我很想爱她~~~

天空~~

下起雨了~~
他撑的伞 在你身边 陪着~~
可是 我不快乐~~
因为 看见 他脸上的笑是很勉强的~~

我很想爱她但是眼睛在说谎~~

隐瞒比较容易吧免得感情变的复杂~~

我很想爱他但是理智在吵架~~

退出可能解围吗谁能给我一个好的回答~~
如果再舍不得~~
这样下去我们每个人都是受害者~~

当爱情陷在危险边缘~~
是否都会伤痕累累~~
是否都会苦不堪言~~

爱情教会我们都放不下~~

x10~~~~ xD

Final exam is going on begining of this week....

everybody is busy preparing for their exam...

me???

facing computer everyday..

i din even touch my notes today~~

T.T

facing computer whole day....

aiks...

issit becoz oni one subject to sit for then i become very lazy and thought of still left lots of time to study for tat paper???

damn!!!

WAKE UP!!!!!

left few days nia....

someone wake me up pls....

lol..

><

one year lerh... really one year lerh....

i wasted one year study time lerh....

><

luckily still got some college events to filled up my time yet i still wasted lots of time~~

lol....

i used 3 years to complete my diploma... but other wif 2 years....

><

is the truth..

i nid to accept it...

actually i hav no interest in studying~~~

but tat was my parent hope.....

as their child....

i should respect them and complete their hope on me....

mum, dad~

i had tried my very best to study lerh....

but i nid 3 years to complete it....

i hope ur statisfy with my results~~~

^^

last saturday i slept till 2 something in the afternoon...

till my sister called me~~~

lol..

she called me to accompany her to go and get her convocation photos at maluri~~~

is quite far..

but i had to go also...

coz she is my sister~~~

lol...

reached there around 4pm~~

after got it...

then i suggested to go times square~~~

thn she asked me go there for wat???

i said...err...

go looks for new phone....

coz my phone sot plug ad....

then she said ok lo...

==

by taxi~~~

reached times square bout 5pm~~

lol..

coz traffic jam!!!!

><"""

we go for dinner when we reached there...

coz i haven eat anything since the previous day..

==

the phone i am looking for is SONY ERRICSON x10~~

i done some survey on9 and others shops...

the specs quite niz..

and is using android operating system...

the interface very niz....

the camera 8.1 mp~~~

can support up to 32gb external memory card~~

can support fb, msn, and lots of useful and funny application!

the most important things is WIFI~~~

thats the smart phone i am looking for!!!

is affordable coz the price is almost 50% of the price of iphone~~

of course i will get as cheap as i can....

when i past by a phone selling stall...

i saw it..

but is placed at the section of 2nd phone...

lol..

looks very new~~

and i go and ask for it...

the dealer told me the owner if this phone is his friends....

and she used oni 2 weeks oni....

i was like HUH???

@@

then i ask him for the price..

then he said..

RM 880~~

include charger, 8gb memory card, cable and also head set~~

at tat time my mind is thinking...

" is there are any problem wif this phone oni the owner sell it"???

then i check the phone and play with it there bout half an hours....

the phone look very new and niz..

no scratches and dirty~~

look like a new phone..

and the sticker behind also proved tat oni used not more than a month~~~

to think twice we went buy my sister phone protector...

thinking thinking thinking........

and also asking my sister for suggestion...

"to buy or not to buy" keep floating in my mind..... ><

after one hour of thinking ...

i made my decision~~~

i going to buy it..

and i straight to the atm and get money...

luckily the phone still there..

hehe..

is mine!!!!!

this is the first time i owned a smart phone!!!!

hehe....

actually oni my sister noe i owned this phone..

coz i dun dare to tell my parents..

coz they will killlll me 99....

><""""

but i worked and save money..

buy something to reward myself i think is not wrong ..right??? ><

i hope they will accept this..

yet i still dun dare to tell them..

lol...

i hope tat this phone can be wif me for quite a number of years till gratuated my advanced

and get i fixed job~~~

hehe....

i will take good care of it as wat i did to my family..

hahaha... xDD

JOGOYA as lunch~~~

Yesterday nite when to mcd and studied wif pheng, joo and angie~~~

study till bout 1 something~~

jackson and alicia came(after pak tor... xD)~~

thn they ajak us to go for bak kut teh at kepong~~~

ok lor~~~ follow je~~

reached there bout 2something~~

it was my first time having bak kut teh as my supper~~~

@@""

after finished eating then reahced home bout 3something to 4~~~

lolz...

slept at bout 5am~~~

night cat~~

woke up at 12 something~~~

and had planned to go JOGOYA for lunch~~~

this is my first time having so expensive lunch~~~

i went for it because now having buy one free one promotion~~

and also wanna try on it as i heard lots of my friends said tat it is very niz so i go and try it out lor~~~

lolz~~~

overall not bad~~~

i ate lots of abalone~~~ xD

so tat it will be " dai sek"~~~

i cant get use to the raw meat~~ example like salmon fish, oyster, and others raw meat~~~

so i din eat much~~~

i done a very embarrassed things~~

treated cocktails as orange juice~~~

after finished one cup oni noe tat is cocktail tat contain alcohol~~~

@@""

i noe it when i felt my body getting very hot and they saw my face became very red~~

like "关公"~~ xDD

i most delicious things is the ice cream!!!

Haagen-Daz ice cream and New Zealand ice cream~~

this was the best ice cream i had ever eaten~~~

we ate 2 hours inside and fulled like hell!!!

feeling like my sotmach going to burst!

xD

RM 50 ~

two words>> "DAI SEK" !

haha....

i dun now when will be my second time to eat at JOGOYA again~~~

hehe~~~

reached home~~

my body is burning~~~

my head is very heavy~~~

feel like going to sick lerh~~~

><"""

i think i really cant touch raw foods~~~

><

hope will recover fast fast~~

amitabha~~~

chinese language~~~~ @@

is 0345 now~

i still awake...

backed from MCD 2 hours ago~~~

studied tat last resit subject togather wif sam~~~

To me ~

the life in kl now is either study tat resit subject or watch drama~

is a educational drama~~~

is all bout chinese history~~~

the drama named "三国"...

it contained 95 episodes~

lolz...

i oni reached 50th episode~~~

after watching this drama, i get to noe lot of story in chinese history~~~

last time when i was in secondary school~~~

during chinese language class~~ i dun even know wats the teacher talking bout~~ @@

dun even who and wat story she is talking bout~~

tats one of the reason i hate chinese very much tat time~~~

tats also the reason i am very bad in chinese language~~~

it is maybe because my parent were gratuated from english school~~

they dun noe much bout it and they din tell us and teached us~~~

i am not blaming them~~~

i sware!

i juz realised tat there are many interesting story in chinese history tat i dun noe~~

hows they fight~~~

hows their altitudes~~

wat they done to their own country~~~

wat philosophy had they created~~~

is so damn interesting !

i started to fell in love wif chinese history~~~xDD

now~

i am playing the game tat related to chinese history "三国志"~~

quite niz (introduced by ryan tan)~~

addicted to it lerh~~~

but still will control myself~~~

hee~~~

besides~~

i nid to improved my chinese language from time to time~~~

the first reason is >> i am a chinese~~~

besides~~~ the economic in china is ranked top 3 in the world....

so wat if i wanted to develope myself in china in future ~

how i am going to make it if i am not good in chinese language~~

for sure will have the problem wif communicating and writing in chinese language~~

^.^

tats wat i am thinking now~~~

i dunnoe u still got visit my blog o not~~~

but i really wanted to say thx to you for borrowing me the three books of novels~~~

it not oni can fill my time~~

and also can improve my chinese~~

^^

dun worry...

i am not forcing myself to read it~~

but i am trying to get myself touching back to chinese and get some interests of reading books~~~

soli for taking so long time to read and till now haven return u ~~~

the worst things is ~~

i haven finished reading them~~~

T.T

paiseh~~

but if u really want it back~~

tell me yea~~~

^^

k la...

gud night to u and sweet sweet dream~~

^^

sleepless and busy week~~~

FUUHHH~~~~!

had a busy days last week~~~

shift house, shopping, sis convo~

my 2nd sis had got a job and found a place to saty for her job~~~

it is at SS6~~

is very damn far~~~

i went there wif her to look for house for twice~ finally she got it....

thx god..

last thursday my dad drive his MPV car to kl to help my sister to shift all her things all the way from Wangsa Maju to SS6~~~

lol..

i was there too~~

she got lots of things.. and oni 3 of us worked out~~~~

i had a sleepless night the day before tat~~~

i slept for oni 2 hours~~

T.T

totally cant fall asleep~~

my mind kept thinking and thinking..

can stop !

damn it!!!(hope tat there is a button to press to let me stop thinking~~)

luckily i drank a bottle of BRANDS..

and it kept my body steady and done all the works~~

thx~~

xDD

we moved whole day till evening~~ we were exhauted ~~~

reached home bout 5pm~~~

then i went to bed at bout 12pm~

i woke up at bout 3pm in the next day~~

wow~~~

recharged 99 for 13 hours!!!

xDD

On the saturday~~

woke up at 12 pm~~

angie suddenly walked into my room and asked me~~~

any plans for today???

i answered>> nope~

she said>> lets go ! Pavillion!

errr~~~

seem i was very free ~

then i juz said ok lo...~~~

xD

me, lemon, angie, ryan and louis~

we reached there bout 1pm~~

then juz shopping around~~~

thinking to go for movie~~but fullhouse!

aiks...

angie recommened us something to eat~~

it was a stall named"Snowflakes" ..is a taiwanese food~~

looked very niz~~ then i tried it~~

man tau~~ i forgot i dun like soya!!!

and the ice is soya flavour~~~

T.T

in order not to waste it~~~

force myself to eat as much as i can~~~

cant finished it at last also!!!

wasted my money!!!!

><"""

The next day was my eldest sister convocation day!!!

and i woke up at 5.30 am coz it started at 7.30pm~~

same thing happened to me again~~~

slep for 2 hours on the day b4 tat~~~

insomia(same as wat happened to me right now!) ~~~

T.T

but i made it by BRANDS again~~

hee~~~

i be my sister photographer during her whole convocation~~

thx for angie camera~~~

^^

it really tired~~~

really exhauted~~~

anyway congratz to me sister for her convocation and had completed her life in university~~

i still got 2 years to go oni can be like her~~~

free from the pressure of study and taking exam~~~~

i nid to be tuft and put lots of hardworks in this 2 years for everything!

tats my GOAL!

gud luck to myself!

eyes finally tired ad~~~

good night to u~~~

and sweet sweet dream yea~~~

^^

0239 midnight~~~

0239am~~~

emotion mood suddenly switched after sitting alone at the balcony and looking at the pretty sky~~~

while sitting there~~~

suddenly lots of things popped out of my mind~~~

one of them is for sure exam~~~

is juz round the corner~~~

let me think again~~

if if if~~ i failed this time again~~

wat should i do??

dad told me ~if i failed again this time ~he not going to giv me money to continue study lerh~~~

quite a heavy tension~~~><"""

keep thinking how is if i failed???

aiks~~~

i really really scare of it~~

the afraidness is more than the happening of doomsday ><"""

why my life must be like this???

why cant like my friends~~

finished their stuy smoothly~~~

passed all the times~~~

play, eat, enjoy their life while studying~~~

when is my turn????

aiks~~~

afraid there is no chance~~~

i feel very inferior to myself~~~

coz i cant do well in everythings~~~

everytime being scolded, being tease by others~

not oni that~~~

I HAD WASTED RM1120 FOR RESITING PAPER IN DIPLOMA ><"""""""

WHY WHY WHY???!!!!??!!??!?!?!?

why i nid to waste this type of unnecessary money while others no nid???!!!

issit i am not serious enough in study????

i guess tat is not true~~~

i study them like hell every exam time~~~

study 14 hours per day!!!

maybe tats the truth tat i nid to fail b4 i can pass~~~

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KL life is not fun for me currently~~~

i feel alone~~~

when everytime i got personal problem, i cant find anyone to chat wif~~~

cant find anyone to shout out to release out of my mind~~~

thinking to go trvel alone but not enough $$$~~

cant do anything!

amithaba~~~

i hope i can get rid of this kind of life as soon as possible~~~

actually i having a new plan for myself~~~

but dun noe it work o not~~~

@@""

after this resit subjects~~~

then if nid help then i go help out some in tt night~~

stage for sure~~

others things i dun noe~~

==""

then in may ~~

going to have a short course on japanese language while waiting for my advanced on september~~

issit possible???

anyone accompny me for this short course???

dun feel like going to learn alone~~

hee~~~

xD

mean while can get some part time jobs to fill up my free time~~

and not going to look for full time jobs lerh~~~

i tried last few weeks~~~

are not easy to get a job for a diploma certs holder~~~

><"""

i hope this plan works~~~

*wink*

xDD

after write it all out here i feel bit better to sleep lerh~~

heee~~

good night to u ~~~

sweet sweet dream lar~~~

xD

sad tragedy hits japan~~

On the 11th march 2011, 2:05pm~

a great natural disaster hit japan, Sendai~~

is the same tat was happend in 26th december 2004 tat hit Northern Sumatra~~~

100,000++ was killed during tat great tsunami~~~

i saw some videos from facebook tat posted by someone~~

all the cars, houses, buildings being swept away by the waves tsunami~~~

current report is hundreds of them dead and lots of them hurts and lost~~~

and the report stated tat the number of dead will increase as time past~~

><""

pray hard for them~~

hope this great waves will stop as soon as possible~~

but i really dun understand tat why still got people tat is so happy tat this disaster hits japan??!!!

Some of them said that the Japanese deserve this~~

LOL!!

WTF??!!

Some of them saying tat this is the judgement of the tragedy of NANJING Massacre~~~

lol....

some of said tat is the god making fool wif the humans~~

aiks~~~

u all really brainless!

it was natural disaster!

no one hoping for it!

no one aking this happened!

and shouldn't be so impressed with it to the people who suffered from this disaster~~~

to wat u all had said and done~~

"U" are the one will deserved a judgement one day!!!

><""""

as wat i noe~

they are still lots of people praying hard from the people who suffering from the disaster~~

amithaba~~~

hope everything will back to normal soon~~~~