
exam really drove me crazy!!!
the the most important reason is to summarize my life in year 2012 before it ends.....
The current activity that is happening in my college now is the Final exam for the whole college students.
everyone is busying with study and revision in order to get themselves well prepared for their final exam...
The bad things is, the exam period fell on the chirstmas and the new year period..
from facebook, i heard and seen a lots of complaints from my friends about the problem of the exam period and made them unable to celebrate for chirstmas new year~~
To me is nothing , because i dint celebrate these two festival since i was a child, even my birthday!
my birthday for 2012 was special than before...
3 types of festivals in a day...
my birthday, Winter Solstice, and the so call "DOOMS DAY"!!!! haha....
i was not able to go back hometown to eat tangyuan this year because of the preparation for final exam~~~
but i went to her house to eat tangyuan to celebrate winter solstice for this year...
and this is my first time to eat tang yuan at friend hous in kl....
really thx to her... <3 appreciated it very much~ <3
and it really meant a lots to the winter solstice and my birthday although without celebration on that day~~ xD
Few weeks back, i was rushing for my assignment and my final year project thesis~
i was nearly crazy with them, but luckily i was able to finished them in time...
but the bad things was, my health was affected! >,<
there were a lot of problems a\happened to me>> migraine, backbone, muscles......etc...
even it happening now!
current health problem is >> i guess my nerves run out and tracks and pressed between bones...
i have no ideas how it happened.. and i am looking for a chinese doctor now!
any recommendation?
is really freaking damn sufferring! >.<
The are more and more things happened in the year 2012...
it is impossible to write them all here....
so, currently i am still single... and i will get "one" very soon.. xD
and the "one" that i mentioned is the "one" i missed very minutes and seconds! =D
i also hope that my health will be better and i can get a chinese doctor a.s.a.p!
Lastly, i hope that i can do well in my exam and my pressure can be reduced....
"THINK POSITIVE" is the most important task and promised to myself! =DD
There are tonnes of things that i have learnt, met, experienced, came across....
For the bad one, i will treat them as lessons...
For the good one, i will treat them as gifts...
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013 !!!
AND I WISH MY FAMILY, "YOU" and ALL MY FRIENDS HAVE A WONDERFUL START OF A NEW YEAR!!!!
<3
ps: and is just nice 23:59 31/12/2012!!!! xD
Obviously , this will be the last post for year 2012 ...
The reason i will be sitting in front of my computer to start blogging is...
i am too pressure on my study....
exam really drove me crazy!!!
the the most important reason is to summarize my life in year 2012 before it ends.....
The current activity that is happening in my college now is the Final exam for the whole college students.
everyone is busying with study and revision in order to get themselves well prepared for their final exam...
The bad things is, the exam period fell on the chirstmas and the new year period..
from facebook, i heard and seen a lots of complaints from my friends about the problem of the exam period and made them unable to celebrate for chirstmas new year~~
To me is nothing , because i dint celebrate these two festival since i was a child, even my birthday!
my birthday for 2012 was special than before...
3 types of festivals in a day...
my birthday, Winter Solstice, and the so call "DOOMS DAY"!!!! haha....
i was not able to go back hometown to eat tangyuan this year because of the preparation for final exam~~~
but i went to her house to eat tangyuan to celebrate winter solstice for this year...
and this is my first time to eat tang yuan at friend hous in kl....
really thx to her... <3 appreciated it very much~ <3
and it really meant a lots to the winter solstice and my birthday although without celebration on that day~~ xD
Few weeks back, i was rushing for my assignment and my final year project thesis~
i was nearly crazy with them, but luckily i was able to finished them in time...
but the bad things was, my health was affected! >,<
there were a lot of problems a\happened to me>> migraine, backbone, muscles......etc...
even it happening now!
current health problem is >> i guess my nerves run out and tracks and pressed between bones...
i have no ideas how it happened.. and i am looking for a chinese doctor now!
any recommendation?
is really freaking damn sufferring! >.<
The are more and more things happened in the year 2012...
it is impossible to write them all here....
so, currently i am still single... and i will get "one" very soon.. xD
and the "one" that i mentioned is the "one" i missed very minutes and seconds! =D
i also hope that my health will be better and i can get a chinese doctor a.s.a.p!
Lastly, i hope that i can do well in my exam and my pressure can be reduced....
"THINK POSITIVE" is the most important task and promised to myself! =DD
There are tonnes of things that i have learnt, met, experienced, came across....
For the bad one, i will treat them as lessons...
For the good one, i will treat them as gifts...
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013 !!!
AND I WISH MY FAMILY, "YOU" and ALL MY FRIENDS HAVE A WONDERFUL START OF A NEW YEAR!!!!
<3
ps: and is just nice 23:59 31/12/2012!!!! xD
Monday, November 26, 2012
累•没变
累。。。。。
真的很累。。。。
可以感觉到非常的累。。。。。
自己都还不确定是否可以顺利闯过这个超累的学期。。。。
感觉是有点不行了。。。
有股想放弃的感觉。。。。
我从一开始踏入校园，在成绩方面一直都没舍骄傲的。。。
直到今天也是一样。。。。
做的比人家多。。
但是成绩怎么考，还是一样的差。。。
到底是那里出问题？？？
脑袋？ 心灵？ 人格？ 专心能力？
自己都没法知道。。。
都不知道为何我还这么拼的去读去做。。。
咳〜〜
有心事，不知找谁聊。。。
想找她。。 但觉得奇怪。。。
其实，我对她还有感觉的。。。
都那么久了。。
为舍对她的感觉完全没改变，没退化。。。
还是那么的在乎她，还是那么的想去关心她。。。
时常都会到她的部落格去看看。。。
=(
但有时觉得自己没再次去示爱是对的。。。
因为我了解自己的为人。。。
如果。。如果。。当初我成功的话。。。
可能现在我会把她给忽略。。
因为我会花大部分的时间在学业上。。。
应为我怕再次留级。。。 ：（
如果她读了这遍文章。。。 可能会觉得我很奇怪（因为我也这么觉得）。。@.@
现在的脑袋就像打死结的线一样
完全操作不到....
咳~~
今天早点睡~
真的没办法做功课了~~~~ =(
早点睡啦你~~~ xD
晚安~ <3
真的很累。。。。
可以感觉到非常的累。。。。。
自己都还不确定是否可以顺利闯过这个超累的学期。。。。
感觉是有点不行了。。。
有股想放弃的感觉。。。。
我从一开始踏入校园，在成绩方面一直都没舍骄傲的。。。
直到今天也是一样。。。。
做的比人家多。。
但是成绩怎么考，还是一样的差。。。
到底是那里出问题？？？
脑袋？ 心灵？ 人格？ 专心能力？
自己都没法知道。。。
都不知道为何我还这么拼的去读去做。。。
咳〜〜
有心事，不知找谁聊。。。
想找她。。 但觉得奇怪。。。
其实，我对她还有感觉的。。。
都那么久了。。
为舍对她的感觉完全没改变，没退化。。。
还是那么的在乎她，还是那么的想去关心她。。。
时常都会到她的部落格去看看。。。
=(
但有时觉得自己没再次去示爱是对的。。。
因为我了解自己的为人。。。
如果。。如果。。当初我成功的话。。。
可能现在我会把她给忽略。。
因为我会花大部分的时间在学业上。。。
应为我怕再次留级。。。 ：（
如果她读了这遍文章。。。 可能会觉得我很奇怪（因为我也这么觉得）。。@.@
现在的脑袋就像打死结的线一样
完全操作不到....
咳~~
今天早点睡~
真的没办法做功课了~~~~ =(
早点睡啦你~~~ xD
晚安~ <3
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Tiring semester~~ GAMBATE! HWAITING!
Lefted my blog untouch for such long time
Spider web are everywhere in my blog
Because of Super duper busy this semester
Tonnes of work to be done within this sem
Thrice the busiiiiness comparing to the previous few sems
Let me lits out the task must be done within this sem
5 assignments, 5 mid term test, 4 lab reports, 3 lab demos, interim reports, prototype, fyp demo,thesis
Okay... Is 21 tasks altogather
Damnn... Still left at least 6? Haiz.
I also dun noe what the lecturer thinking
Really run out of time this sem..
No idea how to get myself prepared for the final exam.
All are very difficult subjects, and nid time to understand
Till now still frustrting for my final year project preoblem
I am writing an android program which can be used to control a smart house.
Which mean that all the electronic devices are under controll of an android phone.
My job is to write out and android application
I am a bit regreted of promising my partner that i wanted to incharge of software part.
Coz my basic on software is not good and my logic thinking is not good to be a programmer.
Anyhow, i thicken up my face and go toward anyone who are good i software and programming
I am 60% done of my parts. Anroid apps is done. Left oni the connection to the computer coding still facing problem.
My partner is incharging the hardware parts, i really really hope that our parts can be connected and become a completed smart house projects.
Today mood really fcuked up .
Too pressure? Too tensions?
Maybe yes? Or smtg else...
Aiks....
Missing someone again?
Dream of someone again?
Oni can meet in the dream instead of real life?
Aiks...
Sometimes really hope that she can be by my side when i am down.
But issit possible?
Impossible i guess...
I juz nobody...
Listening to a song "Miss you like crazy".... Niz songs and is like singing from my heart and my feeling...
I really hope i can successful pass this sem and i will be very very very happy le...
AMITABHA...
Lastly...
Happy convocation and u look great today.. =) <3
Good night <3
Spider web are everywhere in my blog
Because of Super duper busy this semester
Tonnes of work to be done within this sem
Thrice the busiiiiness comparing to the previous few sems
Let me lits out the task must be done within this sem
5 assignments, 5 mid term test, 4 lab reports, 3 lab demos, interim reports, prototype, fyp demo,thesis
Okay... Is 21 tasks altogather
Damnn... Still left at least 6? Haiz.
I also dun noe what the lecturer thinking
Really run out of time this sem..
No idea how to get myself prepared for the final exam.
All are very difficult subjects, and nid time to understand
Till now still frustrting for my final year project preoblem
I am writing an android program which can be used to control a smart house.
Which mean that all the electronic devices are under controll of an android phone.
My job is to write out and android application
I am a bit regreted of promising my partner that i wanted to incharge of software part.
Coz my basic on software is not good and my logic thinking is not good to be a programmer.
Anyhow, i thicken up my face and go toward anyone who are good i software and programming
I am 60% done of my parts. Anroid apps is done. Left oni the connection to the computer coding still facing problem.
My partner is incharging the hardware parts, i really really hope that our parts can be connected and become a completed smart house projects.
Today mood really fcuked up .
Too pressure? Too tensions?
Maybe yes? Or smtg else...
Aiks....
Missing someone again?
Dream of someone again?
Oni can meet in the dream instead of real life?
Aiks...
Sometimes really hope that she can be by my side when i am down.
But issit possible?
Impossible i guess...
I juz nobody...
Listening to a song "Miss you like crazy".... Niz songs and is like singing from my heart and my feeling...
I really hope i can successful pass this sem and i will be very very very happy le...
AMITABHA...
Lastly...
Happy convocation and u look great today.. =) <3
Good night <3
Thursday, September 13, 2012
动漫？!
时间是凌晨四点
刚停止忙着做fyp的research
也刚看完一集动漫。。。
天啊~
我竟然看动漫，还真的看得那么认真。
不只是银魂，还有黑子的篮球。
两部都不错。。。
其实也是觉得好奇，她为何那么迷
就试着去看
果然不错看。。。XD
黑子的篮球这部是看到她在她的面书上推荐。。。 再加上🏀 这两个字。。。
我才那么有兴趣要看！呵呵~XD
因为我喜欢篮球（虽然没舍厉害。）
看完了23集。。。 等不及要看下集！！！
原来追动漫是这种感觉！
我也不知道几时会出下集。。。@-@
觉得这比slamdunk还好看。。。
因为可能slamdunk 我只看了几集。。。xD
虽然有些动作很夸张。。 哈哈
尤其是那个绿发的。。。 百分之百的进球 @-@
突然真的很想打篮球啊！
加加买买差不多有一年没他篮球了。。。
球鞋也被我当出街鞋了。。。
一定有机会的（等朋友约。。囧）
最进比较常打羽球。。。
因为classmates都是打羽球的。。。很少有打篮球的。。
眼睛有点累了。。。
就在这停打。。。
晚安。。
sweet dream~ ＜3
（昨天又梦见她了。。。 =3）
刚停止忙着做fyp的research
也刚看完一集动漫。。。
天啊~
我竟然看动漫，还真的看得那么认真。
不只是银魂，还有黑子的篮球。
两部都不错。。。
其实也是觉得好奇，她为何那么迷
就试着去看
果然不错看。。。XD
黑子的篮球这部是看到她在她的面书上推荐。。。 再加上🏀 这两个字。。。
我才那么有兴趣要看！呵呵~XD
因为我喜欢篮球（虽然没舍厉害。）
看完了23集。。。 等不及要看下集！！！
原来追动漫是这种感觉！
我也不知道几时会出下集。。。@-@
觉得这比slamdunk还好看。。。
因为可能slamdunk 我只看了几集。。。xD
虽然有些动作很夸张。。 哈哈
尤其是那个绿发的。。。 百分之百的进球 @-@
突然真的很想打篮球啊！
加加买买差不多有一年没他篮球了。。。
球鞋也被我当出街鞋了。。。
一定有机会的（等朋友约。。囧）
最进比较常打羽球。。。
因为classmates都是打羽球的。。。很少有打篮球的。。
眼睛有点累了。。。
就在这停打。。。
晚安。。
sweet dream~ ＜3
（昨天又梦见她了。。。 =3）
Thursday, September 6, 2012
失眠•思念
快要凌晨五点了~
虽然脑袋很累，但双眼还是睁大大的~
咳~
脑子很乱，很多事情一直在里徘徊着~
烦着很多东西~心事也不少~
谁来陪我聊聊心事?解解烦恼？
最近啊~
她一直都出现在我梦里。。。我也不知为什么。。。
可能是我太想念她了？
还是很想见到她？
再想想~ 可能俩都是吧~^_^
每次到了晚上没看见她上线~
就会有些担心她还没到家或之类的~
***虽然知道我是多余的。。。
可能是自作多情吧~
她还有很多人关心呢~
少了我也没关系吧~？
；）
因为补习！！！
我现在过着我最不想要的堕落和颓废的日子啊！！！
爸妈酱忙~
我~我却~ 在这无所事事的过活。。
就为了那两个中半的补习！！！
真的真的很内疚啊！！！！
（≧∇≦）
虽然脑袋很累，但双眼还是睁大大的~
咳~
脑子很乱，很多事情一直在里徘徊着~
烦着很多东西~心事也不少~
谁来陪我聊聊心事?解解烦恼？
最近啊~
她一直都出现在我梦里。。。我也不知为什么。。。
可能是我太想念她了？
还是很想见到她？
再想想~ 可能俩都是吧~^_^
每次到了晚上没看见她上线~
就会有些担心她还没到家或之类的~
***虽然知道我是多余的。。。
可能是自作多情吧~
她还有很多人关心呢~
少了我也没关系吧~？
；）
因为补习！！！
我现在过着我最不想要的堕落和颓废的日子啊！！！
爸妈酱忙~
我~我却~ 在这无所事事的过活。。
就为了那两个中半的补习！！！
真的真的很内疚啊！！！！
（≧∇≦）
Saturday, September 1, 2012
考试 ● 假期
一眨眼~
一年过去了~
advanced diploma 第一年将就结束了~
第三个sem的终考刚过不久~~
对自己有点失望,因为有两科考得不是很理想
也可以说只有百分之三十的机会会过关...
咳~
反而对最后的三科比较有信心。。。
如果一切顺利，可能可以得B以上吧~~
我在advanced的目标是每一科在没有重考的状况顺利过关~
始终还是办不到~
可能你会说成绩还没揭晓啊~
但是我回答那份考题~
已知道成绩了~~ ><
但我还是很希望会有奇迹出现~~~XD
阿弥陀佛~
真的不想重考~
因为第二年，也就是最后的一年~
这是会搞出人命的一年~
实在太多的功课要做,再加上最烦人的final year project!!!
我和ah keong (一样是强) 一组~
我们的题目是“ 智能家 ” 也就是smart home~
概念是使用智能手机来控制一间家的所有使用电流操作的东西 （风扇，空调等。）
剩下3个月的时间~~
还真的在烦恼着，是否可以完成~~
咳~真的希望可以~~~
明天就要回kl了~~~
因为教补习而被逼提早回去~~
有点不舍得回去~~~
心有点内疚~
因为父母的店非常的忙~
而我竟然回去教补习？？？
>_<
真的内疚~但又有舍办法？
我已因为考试而停补1个月~~
答应学生会在九月继续~
真的没办法~~
爸妈~ 对不起~ 辛苦啦~ >.<
其实也不是完全为了补习~~
要开始我的fyp 了~
再不开始真的没办法完成~
最烦的是要吐出10000个字的report~ @@"
一个星期的假期，过得还蛮充实的～
早上七点多被妈叫醒～就陪她去pasar买菜和早餐～
在pasar时，感觉自己很像aunty将～哈哈～～
但也不错啦～
现在学下, 将来可以减轻老婆的负担~XD
差不多八点到爸的店～
就开始忙到旁晚～
中间有空的时间就上网～～
六点多才回家～
回到家，冲凉之后就开始追戏～～
在一个星期，看完了两部连续剧～
＜飞虎＞，＜on call 36小时＞
很不错看～～
喜欢on call 的爱情的剧情～
感人～
飞虎的也不错～
弄到有点想报名参与飞虎队～～
哈哈哈！！！ XD
我～我～我竟然开始看了动漫～
我看是被某人影响到～～哈哈～
看了二十集～
还不错啦～～
搞笑!
不怪的她那么沉迷～～XD
有排给我追(200++集)～
最近，在梦里一直见到她～
搞得我很想永远的睡着，留在那梦里～
陪着她~
说真的~
我真的想她了~~ <3 ='(
我一定会加油的！
最后一年了~
不想再留多一年！！！
GAMBATEH!
<3
一年过去了~
advanced diploma 第一年将就结束了~
第三个sem的终考刚过不久~~
对自己有点失望,因为有两科考得不是很理想
也可以说只有百分之三十的机会会过关...
咳~
反而对最后的三科比较有信心。。。
如果一切顺利，可能可以得B以上吧~~
我在advanced的目标是每一科在没有重考的状况顺利过关~
始终还是办不到~
可能你会说成绩还没揭晓啊~
但是我回答那份考题~
已知道成绩了~~ ><
但我还是很希望会有奇迹出现~~~XD
阿弥陀佛~
真的不想重考~
因为第二年，也就是最后的一年~
这是会搞出人命的一年~
实在太多的功课要做,再加上最烦人的final year project!!!
我和ah keong (一样是强) 一组~
我们的题目是“ 智能家 ” 也就是smart home~
概念是使用智能手机来控制一间家的所有使用电流操作的东西 （风扇，空调等。）
剩下3个月的时间~~
还真的在烦恼着，是否可以完成~~
咳~真的希望可以~~~
明天就要回kl了~~~
因为教补习而被逼提早回去~~
有点不舍得回去~~~
心有点内疚~
因为父母的店非常的忙~
而我竟然回去教补习？？？
>_<
真的内疚~但又有舍办法？
我已因为考试而停补1个月~~
答应学生会在九月继续~
真的没办法~~
爸妈~ 对不起~ 辛苦啦~ >.<
其实也不是完全为了补习~~
要开始我的fyp 了~
再不开始真的没办法完成~
最烦的是要吐出10000个字的report~ @@"
一个星期的假期，过得还蛮充实的～
早上七点多被妈叫醒～就陪她去pasar买菜和早餐～
在pasar时，感觉自己很像aunty将～哈哈～～
但也不错啦～
现在学下, 将来可以减轻老婆的负担~XD
差不多八点到爸的店～
就开始忙到旁晚～
中间有空的时间就上网～～
六点多才回家～
回到家，冲凉之后就开始追戏～～
在一个星期，看完了两部连续剧～
＜飞虎＞，＜on call 36小时＞
很不错看～～
喜欢on call 的爱情的剧情～
感人～
飞虎的也不错～
弄到有点想报名参与飞虎队～～
哈哈哈！！！ XD
我～我～我竟然开始看了动漫～
我看是被某人影响到～～哈哈～
看了二十集～
还不错啦～～
搞笑!
不怪的她那么沉迷～～XD
有排给我追(200++集)～
最近，在梦里一直见到她～
搞得我很想永远的睡着，留在那梦里～
陪着她~
说真的~
我真的想她了~~ <3 ='(
我一定会加油的！
最后一年了~
不想再留多一年！！！
GAMBATEH!
<3
Friday, August 10, 2012
Beg for a pass~~ pls~~~
Late night .. Time is 5 am in the morning..
Someone juz got into bed...
But i juz got out of my lovely bed to STUDY!!!!
Digital signal processing a.k.a DSP~
juz finished examed yesterday..
Haiz....
Ms.Lim ar...
Wondering y u want us to die so cruelly..
Wondering whether u are lack of experinces to set questions or u took the wrong way to set it?
The tutorialssss u gave us in class are so fucking easy..
And we did past year paper..
The questions are almost the same throughout years...
But WTF u set totally different questions?
We oni get to done low pass filter question in past year...
But y u come out HIGH PASS FILTER??!!
Isshh!
We not oni din have question in past year... But u din even give us some questions in either tutorialsss or extra exercises!!!
This time really hopeless!!!
and the mostly crazy things is i managed to finished 3 questions out of 4!!o0o
Press calculator till my hand giggles...
The values i get all freaking weird...
And out of the expectation...
Haiz...
I beg u ms.lim..
Pls dun fail me...
I really dun wish to resit...
Next semester will be triple busier than this semester...
I dun wish to hav a resit paper...
Next semester if not wrong...
We will hav 5 subs +fnished FYP!
FYP really can kill me...
If u gov me a pass...
I will be super duper statisfied wif it...
I dun wish for and A OR B...
C is more than enough...
And i will pray more... =P
K lar...
Hope i wont think of this subs anymore...
Friendly speaking...
DSP is the 2nd easiest subject among the total of 5 subs.. T.T
Tomorrow is the toughest!
Used one week to study.. But understand 30% .. @@
Want to stop le..
Write more.. The more sad i become...
Good luck to myself and all da best...
Of course to u, aunty , also ya.! GAMBATEK!
<3
Someone juz got into bed...
But i juz got out of my lovely bed to STUDY!!!!
Digital signal processing a.k.a DSP~
juz finished examed yesterday..
Haiz....
Ms.Lim ar...
Wondering y u want us to die so cruelly..
Wondering whether u are lack of experinces to set questions or u took the wrong way to set it?
The tutorialssss u gave us in class are so fucking easy..
And we did past year paper..
The questions are almost the same throughout years...
But WTF u set totally different questions?
We oni get to done low pass filter question in past year...
But y u come out HIGH PASS FILTER??!!
Isshh!
We not oni din have question in past year... But u din even give us some questions in either tutorialsss or extra exercises!!!
This time really hopeless!!!
and the mostly crazy things is i managed to finished 3 questions out of 4!!o0o
Press calculator till my hand giggles...
The values i get all freaking weird...
And out of the expectation...
Haiz...
I beg u ms.lim..
Pls dun fail me...
I really dun wish to resit...
Next semester will be triple busier than this semester...
I dun wish to hav a resit paper...
Next semester if not wrong...
We will hav 5 subs +fnished FYP!
FYP really can kill me...
If u gov me a pass...
I will be super duper statisfied wif it...
I dun wish for and A OR B...
C is more than enough...
And i will pray more... =P
K lar...
Hope i wont think of this subs anymore...
Friendly speaking...
DSP is the 2nd easiest subject among the total of 5 subs.. T.T
Tomorrow is the toughest!
Used one week to study.. But understand 30% .. @@
Want to stop le..
Write more.. The more sad i become...
Good luck to myself and all da best...
Of course to u, aunty , also ya.! GAMBATEK!
<3
Saturday, August 4, 2012
病倒了!
好啦~
我终于病倒啦
好像有一年都没生病了
是好是坏~？
总之就是凶多吉少 =（
真是他妈的
这个时候来让我生病！
老天爷啊
我还有很多还没念完啊！！！
刚才下午在图书馆就感觉真个人怪怪的
时冷时热的~
迟些头痛，头晕晕的 （@_@）
幸亏老妹也在哪。。。
就叫她陪我去canteen2买panadol吃
吃了之后却躺在图书馆睡了足足一个钟
还有啊~~
肚子不听话三天了
也不清楚舍事
不是泻肚子
也不是胃病
时不时就搅下
真个就是想死的感觉 （><""“）
想去看医生
但怕看了需要住院
还是不敢去
坚持不要去
让他自己恢复
万一要进院就完了
不许考试了
怕怕。。。。
为了终考，已经够烦躁了
还要来将多病
咳~~
读了一个星期, 才完成那一点点
而且还是那半懂半不懂的
这次可能会有机会重考
我不想重考啊！！！！！
这个学期真是很压力
不愧是高级文凭 ='(
(不是人读的)
总而言之，我会进能力去考
祈求上天保佑，让我病快点好起来
><"""
aunty~
你也要好好照顾自己～
记得喝多点水哈～～
还有啊～
别太迟睡啊～ <3
=)
我终于病倒啦
好像有一年都没生病了
是好是坏~？
总之就是凶多吉少 =（
真是他妈的
这个时候来让我生病！
老天爷啊
我还有很多还没念完啊！！！
刚才下午在图书馆就感觉真个人怪怪的
时冷时热的~
迟些头痛，头晕晕的 （@_@）
幸亏老妹也在哪。。。
就叫她陪我去canteen2买panadol吃
吃了之后却躺在图书馆睡了足足一个钟
还有啊~~
肚子不听话三天了
也不清楚舍事
不是泻肚子
也不是胃病
时不时就搅下
真个就是想死的感觉 （><""“）
想去看医生
但怕看了需要住院
还是不敢去
坚持不要去
让他自己恢复
万一要进院就完了
不许考试了
怕怕。。。。
为了终考，已经够烦躁了
还要来将多病
咳~~
读了一个星期, 才完成那一点点
而且还是那半懂半不懂的
这次可能会有机会重考
我不想重考啊！！！！！
这个学期真是很压力
不愧是高级文凭 ='(
(不是人读的)
总而言之，我会进能力去考
祈求上天保佑，让我病快点好起来
><"""
aunty~
你也要好好照顾自己～
记得喝多点水哈～～
还有啊～
别太迟睡啊～ <3
=)
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