Messed mind

Recently dun really feel like working for OT.
Feeling like going home earlier even though there is not much thing i can do at home beside gaming and internet.
My mind are messed up with all kind of thinking
cant really focus on work recently, keep having mistakes during works
no inspiration, no mood to work.
WHY??? TELL ME WHY???

issit i too worry bout my future?
Or smtg else?
yes, i admit i am worrying about my future in many ways, as in
work, family and also getting my the other half.
there are lots of frustration and they messed and choked up my mind.
When client approach me for question, i cant really answer properly.
haiz...
if i continue like this i think i will lost my job.

i am sleepy now....
i will continue my writing tomorrow.

between~ very niz pictures but the bamboo village one got a bit over edited with the temperature liao.. hehe...hei hei～
And that pataya made my saliva all over the floor liao!!! .... xD
4 more days~
good night~ sweet dream~ <3 =)


ps: I.M.Y~ <3

1 years 3 months 16 days.

i have been working here for such period

isit  really too fast the time passing?

or the thing i doing are too much?

No idea!

Through catching up old friend at mamak stall and chit-chatting,

obviously to other people thinking, > Woah ! working in sg is very good! earn big money! 

Every time i getting myself ready before catching up with old friend at mamak stall from all those "super positive" thinking of theirs.

Actually to me, yes, the salary is a bit more than what they got in msia after converting; 

buti have left quite lot of important thingy and  people behind.

After working for such period of time, i feel that a not really worth to work here.

i dunnoe maybe i will have this thinking when i am in emotional mode? or it is true?

After working for this period of time, i did learnt and picked up quite lots of things. 90% are mechanical thingy which are not related to what my parents had paid for me in college and university. Such a waste? 

Every-time i will question my mum, will it be a waste as i choose to work in different field to what u had paid for in my study?

I know mum always goes for the best answer, she said no worry, study in one thing, working is another thing; The most important things in life is learnt how to face the real world and earning money through your career.

hmmm... it is quite inspiring to me and i take it as a inspiration.

My mum supported me without failed since i was a little boy as i was not good in study and get scolded by dad all the time juz because he demand to high to me in getting good result because of all my 3 sisters are doing it very well.

I am not blaming them but this is what i feel.

i will do my best to what my mum told me.

hmmm.....

Thanks for letting me to date you out.

i am really happy to see you actually, 

i did miss you a lot when i am in sg.

sorry that i din talk much when we were together, i am just feeling good of staying right besides you. 

All the frustration from work, messy thinking melted at the second i see your sweet smile. Feeling like laying my head on your shoulder. But i dun really have the guts to do it as i am respecting you too.

Everyday i will drop by your blog to read if there is any new personal article as you will spit all your bad moment there and there is any help or people needed to spit all your bad feeling to.

Actually i dun mind to be the one, cause just wanted you to be happy all the time.

I do really have a very special on you where i wish i could care of you and be with you all the time.

Oh ya, i had a "nightmare" yesterday midnight. i dream of you... XD

i really really wish i can sleep forever and live in the dream with you. It was a quite sweety dream actually. hehe.

Enjoy your travel day.

Good night ~

sweet dream~ <3 <3 <3 

NOTE: Envies create messy thinking~