咳~是时候放下了?

咳~对自己彻底地失望~ 对不起，我不该让自己爱上你~ :-(

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Miss You Like Crazy~ =(

I used to call you my girl~
I used to call you my friend ~
I used to call you the love ~
The love that I never had ~
When I think of you ~
I don't know what to do ~
When will I see you again~
I miss you like crazy ~
Even More than words can say ~~~
I miss you like crazy ~
Every minute of every day ~~
Girl I'm so down when your love's not around ~
I miss you, miss you, miss you ~~
I miss you like crazy ~~
You are all that I want~~
You are all that I need ~~~
Can't you see how I feel ~~
Can't you see that my pain's so real ~~~
When I think of you ~~
I don't know what to do ~
When will I see you again ~~~
<3

nitex~
sweet dream~~<3

Stay strong and head for my target!

is little bit too hard for me in advanced~~~

it is more challenging that my friends told me b4 i entering advanced diploma~~~

time pack~ lots assignment~ not enough time to prepare for study~4 days out of 5 morning 8 am classes~having double time classes~~ haiZ~~

it really made me tired enough and exhausted~

but i had made my decision to continue advanced instead of working~

then u i nid to stay calm and accept all the challenges heading me~~~ ><

i had my own target~~~tat is succesfully finished advanced and fly to uk for 3 months for my degree~~~ without wasting one more year for either resit for repeat~~~ ><

recently i was thinking and setting a new target for myself~~

tats after getting my degree in uk and thinking to continue my master there~~

IT IS A BIG BIG QUESTION?!!!

IS TAT POSSIBLE??

I ABLE TO DO TAT??

IF ARE YES TO THOSE QUESTIONS~

how bout my family? issit my family can cover the fees and daily expenses there??

if not rm 1000++ is a rm 100,000~~ ><

arrgghhh~~~

is lots of money~~~ but i was thinking tat~~~ while i was still in study mood ~~ i wanted to finished it asap~~ if not after working ~~ for sure will totally no mood to continue to study and will forgot most of the things i had learnt previously~~ aiks~~~

i do propose to my parents~~

but is still a BIG BIG QUESTION~~

okay~~

i will think bout it later~~~

focus on my advanced now first!

i amitted that i learnt things very slow ~

i nid time to digest while others can understand immediately after explanation given~~ ><

this is my weakness~~

wat i do is~~ double up my study time~~~

2 sessions per day~~

morning is 12pm-6pm~~ and night 8 pm-2am~~ @@

it really tiring but i still nid to do tat for my dream~~~ =D

GAMBATEK BA! <3

actually i wanted to thanks god for letting me to met these 2 good buddy in my class~~~

who are salmon and vincent~~~~

they really good man and they do help me alots~~~

they staying in 11th floor same block wif me~~~

we studied togather and they taught me alots of things that i dun noe~~`

they really clever and intelligent people~~~ =D

i really appreciate the friendship between me and them~~~ =D

however~ stay strong and heading forward and not backwards!

ALL DA BEST!

SAME GOES TO "U"!<3

GAMBATEK!!! GOOD LUCK!!!

good night and sweet dream~~ <3<3<3

='(

Is 2041 now~~

juz got home from college~~~

went college to help out my classmates on their open day showing projects~~

i noe not much bout programming~

but i help out on other easier job~~~=)

went college at bout 11 am and took us 6 hours to finished it~~

due to the spaces to be used to demonstrate their sensor motocar is not enough during the open day, they need to demonstrate by video~~~

i was a bit down today in college~~

i was at Q block~~~

and juz in front of the sssh office there was a cat which sufferring to death~~

half dead~~

was really bad feeling to me becoz i can oni see him suffering and couldn't do anything~~~

it was inside the small drain, laying there totally no energy to get out of there~~

i dun noe wat had happened to him but i guess he is sick and end up like tat~~~ X(

i hav no car~~ if not i will send him to animal hospital to get help~~ was thinking to buy something to feed him~~ but canteen was closed!!! ><"""

haiz~~

really no choice~~

oni can left him behind suffering~~

if~~ if not wrong~~

the cat was the one who playing around the back stage of the college hall while tt night stage preparation was going on~~

while i was alone in backstage~~

u were the one who accompany there~~

='(

felt sorry to u~~`><

i will miss u ~~~ ='(

R.I.P~~~aiks~~~

emo mode now~~~

end~

I was crazy last few days~~~

i am not doing any sport since last sem week 10 till the past thursday~~

finally my friends invited me for badminton!

one shot played 3 hours badminton!

tats was really refreshing!!!

then the next day~

afternoon~~

going for gym wif friends at college~~~

end up fully booked~~~

aiks~~

i was thinking tat aiks~~

wasted time to come here and do ntg~~~

but at least they noe outside fitness center~~

then we went to wangsa maju iron fitness center~~

rm 4.00 per entry~~ it consider cheap because the utilities there was all prepared! =D

gym non stop for bout 2 hours~

really tiring but felt fun and enjoying~~

first time in my life i got into fitness center~~~

happy and statisfied wif it~~~

the next day morning which is today~~~

when i open my eyes~~~

i can even moved my body ~~~ @@""

cramped!!!!

ishhh~~

as i moved any part of my body~~ it pain like hell~~~

hell yea~~ it is normal i think as i so long din get in touch to sport~~

slowly~~ i get myself out from the bed~~ @@"""

til now still really pain when i move my arms and legs~~

especially my chest mucsle~~~ =0

normally it will take at least on week time to fully recovered~~!

yet i still hoping it will recover at fast as possbile~~~ xD

think back~~~

it really such a long period i din get touch wif basketball ad~~~

i think almost one year liao!!! ><"""

aiks~~~

find one day ~~ find one day~~~

i will get back in touch wif basketball!

wait me ya! xP

still i am emo today~~~ ='(

end~

25/2/12

~jerryqiang~

thx a lots~♥

Another day has gone...

time past damn freaking fast...

and it already come to the 3rd week of the sem..

it mean that left 4 weeks to final exam~~~ @@""

and up to now~~~

i dun even noe wat the teacher teaching about and the worse things is that~~

i am not pro in programming~~

threee of the subjects fort his sem is all bout programming~~

ok~ i felt very nervous and very pressure now~~

i really afraid that i not enought time to study for final exam~~~

god bless me pls~~~=(

thx you for the gift on valentine~~~

this is the first time ever i receive gift on valentine~~~ xD

i was shock when xander told me tat he is passing smtg to me from u~~

and i dun expected it~~~ hehe~~

i haven eat it and it still kept in the fridge~~

不舍得吃~~~xD

becoz becoz~~~ niz~

i think i will eat it when i emo~~ xDD

and i guess will made me feel better~~~

home made chocolate lagi~~

sam fu sai lar~♥

like it very much~~=)

anyway i miss u~♥

and i still owing u a meal! xD

see when can treat u lerh~

rest well and sweet dream~~♥

nitex~ ♥

THE FIRST AND THE LAST TIME!

This is the first time in my life i am so sick!
on friday~
housemates planned to drink beer at overtime by ordering a barrel of beer wif the promotion of buy 1 free 1~~~~ @.@
i heard their plan..
i was thinking that.. hmm ~ no my problem~~ i wont go~
on saturday~ went for movie "结婚那件事" wif my 2 sisters in klcc~~
it was a very touching and meaningful movie~~
i was hoping that there is somebody that is so caring, concerning and understanding me~~=]
i think i will go for 2nd time alone~ lol

after watching movie~~
we went to kinokuniya to spend the free book voucher~
at last my sister spent all rm 200~~ but i oni spend rm50~~ @@
i bought a japanese language dictionary and thinking to start learning japanese myself~~ =)
juz a backup~ if i manage to went japan and work~~ it will be easy for myself that i noe how to read, speak and write in japanese~~
hope it is not difficult to learn~~ hee~~

then i reached home bout 8 smtg~~@.@
was very tired!
who know they ask me must go later~~
i was like @.@~
i said i go there dun drink beer i go for wat?
they keep call and presuding me to go~~~
at last cant withstand it and then i go~~
talk to myself>> go ther drink a bit to relax as in i was very frustrating on something~~

reached there bout 1030~~
9 f us~~
me, ryan, ahdee, xander, angie, pheng, tzecheat, cookies and eva~~~
and i spent rm 43.50 !!!!
damn 7 expensive!!! >.<
i dun noe the price at first~
i was thinking that only rm 10++ oni!
aiks! =(

then we started to drink~~
i drank bit by bit~~~
but become worst whn playing dice game~~
over drinking!
at first my dizzy head~~ but end up wif bursting head!!!
it really killed me!
they went mamak besides overtime for supper as they were hungry~~
i was laying on the table while they were enjoying their food~~
i was not drunk i think~~ becoz i still can walk by myself~~
but juz feeling that my head was exploding!
worst feeling ever and it was juz like i am meeting the hell god!

the very worst worst things was i vomitted while stopping at the red light!
i open the car door and vomit~~~ ><"""
it was so embarrasing yet awful! >.<
i dun y i promised to go wif thm~~~
it is becoz i dun noe how to reject people offer? haiz~
muz learn up this things!
remembered myself!

finally i got home... take off my shoe and change my clothing and straight laid dead on my bed!
ah dee told me that i was sleeping dead wif the same sleeping position since last night i laid on my bed! ><

From this thing happened ownward~~
i promised myself and everyone that concerned bout me, i wont do this anymore in my life~~~
and i will control myself and try my best to reject them if they invite me to go again~~ ><
it is not only wasting money yet fooling myself~~
feel sorry to u~<3

2morrow having 8 am class~~
good night to "u" and sweet dream yea~~<3<3<3


** ps: to all my housemates~ no offences~~ juz dun like the feeling of getting drunk~~ =)

insomnia~~~ /_\

isshhh~~~

laid on be on 11 smtg~~

tot can slp early today~

but end up insomnia blocking my way to my dream! ><

really tiring these few days~ dunnoe y~ maybe age increasing~~~

nid to admit old liao~~ lol

gastrics visited me this afternoon~

backbone pain + gastrics = X(

double kill!

really killed me...

plus nid to work summore~~ isshh~~

but i successfully tahan it and done my job~ xD

actually i cant wait to get back to kl~~~

becoz~~

i do miss u a lots~

hope to meet u right now!!! hehe~~

feel sleepy a bit after facing laptop in a dark room~~~

good night ya~~ sweet dream~~ <3