give up?? i afraid nope...

insomia!

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i am tired...

but my eyes not closing~~ lol

something keep flowing and appearing in my mind.....

i should missing~~

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maybe i am thinking tat...

issit still worth to continue doing all these things???

but if i give up ... for sure i will not do it again in at least 1-2 years time....

everytime i do it...

i feel like i am dump at doing all the things~~~

but i still wanna do it~~~

coz i still interested in doing such things...

i still very concerned bout it....

i still waiting for it....

the things is...

i will hurt myself everytime i done it~~~

especially with no response~~ ><'

i wondering tat i being dodged~

but not everytime i do it....

coz if i do it too frequenly~~~

will get frustrating!!!><

aiks~

but at least will response me sometime~~~

am i stupid o dump??? ><

i am very frust bout it actually~~~

i nid someone badly to shout out! T.T

Currently in malacca....

back for lucas boy 1 year old birthday~~

we all backed togather....

3 sisters will be back later 2pm bus...

but i am going to stay untill tuesday~~~

coz i nid to help my dad in shop...

since there is not enough man-power to do things~

i willing to stay few more days~~~

coz the test weight is very heavy...

my parent had no enough energy to carry the,..

so i nid to be there to help to carry~~

^^

my sister bought some pineapple tarts for her previous emcees category members from malacca...

so i juz ask her to bring one for u~~~

so i hope u like it~~~

hee~~~ ^^

finally i can feel tat my eyes is tired~~~

tomorrow still nid to help dad to wash his car~~ @@"""

good night and sweet dream to u~~ ^^

jobs jobs jobs???!!!

My blog had been blanked for almost 2 months...
juz feel like very lazy to write..
and aso lots of things to write, dun noe start from which part ~~
first of all...
congratz to myself~
i officially finished my diploma course!
finally...
i drained up 3 years to complete my diploma course....
i hope do hope my parents are happy wif this~~
coz i already tried my best to finished it~~~
the next challenge will be my advanced diploma~
is about less than 3 months period from now to my advanced~~~
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still so much time!
thinking to rest for these fews month to help some in ttnight~~
but my parents keep calling me to go get a jobs tat is related to my course~~

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aiks..
3months!
who wanted to hired u wor~~~
thn if they hired me? do u think tat they will waste their time to hire for a new worker after 3 months?
if for a normal human thought~
it will be hire a worker that can work long term~~~
aiks..
the things is my parents keep calling me to go find!!!
omg!!!
can i juz staying in college and help in events in the mean time i get some part time jobs ???
is really irritating to go and look for a 3 months jobs !
let me decide myself can o not???
i wanna to stay in college !!!!(for reasons)

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i am getting crazy!!!
i really really nid someone to shout out!!!
aiks~~~

My yougest sister came to kl study lerh...
study the same college~~
studying the same course as my 2nd sister~~~
lol...
she was a finalist for TT NIGHT 2011!!!
emcee catogary~
but sad case...
due to our parents problem ~~~
she was forced to quit from it~~~
soli ar fang~~~
made u so suffer for those days~~
and soli to the committee also~~~
making a trouble to u all....
very soli~~
thanks for settle the problem with us~~
thx guys! ^^

dun wan to write lerh..
damn tired~~~
exhauted! nitex!
continues next day!

我很想爱她~~~

天空~~

下起雨了~~
他撑的伞 在你身边 陪着~~
可是 我不快乐~~
因为 看见 他脸上的笑是很勉强的~~

我很想爱她但是眼睛在说谎~~

隐瞒比较容易吧免得感情变的复杂~~

我很想爱他但是理智在吵架~~

退出可能解围吗谁能给我一个好的回答~~
如果再舍不得~~
这样下去我们每个人都是受害者~~

当爱情陷在危险边缘~~
是否都会伤痕累累~~
是否都会苦不堪言~~

爱情教会我们都放不下~~

x10~~~~ xD

Final exam is going on begining of this week....

everybody is busy preparing for their exam...

me???

facing computer everyday..

i din even touch my notes today~~

T.T

facing computer whole day....

aiks...

issit becoz oni one subject to sit for then i become very lazy and thought of still left lots of time to study for tat paper???

damn!!!

WAKE UP!!!!!

left few days nia....

someone wake me up pls....

lol..

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one year lerh... really one year lerh....

i wasted one year study time lerh....

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luckily still got some college events to filled up my time yet i still wasted lots of time~~

lol....

i used 3 years to complete my diploma... but other wif 2 years....

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is the truth..

i nid to accept it...

actually i hav no interest in studying~~~

but tat was my parent hope.....

as their child....

i should respect them and complete their hope on me....

mum, dad~

i had tried my very best to study lerh....

but i nid 3 years to complete it....

i hope ur statisfy with my results~~~

^^

last saturday i slept till 2 something in the afternoon...

till my sister called me~~~

lol..

she called me to accompany her to go and get her convocation photos at maluri~~~

is quite far..

but i had to go also...

coz she is my sister~~~

lol...

reached there around 4pm~~

after got it...

then i suggested to go times square~~~

thn she asked me go there for wat???

i said...err...

go looks for new phone....

coz my phone sot plug ad....

then she said ok lo...

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by taxi~~~

reached times square bout 5pm~~

lol..

coz traffic jam!!!!

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we go for dinner when we reached there...

coz i haven eat anything since the previous day..

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the phone i am looking for is SONY ERRICSON x10~~

i done some survey on9 and others shops...

the specs quite niz..

and is using android operating system...

the interface very niz....

the camera 8.1 mp~~~

can support up to 32gb external memory card~~

can support fb, msn, and lots of useful and funny application!

the most important things is WIFI~~~

thats the smart phone i am looking for!!!

is affordable coz the price is almost 50% of the price of iphone~~

of course i will get as cheap as i can....

when i past by a phone selling stall...

i saw it..

but is placed at the section of 2nd phone...

lol..

looks very new~~

and i go and ask for it...

the dealer told me the owner if this phone is his friends....

and she used oni 2 weeks oni....

i was like HUH???

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then i ask him for the price..

then he said..

RM 880~~

include charger, 8gb memory card, cable and also head set~~

at tat time my mind is thinking...

" is there are any problem wif this phone oni the owner sell it"???

then i check the phone and play with it there bout half an hours....

the phone look very new and niz..

no scratches and dirty~~

look like a new phone..

and the sticker behind also proved tat oni used not more than a month~~~

to think twice we went buy my sister phone protector...

thinking thinking thinking........

and also asking my sister for suggestion...

"to buy or not to buy" keep floating in my mind..... ><

after one hour of thinking ...

i made my decision~~~

i going to buy it..

and i straight to the atm and get money...

luckily the phone still there..

hehe..

is mine!!!!!

this is the first time i owned a smart phone!!!!

hehe....

actually oni my sister noe i owned this phone..

coz i dun dare to tell my parents..

coz they will killlll me 99....

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but i worked and save money..

buy something to reward myself i think is not wrong ..right??? ><

i hope they will accept this..

yet i still dun dare to tell them..

lol...

i hope tat this phone can be wif me for quite a number of years till gratuated my advanced

and get i fixed job~~~

hehe....

i will take good care of it as wat i did to my family..

hahaha... xDD

JOGOYA as lunch~~~

Yesterday nite when to mcd and studied wif pheng, joo and angie~~~

study till bout 1 something~~

jackson and alicia came(after pak tor... xD)~~

thn they ajak us to go for bak kut teh at kepong~~~

ok lor~~~ follow je~~

reached there bout 2something~~

it was my first time having bak kut teh as my supper~~~

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after finished eating then reahced home bout 3something to 4~~~

lolz...

slept at bout 5am~~~

night cat~~

woke up at 12 something~~~

and had planned to go JOGOYA for lunch~~~

this is my first time having so expensive lunch~~~

i went for it because now having buy one free one promotion~~

and also wanna try on it as i heard lots of my friends said tat it is very niz so i go and try it out lor~~~

lolz~~~

overall not bad~~~

i ate lots of abalone~~~ xD

so tat it will be " dai sek"~~~

i cant get use to the raw meat~~ example like salmon fish, oyster, and others raw meat~~~

so i din eat much~~~

i done a very embarrassed things~~

treated cocktails as orange juice~~~

after finished one cup oni noe tat is cocktail tat contain alcohol~~~

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i noe it when i felt my body getting very hot and they saw my face became very red~~

like "关公"~~ xDD

i most delicious things is the ice cream!!!

Haagen-Daz ice cream and New Zealand ice cream~~

this was the best ice cream i had ever eaten~~~

we ate 2 hours inside and fulled like hell!!!

feeling like my sotmach going to burst!

xD

RM 50 ~

two words>> "DAI SEK" !

haha....

i dun now when will be my second time to eat at JOGOYA again~~~

hehe~~~

reached home~~

my body is burning~~~

my head is very heavy~~~

feel like going to sick lerh~~~

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i think i really cant touch raw foods~~~

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hope will recover fast fast~~

amitabha~~~

chinese language~~~~ @@

is 0345 now~

i still awake...

backed from MCD 2 hours ago~~~

studied tat last resit subject togather wif sam~~~

To me ~

the life in kl now is either study tat resit subject or watch drama~

is a educational drama~~~

is all bout chinese history~~~

the drama named "三国"...

it contained 95 episodes~

lolz...

i oni reached 50th episode~~~

after watching this drama, i get to noe lot of story in chinese history~~~

last time when i was in secondary school~~~

during chinese language class~~ i dun even know wats the teacher talking bout~~ @@

dun even who and wat story she is talking bout~~

tats one of the reason i hate chinese very much tat time~~~

tats also the reason i am very bad in chinese language~~~

it is maybe because my parent were gratuated from english school~~

they dun noe much bout it and they din tell us and teached us~~~

i am not blaming them~~~

i sware!

i juz realised tat there are many interesting story in chinese history tat i dun noe~~

hows they fight~~~

hows their altitudes~~

wat they done to their own country~~~

wat philosophy had they created~~~

is so damn interesting !

i started to fell in love wif chinese history~~~xDD

now~

i am playing the game tat related to chinese history "三国志"~~

quite niz (introduced by ryan tan)~~

addicted to it lerh~~~

but still will control myself~~~

hee~~~

besides~~

i nid to improved my chinese language from time to time~~~

the first reason is >> i am a chinese~~~

besides~~~ the economic in china is ranked top 3 in the world....

so wat if i wanted to develope myself in china in future ~

how i am going to make it if i am not good in chinese language~~

for sure will have the problem wif communicating and writing in chinese language~~

^.^

tats wat i am thinking now~~~

i dunnoe u still got visit my blog o not~~~

but i really wanted to say thx to you for borrowing me the three books of novels~~~

it not oni can fill my time~~

and also can improve my chinese~~

^^

dun worry...

i am not forcing myself to read it~~

but i am trying to get myself touching back to chinese and get some interests of reading books~~~

soli for taking so long time to read and till now haven return u ~~~

the worst things is ~~

i haven finished reading them~~~

T.T

paiseh~~

but if u really want it back~~

tell me yea~~~

^^

k la...

gud night to u and sweet sweet dream~~

^^

sleepless and busy week~~~

FUUHHH~~~~!

had a busy days last week~~~

shift house, shopping, sis convo~

my 2nd sis had got a job and found a place to saty for her job~~~

it is at SS6~~

is very damn far~~~

i went there wif her to look for house for twice~ finally she got it....

thx god..

last thursday my dad drive his MPV car to kl to help my sister to shift all her things all the way from Wangsa Maju to SS6~~~

lol..

i was there too~~

she got lots of things.. and oni 3 of us worked out~~~~

i had a sleepless night the day before tat~~~

i slept for oni 2 hours~~

T.T

totally cant fall asleep~~

my mind kept thinking and thinking..

can stop !

damn it!!!(hope tat there is a button to press to let me stop thinking~~)

luckily i drank a bottle of BRANDS..

and it kept my body steady and done all the works~~

thx~~

xDD

we moved whole day till evening~~ we were exhauted ~~~

reached home bout 5pm~~~

then i went to bed at bout 12pm~

i woke up at bout 3pm in the next day~~

wow~~~

recharged 99 for 13 hours!!!

xDD

On the saturday~~

woke up at 12 pm~~

angie suddenly walked into my room and asked me~~~

any plans for today???

i answered>> nope~

she said>> lets go ! Pavillion!

errr~~~

seem i was very free ~

then i juz said ok lo...~~~

xD

me, lemon, angie, ryan and louis~

we reached there bout 1pm~~

then juz shopping around~~~

thinking to go for movie~~but fullhouse!

aiks...

angie recommened us something to eat~~

it was a stall named"Snowflakes" ..is a taiwanese food~~

looked very niz~~ then i tried it~~

man tau~~ i forgot i dun like soya!!!

and the ice is soya flavour~~~

T.T

in order not to waste it~~~

force myself to eat as much as i can~~~

cant finished it at last also!!!

wasted my money!!!!

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The next day was my eldest sister convocation day!!!

and i woke up at 5.30 am coz it started at 7.30pm~~

same thing happened to me again~~~

slep for 2 hours on the day b4 tat~~~

insomia(same as wat happened to me right now!) ~~~

T.T

but i made it by BRANDS again~~

hee~~~

i be my sister photographer during her whole convocation~~

thx for angie camera~~~

^^

it really tired~~~

really exhauted~~~

anyway congratz to me sister for her convocation and had completed her life in university~~

i still got 2 years to go oni can be like her~~~

free from the pressure of study and taking exam~~~~

i nid to be tuft and put lots of hardworks in this 2 years for everything!

tats my GOAL!

gud luck to myself!

eyes finally tired ad~~~

good night to u~~~

and sweet sweet dream yea~~~

^^