Job at work quite slow down recently.
the functioning of my brain getting slower and slower.
cant even figure out well for small problem.
haiz...
my mind are doomed.
cant really focus on work.
Freaking hate OT recently. dun noe why , juz feel like wanted to get home as fast as possible.

i recently i made a big mistakes during work.
Quotation given to client was under quoted.
when it question by client to my manager, and found out that the amount between the corrected one and my one having a big gap!
after the finding of the big gap, juz only realise that i miss some big amount items and forgot to include into the quotation!
Damn it.! and coming monday which mean tomorrow i had to go with manager and clarify to client about such big difference between the 2 quotations.

=|
the longer the time i worked in singapore, the desperation of going back to kl to work becoming larger and larger.
Oh GOD! i really feeling wanted to go back to KL and work.
In singapore, the daily routine are the same!
Breakfast > work > lunch > work > dinner > sleep
Sunday worse.
staying at home all day long and sometimes only one meal for a day.
Damn it! what kind of life isit?
even tough sometimes go for badminton and basketball, but still feeling having a routine boring life.
thinking of planning a trip, but cant get a partner to go with.
feeling like getting a girlfriend and travel together with her.

It is quite difficult to find a girlfriend here i noe.
because of the work place environment, my site women workforce only 10 percent are women. mostly are married and partnered.
cant i stick to you?
i can chase you back?
do i have a chance?

recently i feel like i am losing hope (you).
had a hard feeling that you are not talking to me anymore.
have you got yours own special one?
hmmm....
i am far from you.
if i lose you i have no say.
sorry i choose to leave you alone there.
is the biggest mistake i made.
sorry.
actually i planned to get a car and drive up as frequent as possible juz to visit you and see you.
is because i do really miss you alots.
sometimes i seldom find you is because if i go near you too much, you will get rebounded faster or slip away faster.

You do really appear in my dream a lots of time.
but it just a dream.
dream will or never become true?
hmm...
can it become true?
i really hope so.
the next round i will be meeting you is when?
can it be like now?
haiz.
only if miracle happened.!

good night.
sleep early and dun always sleep so late ah...
sweet dream~ <3
I <3 you.

Messed mind

Recently dun really feel like working for OT.
Feeling like going home earlier even though there is not much thing i can do at home beside gaming and internet.
My mind are messed up with all kind of thinking
cant really focus on work recently, keep having mistakes during works
no inspiration, no mood to work.
WHY??? TELL ME WHY???

issit i too worry bout my future?
Or smtg else?
yes, i admit i am worrying about my future in many ways, as in
work, family and also getting my the other half.
there are lots of frustration and they messed and choked up my mind.
When client approach me for question, i cant really answer properly.
haiz...
if i continue like this i think i will lost my job.

i am sleepy now....
i will continue my writing tomorrow.

between~ very niz pictures but the bamboo village one got a bit over edited with the temperature liao.. hehe...hei hei～
And that pataya made my saliva all over the floor liao!!! .... xD
4 more days~
good night~ sweet dream~ <3 =)


ps: I.M.Y~ <3

1 years 3 months 16 days.

i have been working here for such period

isit  really too fast the time passing?

or the thing i doing are too much?

No idea!

Through catching up old friend at mamak stall and chit-chatting,

obviously to other people thinking, > Woah ! working in sg is very good! earn big money! 

Every time i getting myself ready before catching up with old friend at mamak stall from all those "super positive" thinking of theirs.

Actually to me, yes, the salary is a bit more than what they got in msia after converting; 

buti have left quite lot of important thingy and  people behind.

After working for such period of time, i feel that a not really worth to work here.

i dunnoe maybe i will have this thinking when i am in emotional mode? or it is true?

After working for this period of time, i did learnt and picked up quite lots of things. 90% are mechanical thingy which are not related to what my parents had paid for me in college and university. Such a waste? 

Every-time i will question my mum, will it be a waste as i choose to work in different field to what u had paid for in my study?

I know mum always goes for the best answer, she said no worry, study in one thing, working is another thing; The most important things in life is learnt how to face the real world and earning money through your career.

hmmm... it is quite inspiring to me and i take it as a inspiration.

My mum supported me without failed since i was a little boy as i was not good in study and get scolded by dad all the time juz because he demand to high to me in getting good result because of all my 3 sisters are doing it very well.

I am not blaming them but this is what i feel.

i will do my best to what my mum told me.

hmmm.....

Thanks for letting me to date you out.

i am really happy to see you actually, 

i did miss you a lot when i am in sg.

sorry that i din talk much when we were together, i am just feeling good of staying right besides you. 

All the frustration from work, messy thinking melted at the second i see your sweet smile. Feeling like laying my head on your shoulder. But i dun really have the guts to do it as i am respecting you too.

Everyday i will drop by your blog to read if there is any new personal article as you will spit all your bad moment there and there is any help or people needed to spit all your bad feeling to.

Actually i dun mind to be the one, cause just wanted you to be happy all the time.

I do really have a very special on you where i wish i could care of you and be with you all the time.

Oh ya, i had a "nightmare" yesterday midnight. i dream of you... XD

i really really wish i can sleep forever and live in the dream with you. It was a quite sweety dream actually. hehe.

Enjoy your travel day.

Good night ~

sweet dream~ <3 <3 <3 

NOTE: Envies create messy thinking~ 

Yes! i miss you and i need you~

Coming to 4 months~

i nearly forgot i have a blog for me to spit all my tension and feeling at...

in these 4 months, beside work still works.

nothing much i can do here.

tension? yes, like a whole building on the top of my head.

boring? yes, it is.

lonely? yes, is lonely.

now i am the only one who handle the whole maintenance job at a site twice the size of TARCollege.

previously was 2 guys handling the whole site of maintenance job.

But curiously, why left me alone ???

why boss so rest assured that letting me alone to handle the maintenance jobs of the freaking whole site since i am not old at this company?

confident in me? or lack of manpower?

haiz....

i wont mumble at this load of works.

 i will try my best to take them.

but i cannot assured that i met all clients requirements especially deadlines.

Currently right now,

I having at least 10 jobs pending and in progress, and new jobs are coming in accordingly and continuously without giving me any preparation.

Frenchly speaking, these will accumulate tensions on me if i couldn't met each clients requirements and deadline.

What i have to do if a job being activated:

1. walk down with clients

2. walk down with my supervisor

3. verified the ISO drawing drawn by my supervisor

4. get approval for the drawing and waiting costing engineer to produce the quotation 

5. get client to sign off the quotation before start work.
6. clients signed, purchase all the materials needed.
7. get supervisors to fabricate all the materials.
8. fabrication done? start to erect at site and get the work done and handover to clients

this is oni 60% of the process of a jobs. how if there is 10 jobs one shot coming to me???
@@"""
sometimes i juz trying my best to do what i able to do.
i refuse to do it when i not able to do rather than i simply do and give a low quality work to client and bring down the reputation of the company.
anyhow, i really hope that boss will assign an assistance for me to carry out the tonnes of works that i am handling alone.  

At work, i having a smiling face all the day, can i say i am pretending?
actually, i am thinking every-night before i sleep~
 am i choosing the right path?
 am i coming the right place to work?
am i doing the right choice to leave her hundred miles away to work?
everyday and night, i was thinking of her.

My mum really understand me.
That day, my mum friend was asking my mum: ur son got girlfriend ad?sure got someone he like ba.
my mum straight away answered>> he got, but he dun dare to wan.
yes i do. i had her in my heart all the time. but i really dun dare to want.
Maybe is because of my foreseeing and over thinking and made me like that, moreover, i need a girl who really care and really talk to me. i hope she would be the one. I dun have confidence at all on long distance relationship, i scare i will implicate her and ruin her wonderful life now.
Maybe she is prioritize more to friends and most are opposite sex, and this confuse me. sorry for saying this but this is how i feel. =)
To her, who am i ? am i important to her?
or just a normal friend as other do?
 =)

i really miss her.
i cried silently sometimes when i thought of her.
i do really love her.

good night and sweet dream=) <3


-Jerry-

有时候~ 或许每个时候~

有時侯覺得自己其實一無所有 

彷彿被世界拋棄

有時候 明明自己身邊很多朋友

 卻依然覺得孤單

有時候 走過熟悉的街角 

看到熟悉的背影

突然就想起一個人的臉

有時候 突然很想哭 

卻難過的哭不出來

有時候 夜深人靜的時候

突然覺得寂寞深入骨髓

有時候 突然找不到自己

就让自己往镜子里看

至少还看到自己的脸

有时候，宁愿呆在家了都不愿意出街

是因为怕看到一对对情侣的甜蜜的时刻

自己却双手牵着自己的口袋成为独行侠

有时候~ 或许每个时候~ =)

我真的真的想你了~ =/

i  need you ~ 

Need some courages and answers to keep going~ May i ?

Fourth months!

been working for 4 months.

working in people country and made me a outsider.

but i was lucky that i being sent to a good site with good site manager and colleagues.

Before i started  my working life, i heard lots of friends who have step into working life complaining about their company have lots of politics.

actually i was ready to face that kind of working life, but now i am working in an environment which have only a minor politics. 

Everyone in the office are friendly and willing to help each others when facing problems even they are busy.

 i am glad to be part of PEC LTD employee. 

i think this is the job i am looking for. 

My own requirement of my job is NOT SITTING INSIDE OFFICE 24 HOURS!!! XD

And now i have been awarded by god with the job i am wishing for. 

appreciated! =D

Yesh! i am happy to such job. 

Yesh! is the job i am wishing for.

Yesh! is earning more than working in malaysia.

but~ life changed~ 

boring, lonely, missing all come to me now~

After working time, there is no significant things to do beside dinner and sleep.

The only significant thing i can do in my current life is doing OT.

the only thing that is significant which is earning extra money.

if weekend no work, i will be very very damn boring. 

Staying at home whole damn day! 

nobody to talk to. nobody to meet, nobody to chat to release some stresss....

aiks~

NO LIFE!

Everyday when i lay on my bed i starting thinking,

 i chosen to work at the field that is different from what i study.

issit a correct choice? 

 or is a must to work on wat i studied?

 if i done this choice to work on different field, will it be wasting parent money which they invested on me for my course i chosen?

hmmm.... big question! lol

<3

When i lay on my bed i think of her.

when i closed my eye i see her.

When my brain rest and slept i meet her in my dream.

i think i missed her real lots.

especially now!(when u read it now) 

did she accept long distance relationship

is she still available?

or she had someone else in her heart?

=X

I have no idea why the love to her never change since the first time i fell for her.

i guess the love trap is too deep and I fell in too deep.

i wish to take care, love, pampered her.

i wish to have her accompany everytime i am down and i am in pressure.

=(

possible?

but anyhow i really love her. 

From true heart~ =|

<3

Trying Hard!

Y time past sooooo fast???!!!!\
i worked for 2 months in Singapore ad.
kinda pressure... kinda enjoy....
weird feeling actually...
the colleagues are very friendly....
they help me a lots...
taught me a lots of things...

Actually...
i really want to grumble that..
 i am a bit regret of accepting this job due to the field...
as everyone noe that i graduated from electronic engineering...
but what i am work on now???
i am more to construction and civil engineer...
 /_\
should i happy or sad???
i am not grumbling that is very hot and very tired a lot of things to be done...
i am grumbling that  i am doing it as so called "STARTING FROM ZERO"..!
i noe nothing about the civil, construction and mechanical....
i nid to learn from ZERO
haiz....
but currently i still doing my best to catching up on what i should learn and listed in my job scope

I am assigned to client GSK site (Glaxo Smith Klien)...
The main things that i should do for the new me in this company is-
relation between me, workers, colleagues and the most important are the clientsss...
up to now...
i should say i still can handle them...
quite friendly with all of them...
i think i should thank to all the event i involved during my college life...


Still not really get use to singapore life...
no friends...
go shopping see oni  but not buying...
saturday and sunday stay at home boring...
wanted to go home but cant predict the time as urgent job suddenly pop out in company...

i think i can change my name to blurr leeqiang ad...
recently really blurr...
day dreaming while walking...
i can walking distance during my working time can go up to 5 km everyday...
the whole site is as big as TARUC maybe more than that.....! @@"
i think after working for a year i can go take part in walkathon ady...
is quite tiring coz the super duper hot weather plus the super duper hot PPE....
i hope i can hide in office the whole day...!!!! haha..

Read ur lastest update on ur blog...
if really dun feel like staying there... thn find a way out...
example like find job in other place?
other country?
go for an interview of job?
it might be work...
far way better than u forced urself to stay there.
i am here to help anytime...
need help can find me anytime... i very willing to help...
=)
good night and sweet dream~ =) <3