tt night 2011 done!

tt night finished!

everything back to normal!

my life tat normally filled up by ttnight had finished~~~

ntg i can do in tt night lerh~~~

is all back to normal...

daily life>>wake up at noon>>eat>> emo>>eat>>fb>>slp at midnight

such a damn boring and useless life!!!

damn!

At least i got things to do for 24 hours during tt night~~~

we overnight in college to work out for the stage~~~

the sleepless night was sucks!

but quite cool~~~lol

coz it was my first time to overnight in college hall~~~

and went home at 9 am in the morning~~~

for 2 days and 2 nights~~~

lol....

after the actual night~~~

i feel tat....

tat sleepless night is very worth~~

coz it was a awesome night~~~

as i was enjoying the show at the audience seat~~~

is very obvious tat all the finalist had put in their max effort in tat 2 weeks since 2nd pnp~~~

really improve a lots~~~

especially the 6 emcee finalists!

congratz to all the finalists!

u all done a great job!

u all made tt night 2011 a very successful event!

can be seen the audiences were enjoying ur show!

^^

to all committees~~

u all work damn hard for tt night~~~

u all done everythings u can to make it success!

great jobs guys!

actually i very hope the event wont end~~~

coz itnot oni can fill my time up with useful activity~~~

beside can meet u most of the time~~~

and this is the oni way tat can meet u most of the time during the time~~

for now~~~

sit at home ntg to do....

cant meet u~~~

thinking to sms u but afraid of distrubing u~~~

thinking to find u on9~~~

but afraid u will feel tat i am very irritating, looking for u everyday and all the time~~~

will u??

><

everytime i saw u reply my message no matter is phone o fb~~~

i feel good and happy~~~

dun noe y~~

this is wat i feel~~~

soli~~

><

thx for take good care of the pillow~~ hehe... xP

tt night 2011 done!~~~

tt night finished!

everything back to normal!

my life tat normally filled up by ttnight had finished~~~

ntg i can do in tt night lerh~~~

is all back to normal...

daily life>> wake up at noon>> eat>> fb>> emo>> eat>>fb>> slp at midnight

such a damn boring and useless life!!!

damn!

At least i got things to do for 24 hours during tt night~~~

we overnight in college to work out for the stage~~~

the sleepless night was sucks!

but quite cool~~~lol

coz it was my first time to overnight in college hall~~~

and went home at 9 am in the morning~~~

for 2 days and 2 nights~~~

lol....

after the actual night~~~

i feel tat....

tat sleepless night is very worth~~

coz it was a awesome night~~~

as i was enjoying the show at the audience seat~~~

is very obvious tat all the finalist had put in their max effort in tat 2 weeks since 2nd pnp~~~

really improve a lots~~~

especially the 6 emcee finalists!

congratz to all the finalists!

u all done a great job!

u all made tt night 2011 a very successful event!

can be seen the audiences were enjoying ur show!

^^

to all committees~~

u all work damn hard for tt night~~~

u all done everythings u can to make it success!

great jobs guys!

actually i very hope the event wont end~~~

coz itnot oni can fill my time up with useful activity~~~

beside can meet u most of the time~~~

and this is the oni way tat can meet u most of the time during the time~~

for now~~~

sit at home ntg to do....

cant meet u~~~

thinking to sms u but afraid of distrubing u~~~

thinking to find u on9~~~

but afraid u will feel tat i am very irritating, looking for u everyday and all the time~~~ ><

will it??

>.<

别再当傻孩子了吧~~~

一个苦者找到一个和尚倾诉他的心事。

他说：“我放不下一些事，放不下一些人。”

和尚说：“没有什么东西是放不下的。”

他说：“这些事和人我就偏偏放不下。”

和尚让他拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢出来。

苦者被烫到马上松开了手。

和尚说：“这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。”

你可能觉得难过

因为无论你对他怎么好 他都不领情

他不是看不到 他只是装作看不到

或者他根本不想看到

你觉得自己很喜欢他

甚至觉得再没有一个人可以像你那么喜欢他

你用尽全力对他好

把他看的比自己还重要

有什么事情第一个就想到他

联系不到他的时候　你担心他担心的快疯了

然而你有没有想过

这并不在你的责任范围

而且很有可能他是在躲着你

他受不了你对他那么好

不要一直发短信给他

不要一直找他

你也许只是想找他说说话

你觉得那很正常　不算苛求

但是也许他并不这么想

记住　你的想法不代表他的想法

你是真的不求回报的在喜欢他吗

你扪心自问一下

你确定不用他回报什么吗

那为什么你会难过

若是真的一无所求

你又怎么会觉得难过呢

所以　别觉得你那么爱他是伟大的

也许她根本不在乎你怎么为他付出

有时候你给他的爱或许是种负担

这种负担只会让他更加想远离你

因为他不想亏欠你

别事事为他担心为他张罗

你觉得他没有你不行

你觉得别人做不到你那么完善

但是你要清楚

你不是他要的那个人

你做的再完善也敌不过人家不做

那个位置本来就不是你的

你何必硬要挤上去呢

你说道理你都懂　只是你做不好

喜欢他不是你的错

想关心他不是你的错

控制不住自己不是你的错

但是那是你的方式

人家不一定就能接受你这种所谓无私的爱

所以如果你喜欢他　他不喜欢你

那么就请你默默的

别试图让他知道

就算你会难过　甚至难过的流泪

就请你默默的

就算是逼自己也好

一定要忍着

傻孩子．

忘了吧．所有你留恋的．你回忆的．你拥有过的．

那些．都已是记忆．

缺失并不可怕．

可怕的．是无法面对．

傻孩子．

你无法轻易忘记放弃．是因为你付出过．

付出了．她就会像柱子一样扎根在心．

不要刻意去逃避．刻意忘记．那只会让你更痛苦．

绕开这个柱子．寻找未来的幸福生活吧．

那里．有你的理想．

傻孩子．

开始新的习惯吧．

习惯．每天一个人生活．

习惯．一个人过生日．一个人行走．

习惯．走过熟悉的路．面对熟悉的景．

你逃不掉．逃不掉的．

那么．就勇敢面对．现实．

现实是．一切．画上了句点．

傻孩子．

勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧．

这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己．

这也是你．成长中的你．

这个你．正在逐渐死去．

新的你．即将重生．

找寻你的路．你的未来．

你知道的．所有的浩劫．都是成长的祭奠．

做最好的自己．即使．一个人．

傻孩子．

好．好．尽情发泄吧．

剥开自己的心．用文字．用声音．用所有能发泄的方式．

泄完了．就要振作．

看吧．你失去的．其实微不足道．

还有那么多人关心着你．以不同的方式．

所以．你并不孤独．

正是这样的失去．让你看清现在所拥有的幸福．

傻孩子．

别哭．别再哭．

不值得．真的．不值得了．

把过去尘封吧．别委屈．别不甘心．别不接受．

开始新的旅程吧．去遇见新的风景．新的际遇．

做你该做的事吧．有很多事．等待着你完成呢．

傻孩子．

生活褪去了曾有的颜色．暂时宁静．

别沉沦在这片宁静里．那会毁掉你．

你要明白．虽然残忍．但这个决定．足够正确．

现在的生活．不是你想要的．

为了你的理想．你必须学会适时放弃．

给对方最好的关怀．就是．变的更好．更强大．更幸福．

现在我对你很好、很好、很好，你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎，你不珍惜。。。

当某天，你被伤害，想起我。那时的我再也做不到像现在这样一如既往、不顾一切的对你好了。。。

因为那时的我，已经将你放低。。。。

原来，放低一个人，最后是被对方逼出来的

how good if u are around me all the time~~~xD

Is 12.00am now

suddenly feel moodless~~~

dun noe why...

juz it came suddenly...

issit started to miss someone???

o juz too empty for the day~~~

i guess is missing someone~~~

someone tat i quite concerned bout~~~

someone tat i nid the most when i not in the mood~~

but too bad....

she is not around me when i nid it very much~~~

><

wat i can do the most is juz emo-ing alone...

sometimes will go to cyber cafe for games for at least 3 hours~~~

juz not to let myself think so much~~~

sorry for disturbing u and asking bout u everytime~~~

i juz wanted to concern bout u ~~~

to make sure u are well~~

if u dun like i asking so much...

pls do tell me~~~

i will change it~~~

everytime see u rushing assignment till midnight~~~

is very tired~~~

i noe is no choice but still u nid to try to adjust ur time to slp earlier~~~

if not will spoilt ur own health get sick easily~~~

@.@""

i am so free everyday~~~

and u rushing like hell~~~

i was thinking~~~

how good issit if i can help to to do some~~

hehe

xP

tt night 2011 had filled up my empty life~~~

at least i can get to learn things and get to noe more friends~~~

rather than i sit at home everyday facing computer and slp~~~

=D

although is tired but is worth~~~

coz one of the reason is can meet dou u most of the time~~~

hee~~ xP

everytime i meet dou u ~~

i feel nervous and dun noe wat talk~~~

sorry for tat~~

T.T

i hope i can change this problem of mine asap~~~><

i lag of guts!

damn!

i thought for ur birthday present for weeks~~~

at last i think of big bang~~~

thn think of wat to give u as ur present~~

haha... xD

to confirm ur size...

i brought my sister togather wif me when i go buy~~~

coz u both same body size~~~

haha..

she ask me to treat her mcd~~

@.@""

u like it then good lerh~~

thx for accepted the present~~~

^^

hope is fit ur size la... xP

happy birthday once again~~~ ^^

nitex~~ sweet dream~~

^.^

PARENTS is the GREATEST relative in the world~~

Sunday~

woke up at 11 smtg....

thn started to wash my dad car tat is wash by me alone everytime if i got come back to malacca....

is quite dirty and summore is in white colour~~~ @@""

i took 2 hours to clean it... plus polished the whole car to prevent the white colour to turn yellow~~~^^

3 sister went back kl in the afternoon~~

2.30pm bus....

after sent them to the bus station....

me and parents went for lunch~~~

kfc~~~

@@""

after lunch...

we went shopping till 5 smtg~~~

then go home...

after reached home....

i can feel that how my parents feel when 4 of us in kl while oni left both of them at home....

is very boring....

oni two of them...

the most they can do is watch drama ~~

tats all~~~

><"""

and how they worry bout us...

they very concern bout wat are we doing now!

dun feel irritating if ur parent call u frequently...

this mean thats they are very responsible parents...

and they love u very much as they love their life..^^

PARENTS is the GREATEST relative in the world!!!

they done everything for their children!

as example~:

my parents work very hard to earn money to support four of us to further our study in college and university!

the fees for the course is not cheap and also our daily expenses~~~

they work for money from a small bussiness~~

is quite tired and tuft ~~~

but they still very hardworking....

this is wat i have seen from my sight...

but everytime i stay in kl... i felt very helpless~~

the most i can do is when i back to malacca.... i juz went shop and help as much as i can... to reduce their burdens and pressure....

although most of the time being scolded by my dad when helpng...

of course i will get angry... but i remind myself alwayz!!!

WAT THEY HAD SUFFERED IS THOUSAND TIMES I AM SUFFERING NOW!!!

that is the way i cool myself down everytime i get scolded....

what they done to us is for our own good~~~

^^

3 more months to go ...

for my advanced diploma...

waiting waiting!!!!

><

feel very free....

i hoping very much tat my advanced start 2morrow! xD

i watched a video clips this afternoon...

is bout my previous coursemate official convocation clips....

their names is arranged according to the namelist~~

after him ~

it should be me on the stage to received the certificate of diploma course~~

but not me~~

T.T

felt sad~~~

but is juz a while oni~~~

hehe~~~

soon will be me~~~ dun noe when is the convocation date for me~~~

although is extra 1 year comparing to my previous coursemate...

but i still statisfy with is...

because this is my study ability~~ ^^

k la...

is enough for today~~~

2morrow nid to wake up very early..

7am~~ @@"""

good night and sweet dream to u ~~~ ^^

give up?? i afraid nope...

insomia!

><

i am tired...

but my eyes not closing~~ lol

something keep flowing and appearing in my mind.....

i should missing~~

><

maybe i am thinking tat...

issit still worth to continue doing all these things???

but if i give up ... for sure i will not do it again in at least 1-2 years time....

everytime i do it...

i feel like i am dump at doing all the things~~~

but i still wanna do it~~~

coz i still interested in doing such things...

i still very concerned bout it....

i still waiting for it....

the things is...

i will hurt myself everytime i done it~~~

especially with no response~~ ><'

i wondering tat i being dodged~

but not everytime i do it....

coz if i do it too frequenly~~~

will get frustrating!!!><

aiks~

but at least will response me sometime~~~

am i stupid o dump??? ><

i am very frust bout it actually~~~

i nid someone badly to shout out! T.T

Currently in malacca....

back for lucas boy 1 year old birthday~~

we all backed togather....

3 sisters will be back later 2pm bus...

but i am going to stay untill tuesday~~~

coz i nid to help my dad in shop...

since there is not enough man-power to do things~

i willing to stay few more days~~~

coz the test weight is very heavy...

my parent had no enough energy to carry the,..

so i nid to be there to help to carry~~

^^

my sister bought some pineapple tarts for her previous emcees category members from malacca...

so i juz ask her to bring one for u~~~

so i hope u like it~~~

hee~~~ ^^

finally i can feel tat my eyes is tired~~~

tomorrow still nid to help dad to wash his car~~ @@"""

good night and sweet dream to u~~ ^^

jobs jobs jobs???!!!

My blog had been blanked for almost 2 months...
juz feel like very lazy to write..
and aso lots of things to write, dun noe start from which part ~~
first of all...
congratz to myself~
i officially finished my diploma course!
finally...
i drained up 3 years to complete my diploma course....
i hope do hope my parents are happy wif this~~
coz i already tried my best to finished it~~~
the next challenge will be my advanced diploma~
is about less than 3 months period from now to my advanced~~~
><"""
still so much time!
thinking to rest for these fews month to help some in ttnight~~
but my parents keep calling me to go get a jobs tat is related to my course~~

><""""
aiks..
3months!
who wanted to hired u wor~~~
thn if they hired me? do u think tat they will waste their time to hire for a new worker after 3 months?
if for a normal human thought~
it will be hire a worker that can work long term~~~
aiks..
the things is my parents keep calling me to go find!!!
omg!!!
can i juz staying in college and help in events in the mean time i get some part time jobs ???
is really irritating to go and look for a 3 months jobs !
let me decide myself can o not???
i wanna to stay in college !!!!(for reasons)

><""
i am getting crazy!!!
i really really nid someone to shout out!!!
aiks~~~

My yougest sister came to kl study lerh...
study the same college~~
studying the same course as my 2nd sister~~~
lol...
she was a finalist for TT NIGHT 2011!!!
emcee catogary~
but sad case...
due to our parents problem ~~~
she was forced to quit from it~~~
soli ar fang~~~
made u so suffer for those days~~
and soli to the committee also~~~
making a trouble to u all....
very soli~~
thanks for settle the problem with us~~
thx guys! ^^

dun wan to write lerh..
damn tired~~~
exhauted! nitex!
continues next day!