有时候~ 或许每个时候~

有時侯覺得自己其實一無所有 

彷彿被世界拋棄

有時候 明明自己身邊很多朋友

 卻依然覺得孤單

有時候 走過熟悉的街角 

看到熟悉的背影

突然就想起一個人的臉

有時候 突然很想哭 

卻難過的哭不出來

有時候 夜深人靜的時候

突然覺得寂寞深入骨髓

有時候 突然找不到自己

就让自己往镜子里看

至少还看到自己的脸

有时候，宁愿呆在家了都不愿意出街

是因为怕看到一对对情侣的甜蜜的时刻

自己却双手牵着自己的口袋成为独行侠

有时候~ 或许每个时候~ =)

我真的真的想你了~ =/

i  need you ~ 

Need some courages and answers to keep going~ May i ?

Fourth months!

been working for 4 months.

working in people country and made me a outsider.

but i was lucky that i being sent to a good site with good site manager and colleagues.

Before i started  my working life, i heard lots of friends who have step into working life complaining about their company have lots of politics.

actually i was ready to face that kind of working life, but now i am working in an environment which have only a minor politics. 

Everyone in the office are friendly and willing to help each others when facing problems even they are busy.

 i am glad to be part of PEC LTD employee. 

i think this is the job i am looking for. 

My own requirement of my job is NOT SITTING INSIDE OFFICE 24 HOURS!!! XD

And now i have been awarded by god with the job i am wishing for. 

appreciated! =D

Yesh! i am happy to such job. 

Yesh! is the job i am wishing for.

Yesh! is earning more than working in malaysia.

but~ life changed~ 

boring, lonely, missing all come to me now~

After working time, there is no significant things to do beside dinner and sleep.

The only significant thing i can do in my current life is doing OT.

the only thing that is significant which is earning extra money.

if weekend no work, i will be very very damn boring. 

Staying at home whole damn day! 

nobody to talk to. nobody to meet, nobody to chat to release some stresss....

aiks~

NO LIFE!

Everyday when i lay on my bed i starting thinking,

 i chosen to work at the field that is different from what i study.

issit a correct choice? 

 or is a must to work on wat i studied?

 if i done this choice to work on different field, will it be wasting parent money which they invested on me for my course i chosen?

hmmm.... big question! lol

<3

When i lay on my bed i think of her.

when i closed my eye i see her.

When my brain rest and slept i meet her in my dream.

i think i missed her real lots.

especially now!(when u read it now) 

did she accept long distance relationship

is she still available?

or she had someone else in her heart?

=X

I have no idea why the love to her never change since the first time i fell for her.

i guess the love trap is too deep and I fell in too deep.

i wish to take care, love, pampered her.

i wish to have her accompany everytime i am down and i am in pressure.

=(

possible?

but anyhow i really love her. 

From true heart~ =|

<3

Trying Hard!

Y time past sooooo fast???!!!!\
i worked for 2 months in Singapore ad.
kinda pressure... kinda enjoy....
weird feeling actually...
the colleagues are very friendly....
they help me a lots...
taught me a lots of things...

Actually...
i really want to grumble that..
 i am a bit regret of accepting this job due to the field...
as everyone noe that i graduated from electronic engineering...
but what i am work on now???
i am more to construction and civil engineer...
 /_\
should i happy or sad???
i am not grumbling that is very hot and very tired a lot of things to be done...
i am grumbling that  i am doing it as so called "STARTING FROM ZERO"..!
i noe nothing about the civil, construction and mechanical....
i nid to learn from ZERO
haiz....
but currently i still doing my best to catching up on what i should learn and listed in my job scope

I am assigned to client GSK site (Glaxo Smith Klien)...
The main things that i should do for the new me in this company is-
relation between me, workers, colleagues and the most important are the clientsss...
up to now...
i should say i still can handle them...
quite friendly with all of them...
i think i should thank to all the event i involved during my college life...


Still not really get use to singapore life...
no friends...
go shopping see oni  but not buying...
saturday and sunday stay at home boring...
wanted to go home but cant predict the time as urgent job suddenly pop out in company...

i think i can change my name to blurr leeqiang ad...
recently really blurr...
day dreaming while walking...
i can walking distance during my working time can go up to 5 km everyday...
the whole site is as big as TARUC maybe more than that.....! @@"
i think after working for a year i can go take part in walkathon ady...
is quite tiring coz the super duper hot weather plus the super duper hot PPE....
i hope i can hide in office the whole day...!!!! haha..

Read ur lastest update on ur blog...
if really dun feel like staying there... thn find a way out...
example like find job in other place?
other country?
go for an interview of job?
it might be work...
far way better than u forced urself to stay there.
i am here to help anytime...
need help can find me anytime... i very willing to help...
=)
good night and sweet dream~ =) <3

Take it or leave it!

New year-New life~
this is what really happening to me this year~
A great and challenging starting year of 2014!

Say bye bye to Digistar, ampang...
Say hi to PEC LTD...
i made up my mind of jumping for the singapore job...
although i really dun wan to let someone behind and left...
but really sorry that i made this decision.. (to myself and maybe ...her)..
it was really hard to choose...
it was a matter of leaving to other country to work but without the period of time
dunnoe when i will be back..
hardly to choose to leave because of i am leaving someone i really in love~
i was thinking that it was a good chance to get closer to her and have her heart...
but... but... it was ruined...
i also dun why i will made the decision of leaving to Singapore...
maybe is because digistar company too stingy?
maybe is because the pay doesn't insure my saving for my future life? wife? family?house?
after calculation is made...
the most i can save a month is oni RM 200
RM 2400/per year of saving....
if the latest i get married is in 6 years time....
i only have RM 14400 for my wedding??
how bout house? car? who going to pay for thm? parent? hell no~!
i really hope my choice is correct and not the wrong one...
the current client site is GSK company...

if not i will really feel disappointing to myself...

this is the 2nd day of work~
the working environment is far more what i expected...
i was assigned to client site.... so every morning i had to touch in myself at client...
i cant really expect that my office is located in a cabin...
but luckily there are aircond installed in the cabin...
it is really a brand new working environment for me..
working with all kind of workers from different country....
malaysia,china,singapore,mnyamar,bangladesh,philiphine....
the most workers are from mnyamar,bangladesh,philiphine a.k.a 外劳 in malaysia..
i cant call thm as what i do in malaysia here because i myself also one of them!!!!
haha....xD
but some of them really intelligent... the really learn from experiences...
i guess their English are far more better than mine....
the oni problem i face is their English slang....
i cant really get what they are talking...
but soon i will catch that....
good luck to myself... is a must to catch up with their English slang because i will be working together with them~

There good things about this company ...
they provide a lots of different kind of training course and company pay for it...
i will be having training from tomorow onward untill next monday....
i am ready to learning new things...
i really made a very very big decision!
i took up something not related to me course!
i graduated from Electronic Course but now i am working in construction field...
more to piping...
The things that PEC do are more on piping...
the design the pipe line...
they built it... the pipe to contain chemical liquid and gases..
so it is quite dangerous job...
they also do piping for oil and gas company~
they are main in Pharmaceuticals, Vaccines and Consumer Healthcare...
they are dealing with all kind of flammable and acidic chemical...
Safety is in the first place of my company!
everything we do are related to safety~
hope everything will go smooth and i hope i can learn a lots from this site...
although i will be working under hot sun most of the time but i will get myself used to it....
TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT! =D

Lastly,
i am here in singapore alone...
i din forget her...
i never fail of miss her every moment...
i wish to text her every night before i sleep...
but seem like nid to wait for miracle???
i really care about her feeling...
i really scare of disturbing her by texting her a "good night" every night~
am i disturbing her?
or she dun feel comfortable with it?
i dun noe~ =|
i hope to noe~ hee~~

take care~
i miss you~ <3 =)

everything went odd~~ not smooth~~~

Well~
The last time i updated here was 8 months ago
never touch or update it although i had a very wonderful moment in UK
Too busy? Too many trips? or Too lazy? XD
i dunno...
Anyway~ i can use one word to describe the whole 3 months life in UK!
DOPE!
Everything was just out of my expectation and imaginary while i was still in Malaysia
the weather, peoples and etc was just awesome!
really make me wanna stay there for life!
OK~ change topic... will update more photos of UK life here when i am free...
more than 10k photos~
skip~

Come to the things that i wanted to release stress here!
i find no more place or people for me to cry to~
only here... the best and the only place that nobody will read it only myself
Was really really frustrated recently due to job hunting attending interview
up to now only got 2 interview called up....

The first one~ and is the very first official interview for myself...
was really nervous due to i dun have confidence to answer and refresh my memory on the things i learnt in
Diploma end up failed to get it ...
Partly, the company also put too high expectation on fresh graduates who went for interview especially me
3 went for interview but only me failed to be recruited in the company
Disappointing  to myself cos i cant do well in the interview and because i got a bad result
they recruiting based on result...
Issit only people with good result can work better???
The people with bad result cant work well???
can i say they underestimating people who cant study well???
i was asked that why i get so low result???
how i am going to answer???
at last i juz smile to them as i really dunno how to answer and my heart is slashed...

The second interview was in ampang, it is a quite big company, quite lots of things to be learned from...
that are the thing i wanted to learn and the jobscope i wish to have...
Went for interview last friday and get hired...
i was told that is a 5 days work...
i was told that rm 350 is for car allowance
i was not told anything about boding things (WTF???!!! applying for scholarship meh??!!!)
i was not told that i had night shift work...

i went to collected the offer letter today from ampang office...
when the first page i flip i tot i took the wrong letter because it written saturday working hour~@@"
keep reading through~~ i saw the boding things~
 i do ask whether i got any training when i am in the company??
he answered me that i only have to follow the senior and he will guide me.. he never mention about the boding things... so if i dun have any training needed ,,, why the hell you include told training and boding stuff into my offer letter??? trying to framed me and seek benefit from my carelessness??
keep read through flipping through the next page
the allowance of RM 350 written as NIGHT SHIFT allowance~
what i have been told this RM 350 is for car allowance and what da hell is NIGHT SHIFT allowance??!!
FUCKING you never mention to me about working night shift??!!!
the most u told me is OT!
night shift and OT is fucking big different things! u noe that??
wondering how u can be a head of department!
or this is wat CEO told to do to their new coming employees??
End Up i had told the HR department to make an appointment for me with the one who interview me since he is not in today! i really wishing to hear what is he going to say!
i wanted to face to face to talk to him!
That is not the way u cutting cost for ur company man...
u keep doing this and not changing style of cheating people to come for interview...
ur company wouldn't stay long!
especially the graduates nowaday!
i hope it is HR department mistakes~
i really hope i can work here since there are lots of things i wish to learn from here...
i hope everything will goes well...

Really lost my mind... and really really down
looking for someone to accompany me.. but find no one~~
due something related self matter...
 y they wanted to decide for me whether to work o not...
 y not giving a decision-making chance for me to decide whether to accept this job o not~~
i really sked if they keep doin this to me ... I WILL NEVER GROW!!!
i am 23rd now arrrrr~~~~
when oni i got my own decision-making chance???
aiks...
o felt really really stress juz now...
really feel very very helpless and find no one to cry to~~ =(
the only is i went for pool alone at least able to cool down myself little bit~

The only wish now is i can get better offer from this company so that i can stay in company...
i wish to stay in ampang for changing a new environment for myself and due to some of the reason also~ =)
Wish myself good luck~
Amithaba~~

Good Night~ =) <3

Hope everything goes smoothly~

i got my last semester result on the 5th of February....
almost fainted when i got my result..
got a C- for engineering management
i failed!
"finally" huh?
really dissapointed to myself once i got my result
i failed to do what i promised to myself at the time when i made up my mind to continue for my advanced
i failed to do that
i promised myself not to failed for the entire advanced diploma
and fell in the last second sem
At first i tot i can passed all and able to relax a bit and fully focus on the only one subject in the last semester
but so unlucky
i failed to do that
anyhow is failed
i cant do anything to make it pass except i resit! (i kept telling myself)
but i really really down on the day and the entire next day...
moody
anyhow
i nid to accept it also
i didnt perform well in the final exam due to the fucking silly mistakes
this is what i can blame
whatever... the most important things now is the focus on this two final subjects...
others things  temporary i cant touch
sorry~
if i tell someone like this...
maybe he/she will say i keep giving reasons.... =X
i am sorry~~ =(

Finally my FYP thesis came to the end....
was really suffering period when doing the FYP...
at least it is working.... ^^
at least i learn how to write a android application although my coding is not so good
hehe
few more months i am flying
and i am going to spent quite a lot of money
i bought my dslr and ready for UK!
RM 40K needed to spent in UK
is a big amount of money
i feel a bit guilty of using dad sweat money
and i still not able to be as good as what i sister do
T_T
My tuition still going on
but will end at the end of MAY and get my self ready to fly!
i work hard to earn money and save some money to go UK and have some extra pocket money
but yet still not much
coz the currency of UK is 5 times our country @@"
i wil try my very best to save as much as i can

i found the spare part of my little digital camera on9~~
and it coz me rm 150
ship from US =X
i told my friend about it and he straight say me stupid
say i use rm 150 to fix a camera that cost rm 99
for him is stupid
but for me i just wan to try to fixed it by my own
gain some experience, try out new things.
fixing a digital camera is not easy though
waiting for it to reach here
hehe
as what i did fixed my desktop!
i went to lowyat and look for the spoilt spare parts~
and i search for the whole building of lowyat...
but end up i cant find
i was laughed by some of the shop owner
they told me, power supply cant be fixed one
and nobody go and fixed a power supply
they ask me to change straight away and dun waste time
i did go into their shop and look for a new power supply but it cost bout RM 200++
@@
i din buy coz too expensive for me
but i found the spare part in Malacca
 HELL YEAH i fixed it
 everything went back to normal
i proved u all wrong, power supply can be fixed!
and i spent RM10++ instead of rm 200++ ;)

.........................................................................................

我真的想你了
我时常梦见到你
在梦里很甜蜜
多希望是真的
有种想永远都睡不醒的感觉
但最终还是得醒

很想找你
但找不到话题
很想打给你
但怕打扰你
不是故意不找你
而是我不知道我在你心中是否重要
最后还是保持沉默
依然无时无刻地想你
=(

晚安 <3 =)

TIRED! BUT I DID IT!

YESH!
finally i passed!
i made it for wat i had promised to myself!
must passed and get back that RM800!
hahaha!!!
issit because, there is a rule of...
if we pass in the test...
and we are able to claim back the fees that cost RM 800~~
(is a way of motivation)
now i PASSED!
in short from wat i earned from this huawei company short courses>>
-free brand new knowledge
-free meals ~xD
-free exam~
-free very 3 informative books
-free multiples of useful software
-free certificate
last but not least~
i gained another opportunity to work in their company! =D
this is my first external extra short course i took in college.. weird huh?
i drained up a week to study off 700++ pages of notes~
really killing~
study till very very very blurrr~~~
nearly giving up~ @@""
i remember her words "要吗就不要开始, 既然开始了就完成它!" ~
this sentence woke me up~
 and i "fly" back kl 2 days earlier to study with  FU SOON & SHAWN~~~
our exam we appoint to the company was on wednesday...
 1 day before i went fu soon house to study and work hard to finished the 800++ sample questions that given by the lecturer....
but at last i only manage to finished 400++ oni~
 i was damn sked on the exam day because i am not really prepared for that....
after that exam i was glad that i passed.
the passing grade was 600/1000
but i got 750/1000.. i am the lowest among three of us...
shawn got 800++ and fusoon got 900++!!!!
to me~ they are god!!! =D
i admit i not good in study and i am satisfied with the result..

After that suffering period~
now get back in touch with my Final Year Project!
we were told to add in more feature into our project in order to get higher mark..  /_\
is not and easy stuff to add in~~~
coding~ lol...
but i will try my best...

recently bought a second hand  DSLR... hehe...
Canon 550D kit lens 18-135mm~
with these accesories:-
-Canon 550D body
-lens 18-135mm
-canon original tripod
-canon original battery grip (BG-E8)
-nissin flash
-HOYA PRO 1 Digital filter
-2x Canon original battery
-dslr backpack bag (able to store two dslr)
-2 x 8GB memory card
the price is RM 2050 (asked my friends for opinion and he said can buy.. cheap)
thinking to sell off the nissin flash and the battery grip due to i am not a professional and i juz snap for interest only~
thinking of my nikon J1~ =(

meet her almost everynight in my dream...
is she in the same dream with me also?
hope she is~ ><
THINK TOO MUCH LAR! JERRY GUI! ><
but really she appeared in my dream everynight... =(

lastly~
no HOLIDAYS for this sem break!!!!!!!!!
all because of the short courses and FYP!!!
no matter how... still left 5 months!
and i am free! and i will do smtg that i wanted to do so much! <3 hehe~~


exam result released soon! 5th FEBRUARY 2013~~
wish me luck~~~
amitabha~~~

 night lo~~
sweet dream yea...
 how are u recently?
really miss u a lots.. <3