Everything in 2012 ended here~~

Today will be the last day of year 2012...
Obviously , this will be the last post for year 2012 ...

The reason i will be sitting in front of my computer to start blogging is...
i am too pressure on my study....
exam really drove me crazy!!!
the the most important reason is to summarize my life in year 2012 before it ends.....

The current activity that is happening in my college now is the Final exam for the whole college students.
everyone is busying with study and revision in order to get themselves well prepared for their final exam...
The bad things is, the exam period fell on the chirstmas  and the new year period..
from facebook, i heard and seen a lots of  complaints from my friends about the problem of the exam period and made them unable to celebrate for chirstmas new year~~
To me is nothing , because i dint celebrate these two festival since i was a child, even my birthday!
my birthday for 2012 was special than before...
3 types of festivals in a day...
my birthday, Winter Solstice, and the so call "DOOMS DAY"!!!! haha....
i was not able to go back hometown to eat tangyuan this year because of the preparation for final exam~~~
but i went to her house to eat tangyuan to celebrate winter solstice for this year...
and this is my first time to eat tang yuan at friend hous in kl....
really thx to her... <3 appreciated it very much~ <3  
and it really meant a lots to the winter solstice and my birthday although without celebration on that day~~ xD

Few weeks back, i was rushing for my assignment and my final year project thesis~
i was nearly crazy with them, but luckily i was able to finished them in time...
but the bad things was, my health was affected! >,<
there were a lot of problems a\happened to me>> migraine, backbone, muscles......etc...
even it happening now!
current health problem is >> i guess my nerves run out and tracks and pressed between bones...
 i have no ideas how it happened.. and i am looking for a chinese doctor now!
any recommendation?
is really freaking damn sufferring! >.<

The are more and more things happened in the year 2012...
 it is impossible to write them all here....
so, currently i am still single... and i will get "one" very soon.. xD
and the "one" that i mentioned is the "one" i missed very minutes and seconds! =D
i also hope that my health will be better and i can get a chinese doctor a.s.a.p!
Lastly, i hope that i can do well in my exam and my pressure can be reduced....
"THINK POSITIVE" is the most important task and promised to myself! =DD

There are tonnes of things that i have learnt, met, experienced, came across....
 For the bad one, i will treat them as lessons...
 For the good one, i will treat them as gifts...

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013 !!!
AND I WISH MY FAMILY, "YOU" and ALL MY FRIENDS HAVE A WONDERFUL START  OF A NEW YEAR!!!!
<3
ps:  and is just nice 23:59 31/12/2012!!!! xD

累•没变

累。。。。。
真的很累。。。。
可以感觉到非常的累。。。。。

自己都还不确定是否可以顺利闯过这个超累的学期。。。。
感觉是有点不行了。。。
有股想放弃的感觉。。。。
我从一开始踏入校园，在成绩方面一直都没舍骄傲的。。。
直到今天也是一样。。。。
做的比人家多。。
但是成绩怎么考，还是一样的差。。。
到底是那里出问题？？？
脑袋？ 心灵？ 人格？ 专心能力？
自己都没法知道。。。
都不知道为何我还这么拼的去读去做。。。
咳〜〜

有心事，不知找谁聊。。。
想找她。。 但觉得奇怪。。。
其实，我对她还有感觉的。。。
都那么久了。。
为舍对她的感觉完全没改变，没退化。。。
还是那么的在乎她，还是那么的想去关心她。。。
时常都会到她的部落格去看看。。。
=(
但有时觉得自己没再次去示爱是对的。。。
因为我了解自己的为人。。。
如果。。如果。。当初我成功的话。。。
可能现在我会把她给忽略。。
因为我会花大部分的时间在学业上。。。
应为我怕再次留级。。。 ：（
如果她读了这遍文章。。。 可能会觉得我很奇怪（因为我也这么觉得）。。@.@

现在的脑袋就像打死结的线一样
完全操作不到....
咳~~

今天早点睡~
真的没办法做功课了~~~~ =(
早点睡啦你~~~ xD
晚安~  <3

Tiring semester~~ GAMBATE! HWAITING!

Lefted my blog untouch for such long time
Spider web are everywhere in my blog
Because of Super duper busy this semester
Tonnes of work to be done within this sem
Thrice the busiiiiness comparing to the previous few sems
Let me lits out the task must be done within this sem
5 assignments, 5 mid term test, 4 lab reports, 3 lab demos, interim reports, prototype, fyp demo,thesis
 Okay... Is 21 tasks altogather
Damnn... Still left at least 6? Haiz.
I also dun noe what the lecturer thinking
Really run out of time this sem..
No idea how to get myself prepared for the final exam.
All are very difficult subjects, and nid time to understand
Till now still frustrting for my final year project preoblem
I am writing an android program which can be used to control a smart house.
Which mean that all the electronic devices are under controll of an android phone.
My job is to write out and android application
I am a bit regreted of promising my partner that i wanted to incharge of software part.
Coz my basic on software is not good and my logic thinking is not good to be a programmer.
Anyhow, i thicken up my face and go toward anyone who are good i software and programming
I am 60% done of my parts. Anroid apps is done. Left oni the connection to the computer coding still facing problem.
My partner is incharging the hardware parts, i really really hope that our parts can be connected and become a completed smart house projects.

Today mood really fcuked up .
Too pressure? Too tensions?
Maybe yes? Or smtg else...
Aiks....
Missing someone again?
Dream of someone again?
Oni can meet in the dream instead of real life?
Aiks...
Sometimes really hope that she can be by my side when i am down.
But issit possible?
Impossible i guess...
I juz nobody...
Listening to a song "Miss you like crazy".... Niz songs and is like singing from my heart and my feeling...

I really hope i can successful pass this sem and i will be very very very happy le...
AMITABHA...

Lastly...
Happy convocation and u look great today.. =) <3

Good night <3

动漫？!

时间是凌晨四点
刚停止忙着做fyp的research
也刚看完一集动漫。。。
天啊~
我竟然看动漫，还真的看得那么认真。
不只是银魂，还有黑子的篮球。
两部都不错。。。
其实也是觉得好奇，她为何那么迷
就试着去看
果然不错看。。。XD
黑子的篮球这部是看到她在她的面书上推荐。。。 再加上🏀 这两个字。。。
我才那么有兴趣要看！呵呵~XD
因为我喜欢篮球（虽然没舍厉害。）
看完了23集。。。 等不及要看下集！！！
原来追动漫是这种感觉！
我也不知道几时会出下集。。。@-@
觉得这比slamdunk还好看。。。
因为可能slamdunk 我只看了几集。。。xD
虽然有些动作很夸张。。 哈哈
尤其是那个绿发的。。。 百分之百的进球 @-@
突然真的很想打篮球啊！
加加买买差不多有一年没他篮球了。。。
球鞋也被我当出街鞋了。。。
一定有机会的（等朋友约。。囧）
最进比较常打羽球。。。
因为classmates都是打羽球的。。。很少有打篮球的。。

眼睛有点累了。。。
就在这停打。。。
晚安。。
sweet dream~ ＜3
（昨天又梦见她了。。。 =3）

失眠•思念

快要凌晨五点了~
虽然脑袋很累，但双眼还是睁大大的~
咳~
脑子很乱，很多事情一直在里徘徊着~
烦着很多东西~心事也不少~
谁来陪我聊聊心事?解解烦恼？
最近啊~
她一直都出现在我梦里。。。我也不知为什么。。。
可能是我太想念她了？
还是很想见到她？
再想想~ 可能俩都是吧~^_^
每次到了晚上没看见她上线~
就会有些担心她还没到家或之类的~
***虽然知道我是多余的。。。
可能是自作多情吧~
她还有很多人关心呢~
少了我也没关系吧~？
；）

因为补习！！！
我现在过着我最不想要的堕落和颓废的日子啊！！！
爸妈酱忙~
我~我却~ 在这无所事事的过活。。
就为了那两个中半的补习！！！
真的真的很内疚啊！！！！
（≧∇≦）

考试 ● 假期

一眨眼~
一年过去了~
advanced diploma 第一年将就结束了~
第三个sem的终考刚过不久~~
对自己有点失望,因为有两科考得不是很理想
也可以说只有百分之三十的机会会过关...
咳~
反而对最后的三科比较有信心。。。
如果一切顺利，可能可以得B以上吧~~
我在advanced的目标是每一科在没有重考的状况顺利过关~
始终还是办不到~
可能你会说成绩还没揭晓啊~
但是我回答那份考题~
已知道成绩了~~ ><
但我还是很希望会有奇迹出现~~~XD
阿弥陀佛~
真的不想重考~
因为第二年，也就是最后的一年~
这是会搞出人命的一年~
实在太多的功课要做,再加上最烦人的final year project!!!
我和ah keong (一样是强) 一组~
我们的题目是“ 智能家 ” 也就是smart home~
概念是使用智能手机来控制一间家的所有使用电流操作的东西 （风扇，空调等。）
剩下3个月的时间~~
还真的在烦恼着，是否可以完成~~
咳~真的希望可以~~~

明天就要回kl了~~~
因为教补习而被逼提早回去~~
有点不舍得回去~~~
心有点内疚~
因为父母的店非常的忙~
而我竟然回去教补习？？？
>_<
真的内疚~但又有舍办法？
我已因为考试而停补1个月~~
答应学生会在九月继续~
真的没办法~~
爸妈~ 对不起~ 辛苦啦~ >.<
其实也不是完全为了补习~~
要开始我的fyp 了~
再不开始真的没办法完成~
最烦的是要吐出10000个字的report~ @@"

一个星期的假期，过得还蛮充实的～
早上七点多被妈叫醒～就陪她去pasar买菜和早餐～
在pasar时，感觉自己很像aunty将～哈哈～～
但也不错啦～
现在学下, 将来可以减轻老婆的负担~XD
差不多八点到爸的店～
就开始忙到旁晚～
中间有空的时间就上网～～
六点多才回家～
回到家，冲凉之后就开始追戏～～
在一个星期，看完了两部连续剧～
＜飞虎＞，＜on call 36小时＞
很不错看～～
喜欢on call 的爱情的剧情～
感人～
飞虎的也不错～
弄到有点想报名参与飞虎队～～
哈哈哈！！！　XD

我～我～我竟然开始看了动漫～
我看是被某人影响到～～哈哈～
看了二十集～
还不错啦～～
搞笑!
不怪的她那么沉迷～～XD
有排给我追(200++集)～

最近，在梦里一直见到她～
搞得我很想永远的睡着，留在那梦里～
陪着她~
说真的~
我真的想她了~~ <3 ='(

我一定会加油的！
最后一年了~
不想再留多一年！！！
GAMBATEH!
<3

Beg for a pass~~ pls~~~

Late night .. Time is 5 am in the morning..
Someone juz got into bed...
But i juz got out of my lovely bed to STUDY!!!!
Digital signal processing a.k.a DSP~
juz finished examed yesterday..

Haiz....
Ms.Lim ar...
Wondering y u want us to die so cruelly..
Wondering whether u are lack of experinces to set questions or u took the wrong way to set it?
The tutorialssss u gave us in class are so fucking easy..
And we did past year paper..
The questions are almost the same throughout years...
But WTF u set totally different questions?
We oni get to done low pass filter question in past year...
But y u come out HIGH PASS FILTER??!!
Isshh!
We not oni din have question in past year... But u din even give us some questions in either tutorialsss or extra exercises!!!
This time really hopeless!!!
and the mostly crazy things is i managed to finished 3 questions out of 4!!o0o
Press calculator till my hand giggles...
The values i get all freaking weird...
And out of the expectation...
Haiz...

I beg u ms.lim..
Pls dun fail me...
I really dun wish to resit...
Next semester will be triple busier than this semester...
I dun wish to hav a resit paper...
Next semester if not wrong...
We will hav 5 subs +fnished FYP!
FYP really can kill me... 
If u gov me a pass...
I will be super duper statisfied wif it...
I dun wish for and A OR B...
C is more than enough...
And i will pray more... =P

K lar...
Hope i wont think of this subs anymore...
Friendly speaking...
DSP is the 2nd easiest subject among the total of 5 subs.. T.T
Tomorrow is the toughest!
Used one week to study.. But understand 30% .. @@

Want to stop le..
Write more.. The more sad i become...
Good luck to myself and all da best...
Of course to u, aunty , also ya.! GAMBATEK!
<3

病倒了!

好啦~
我终于病倒啦
好像有一年都没生病了
是好是坏~？
总之就是凶多吉少 =（

真是他妈的
这个时候来让我生病！
老天爷啊
我还有很多还没念完啊！！！
刚才下午在图书馆就感觉真个人怪怪的
时冷时热的~
迟些头痛，头晕晕的 （@_@）
幸亏老妹也在哪。。。
就叫她陪我去canteen2买panadol吃
吃了之后却躺在图书馆睡了足足一个钟
还有啊~~
肚子不听话三天了
也不清楚舍事
不是泻肚子
也不是胃病
时不时就搅下
真个就是想死的感觉 （><""“）
想去看医生
但怕看了需要住院
还是不敢去
坚持不要去
让他自己恢复
万一要进院就完了
不许考试了
怕怕。。。。

为了终考，已经够烦躁了
还要来将多病
 咳~~
读了一个星期, 才完成那一点点
而且还是那半懂半不懂的
这次可能会有机会重考
我不想重考啊！！！！！
这个学期真是很压力
不愧是高级文凭 ='(
(不是人读的)
总而言之，我会进能力去考
祈求上天保佑，让我病快点好起来
><"""

aunty~
你也要好好照顾自己～
记得喝多点水哈～～
还有啊～　
别太迟睡啊～　<3
=)

真的真的很想念她~＜3

很想知道她是否还有来这看看~
我的确时时刻刻都会到她的部落格去看看新文章, 或是遇到舍事而发泄~~
我是很关心她~~
每次想找她问候她, 但去又害怕打扰她。。
或许是我真的太烦了~~ T.T
我好好的想想~~
我好想在玩弄她的感情~~
因为我每次都用那种对她很有爱的感觉和语气和她聊天~~~
但是我没有任何的主动~~~
因为我一直都在等她的答案~
在第一次向她示爱失败之后~~
她说过再给她玩多几下，定下性来之后再谈恋爱～～～
那时候，我也问过她：她有没有喜欢过我。。。
她回答了我：不懂～
至今～我还是犹豫着～～
因为我怕再次失败～～
这样会影响两方的心情。。。


对不起～我是个缺乏自信的人～～
但是我一直努力找回自己从小就失去的自信～～
我一直都很想念她～～
无时无刻。。。
在学院～
无论在何处～
都会东张西望的，希望能见到她（或是从远处）。。。
但大多数的时候都没机会。。。
还记得我等resit的那年。。。
我都很无聊的跑到学校，坐在canteen2哪，只希望能见到她。。。
想一想，觉得自己很像个大笨蛋似的。。。@@"
当知道她心情不好，我都会去找她聊聊天，希望能帮到她散散心。。
有时找多了，又觉得自己很烦。。怕她不高兴～～




我真的很爱她。。。
我很在乎她。。
一直都把她当做已经是我的女朋友了。。。
看到她不开心，我心里会不好受。。。
多希望在他身边陪伴她。。。T.T
但不知道她是否也是。。。
我只是想得到一个肯定才再次向她示爱。。
不然事情会变得更糟糕～
这是我个人的想法～


这是都是我的想法与真心话～～
最后，我还是想得到一个肯定再做下一步~~~
对不起~~~
T_T
我真的很想念她~ <3




好啦~
就写到这~~


早点睡吧你~~
晚安~ <3

终于!

近三个月了~~~
我终于有机会回娘家看爸妈了~~
感动~ T.T
真的想家想到极点~~~
第一次~
因为过去的几年~
没有一次是超过两个月才回家~~~
顶多是个月多回一次。。。


原本是没有这个回家的念头（虽然很想家)。。。
但是我姐和妹一直跟我讲：老爸老妈很想念你啊！！！
尤其是老爸~~
老妈偷偷跟我通电说：你老爸一直吵我要上来KL一趟啊。！！
我说老把你啊，几可爱一下~XD
因为妈知道我很忙一直都在赶功课～
结果拿累来当做借口阻止他上来～
谢了妈，对不起爸～　T.T
如果不提在赶完就会拖到Ｓｔｕｄｙｗｅｅｋ了。。。
没办法～
就因为这些话，我就决定在交完assingmentsss过后才回


票都没预定，就直接跑到巴士站去了。。。
真是拿命来玩，万一没有车票的话，还真的是大祸了～@.@
每次我做回家的巴士公司还真的是没票了！！！
被吓到脸都青掉～～
有另个公司的，虽然没那么舒服，但真是没办法了就买的车票～囧


这个sem还真是要了人命啊！！！
８个assignments 和５个tests。。。
是有点过分得多啊！！！
老师啊～～
你还以为我们是100% coursework 咩？？？
我们还有终考的啊！！！
你们爽咯～
看到我们身为学生的做到像狗将。。。
又要这个不可以，那个不可以～　
平均每天睡不到四个钟！
难道你们没有当过学生吗？？？
咳～
不提了反正都做完了～
=D


接下来的日子都不好过了～
assignmentss完工后～
松了一口气～
让自己在家休息几天。。。
之后，就要把气吸回来再向终考冲去！！！！
目标〉〉不可以让自己fail!!!!


现在的目标有两〉〉
继续 Degree 还是Master　二选一！！！
如果CGPA与金钱允许就读Master！
如果CGPA不允许，金钱允许就读Degree。。。
最重要还是钱的问题～
只怕爸妈拼得太辛苦～　>.<


不管怎样～
做好现在！！！
加油！！！=D


　

累！

是不是坚强了太久？ 
突然之间很想大哭~
真的不知为何突然之间心情会变成那么差~
很想找人诉苦~
但是不知要找谁~
这让我发现我认识的人很多~
和朋友走在一起的时候，时不时和人打招呼或是问好~
连身旁的朋友都用奇怪的眼神看着我说：你好像认识全校的人hor~
我只好笑笑的看着他们。。。
没舍话好回应他们~ 
现在回想~
朋友是多~
但真正了解我，关心我的，有几个？
能找来诉苦的又有几个？
我关心的朋友很多~ 但有真正关心我的有几个？
咳~
给我那般朋友来说，朋友多好啊~
朋友对我而言~
 我需要的只是能了解我，关心我，能愿意让我向她\他诉苦的就够了~ 
在我现在没女友的身份下，我更需要的是知心朋友~ =（
我也很想要有个能陪伴我的女友~ 
但可能是时机未到或可以说是缘分还没找上们来？
顺其自然~
我对她是很有好感~
她是个很特别的女孩~
虽然她每次都说她不是我想象的那么好~
但在我眼里，她是个佳又佳的女生~
也是我心目中的女生~；）
每次见到她，心情自然而然地会变得非常愉快~
Ps:都是真心话哦~
咳~
也许是我自己现在也面对很多问题~ 家庭，学业，人格，行为~？
为了不要连累到对方所以就没向她再次示爱~
我只好默默地关心她~
 对不起~

 现在已经是第十二个星期~ 
还有五个任务包括Assignmnet~
神啊~
指点指点下弟子该如何啊~
我只知到我现在是在半身不遂的状况中~
活不了多久~
只求神明保佑弟子能顺顺利利的活过大考。。。
然后才死在床上~
阿弥陀佛~ 阿弥陀佛~阿弥陀佛~
加油吧！
干巴爹！
=D

我发誓我从来没嫌你烦~ 

多希望能被你关心多点~

想你了~~

=(

relaxed~

fuh~~

one word > tired! ><

this is the 2nd of working day at pc fair located in klcc~~

y work although i having so much work and assignment to do? 

not enough money? > not really~

because friends working also(so follow)?> not really~

afraid of my relation and the boss will break and they wont ask me to work for pc fair again?>not really~

the exact reason of working this time is to relax my mind since there are so much burden and tension on me from all the assignments, reports and also my fyp~~

 it works~

 it really relaxed myself...

 normally if i sit down and open my book to do assignment and for sure some evil thinking will tell me 

>> u are tired~~ u are not going to do it now~~ feel sleepy feel sleepy~~ go slp~~~ 

@@""

cant even start to do it...

then ends up done ntg and fb all the way after that...

it works!!!

i worked to relax myself~~~

and it really works..

after works...

after bath and i start my assignment~

it really another feeling..

 ohm all around~~

 but bad things not enough energy~~

 tired..

 but at least i done something~

 hee~~ XD

i realised that..

is not easy to be a promoter...

it nid to keep standing for whole day and you are talking during most of your working time...

and the pay is not much~~

and the worst things that is when your conveying the wrong infos to the customer~~

 not oni they scolded u back and they will go SUAN SIAO u~~

 i juz kena juz now~~

 he told me" u go and checked preperly for the infos oni come and talk to me" wif so damn fcuking lansi atitude"! 

what i can do was juz smiling to him untill he get away from my side~~

 this is the experience i got from all the works i had done b4~~~

is a good thing i had learn~~~

 TAHAN! 

do what also nid to TAHAN!!!! =D

another things is when customer come to the booth and stay...

 if u din talk to them... then they will kao be kao bu say u no manners to customer~

but when u asking "yes sir? may i help you?"~

ma de.. then they din giv a fcuk to look at you and go away...

 so looking down on promoter??

think again ba..

 if no promoter? u fcuking noe anythings on the things u wanted to buy? 

aiks~~

tomorrow last day~~~

god bless all of us lar...

 amitabha~~

must hit target!!!!! xD

k lar..

got to slp jor~~

good night and sweet dream to u ya~~ <3

slp ealier lar.. =)

<3

suffering~~~ ><"

Here's comes the 10th week of 3rd semester~~
really really suffering for this semester~~
everythings come in a time~~
i keep wondering how i am going to finished all in time and hand them in? @@"
aiks~~
 3 tests past~
now left>> 2 tests, 5 assignment, 1 lab report, 1 interim report and fyp!!! ><
how how how???
 tell me how???!!!
final examination going to reached in 4 weeks time?
how to study and how to finished all those tasks? ><
current percentage of pressure(tension) >> 101% !!!!
 arrgghhh!!!
 hows the lecturer arrange the midterm test ???
2 test in a week?
tell me lar... how to study?
wan us die ar???
assignment no need to  hand in ar?
use brain to think lar! ><
this semester lecturer really sucks!
EACH LECTURER TEACHING ONE SUBJECT!
but EACH STUDENT STUDYING 5 SUBJECTS!
we are humans also de lar....
we nid rest, sleep, eat also de lar....
aiks~~~
current progress>> 0% of assignment done >>60% of test done>>0% reports done>> 0% of fyp done~
0.0"""
am i going to fail this semester?
pls dont scare me off~~~
 if i really fail this semester~~
i think i will withdraw and look for jobs~~~
aiks~~~
juz now went mcd study at 4pm till juz now 12 am~~~
8 hours of studying~
wat i get? 30% of knowledge of wat going to come out in the test~~~
DAFUQ???!!
howam i going to study the other one subjects which going to test on the day juz after the first test?
i hav no idea~~
 wat i noe is that>> i am dying~ ><"
everyday not enough slp~~~
cant pay attention in class~~
aiks~~~
i really dun noe how~~
DUN CARE LAR!
do watever i manage to do lar...><"
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wish me luck~ <3

I left my blog untouch for more than a month...

And lots of things happened and i dun hav time to update here....

Lots of things included sad,happy,enjoy, emo and kinds of happenings....

On the 22nd-24th of april 2012 ...

Is really my first time to go on a vacations far from my house...

I went pulau redang wif my coursemates gangs...

Total of 16...

There was a really niz place to relax urself And enjoy!

 I bought some souvenirs for my family and u...

Haven met u so cant giv it to u.. >.<

i hope tat i can bring my family to there for vacations... ** wait me work first... XD

I got a Permenant part time job recently... Which started on may 2012.... 

Work as a tuition teacher is really a first time for me... 

At first i was hesitating whether wanted to accept this job o not because of no confident to teach.... 

But at last... I accepted the job... It is a one to one home tuition...

tats mean i nid to step on his house to teach which located at sri rampai.... 

The pay is quite resonable... 

 The guy is a quiet guy who dun talk much... 

But he owned a brilliant brain which learn things very fast.... 

Thats one of a good sign for me... ** coz i no nid to suffer of teach..xD

 I hope i able to continue this job in order to earn some extra pocket money... Hehe... !!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I cant believe myself tat i bought ipad2 !!!! 

 Which i wish to have one long time a go...

I considering and hesitating for quite long ad... Issit necessary to owned it now..????

 Buy as part of my study and some so entertainment....? Hehe... 

Bought it yesterday when i wentshopping wif my 2 elder sisters.. 

Asked for their commentsss..

 And they said ok ar...then i straight away buy jor... XD Rm 1199 

Today went times square to buy ipad clothing and mask... 

Total of rm 110... Rm 1309 gone... @@ 

I will fully utilized it as part of my works... 

 Time past so fast and come to the last sem of first year... 

 Damn lots of things to be done..

 Final yeay projects, assignments, final exams.. T

he 3 mains things... 

 Gonna get it done as much as possible... 

And as ur decision u dun wan to continue advanced diploma.. 

 Then this will be ur last year last sem... 

 Do ur best and try ur best!!!! Gambatek togather lar!!! Hwaiting!!! xD 

 K la.. 

Gtg lerh...

 good night and sweet dream ya.. <3<3<3 

Ps: sleep early aunty.. =P

咳~是时候放下了?

咳~对自己彻底地失望~ 对不起，我不该让自己爱上你~ :-(

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Miss You Like Crazy~ =(

I used to call you my girl~
I used to call you my friend ~
I used to call you the love ~
The love that I never had ~
When I think of you ~
I don't know what to do ~
When will I see you again~
I miss you like crazy ~
Even More than words can say ~~~
I miss you like crazy ~
Every minute of every day ~~
Girl I'm so down when your love's not around ~
I miss you, miss you, miss you ~~
I miss you like crazy ~~
You are all that I want~~
You are all that I need ~~~
Can't you see how I feel ~~
Can't you see that my pain's so real ~~~
When I think of you ~~
I don't know what to do ~
When will I see you again ~~~
<3

nitex~
sweet dream~~<3

Stay strong and head for my target!

is little bit too hard for me in advanced~~~

it is more challenging that my friends told me b4 i entering advanced diploma~~~

time pack~ lots assignment~ not enough time to prepare for study~4 days out of 5 morning 8 am classes~having double time classes~~ haiZ~~

it really made me tired enough and exhausted~

but i had made my decision to continue advanced instead of working~

then u i nid to stay calm and accept all the challenges heading me~~~ ><

i had my own target~~~tat is succesfully finished advanced and fly to uk for 3 months for my degree~~~ without wasting one more year for either resit for repeat~~~ ><

recently i was thinking and setting a new target for myself~~

tats after getting my degree in uk and thinking to continue my master there~~

IT IS A BIG BIG QUESTION?!!!

IS TAT POSSIBLE??

I ABLE TO DO TAT??

IF ARE YES TO THOSE QUESTIONS~

how bout my family? issit my family can cover the fees and daily expenses there??

if not rm 1000++ is a rm 100,000~~ ><

arrgghhh~~~

is lots of money~~~ but i was thinking tat~~~ while i was still in study mood ~~ i wanted to finished it asap~~ if not after working ~~ for sure will totally no mood to continue to study and will forgot most of the things i had learnt previously~~ aiks~~~

i do propose to my parents~~

but is still a BIG BIG QUESTION~~

okay~~

i will think bout it later~~~

focus on my advanced now first!

i amitted that i learnt things very slow ~

i nid time to digest while others can understand immediately after explanation given~~ ><

this is my weakness~~

wat i do is~~ double up my study time~~~

2 sessions per day~~

morning is 12pm-6pm~~ and night 8 pm-2am~~ @@

it really tiring but i still nid to do tat for my dream~~~ =D

GAMBATEK BA! <3

actually i wanted to thanks god for letting me to met these 2 good buddy in my class~~~

who are salmon and vincent~~~~

they really good man and they do help me alots~~~

they staying in 11th floor same block wif me~~~

we studied togather and they taught me alots of things that i dun noe~~`

they really clever and intelligent people~~~ =D

i really appreciate the friendship between me and them~~~ =D

however~ stay strong and heading forward and not backwards!

ALL DA BEST!

SAME GOES TO "U"!<3

GAMBATEK!!! GOOD LUCK!!!

good night and sweet dream~~ <3<3<3

='(

Is 2041 now~~

juz got home from college~~~

went college to help out my classmates on their open day showing projects~~

i noe not much bout programming~

but i help out on other easier job~~~=)

went college at bout 11 am and took us 6 hours to finished it~~

due to the spaces to be used to demonstrate their sensor motocar is not enough during the open day, they need to demonstrate by video~~~

i was a bit down today in college~~

i was at Q block~~~

and juz in front of the sssh office there was a cat which sufferring to death~~

half dead~~

was really bad feeling to me becoz i can oni see him suffering and couldn't do anything~~~

it was inside the small drain, laying there totally no energy to get out of there~~

i dun noe wat had happened to him but i guess he is sick and end up like tat~~~ X(

i hav no car~~ if not i will send him to animal hospital to get help~~ was thinking to buy something to feed him~~ but canteen was closed!!! ><"""

haiz~~

really no choice~~

oni can left him behind suffering~~

if~~ if not wrong~~

the cat was the one who playing around the back stage of the college hall while tt night stage preparation was going on~~

while i was alone in backstage~~

u were the one who accompany there~~

='(

felt sorry to u~~`><

i will miss u ~~~ ='(

R.I.P~~~aiks~~~

emo mode now~~~

end~

I was crazy last few days~~~

i am not doing any sport since last sem week 10 till the past thursday~~

finally my friends invited me for badminton!

one shot played 3 hours badminton!

tats was really refreshing!!!

then the next day~

afternoon~~

going for gym wif friends at college~~~

end up fully booked~~~

aiks~~

i was thinking tat aiks~~

wasted time to come here and do ntg~~~

but at least they noe outside fitness center~~

then we went to wangsa maju iron fitness center~~

rm 4.00 per entry~~ it consider cheap because the utilities there was all prepared! =D

gym non stop for bout 2 hours~

really tiring but felt fun and enjoying~~

first time in my life i got into fitness center~~~

happy and statisfied wif it~~~

the next day morning which is today~~~

when i open my eyes~~~

i can even moved my body ~~~ @@""

cramped!!!!

ishhh~~

as i moved any part of my body~~ it pain like hell~~~

hell yea~~ it is normal i think as i so long din get in touch to sport~~

slowly~~ i get myself out from the bed~~ @@"""

til now still really pain when i move my arms and legs~~

especially my chest mucsle~~~ =0

normally it will take at least on week time to fully recovered~~!

yet i still hoping it will recover at fast as possbile~~~ xD

think back~~~

it really such a long period i din get touch wif basketball ad~~~

i think almost one year liao!!! ><"""

aiks~~~

find one day ~~ find one day~~~

i will get back in touch wif basketball!

wait me ya! xP

still i am emo today~~~ ='(

end~

25/2/12

~jerryqiang~

thx a lots~♥

Another day has gone...

time past damn freaking fast...

and it already come to the 3rd week of the sem..

it mean that left 4 weeks to final exam~~~ @@""

and up to now~~~

i dun even noe wat the teacher teaching about and the worse things is that~~

i am not pro in programming~~

threee of the subjects fort his sem is all bout programming~~

ok~ i felt very nervous and very pressure now~~

i really afraid that i not enought time to study for final exam~~~

god bless me pls~~~=(

thx you for the gift on valentine~~~

this is the first time ever i receive gift on valentine~~~ xD

i was shock when xander told me tat he is passing smtg to me from u~~

and i dun expected it~~~ hehe~~

i haven eat it and it still kept in the fridge~~

不舍得吃~~~xD

becoz becoz~~~ niz~

i think i will eat it when i emo~~ xDD

and i guess will made me feel better~~~

home made chocolate lagi~~

sam fu sai lar~♥

like it very much~~=)

anyway i miss u~♥

and i still owing u a meal! xD

see when can treat u lerh~

rest well and sweet dream~~♥

nitex~ ♥

THE FIRST AND THE LAST TIME!

This is the first time in my life i am so sick!
on friday~
housemates planned to drink beer at overtime by ordering a barrel of beer wif the promotion of buy 1 free 1~~~~ @.@
i heard their plan..
i was thinking that.. hmm ~ no my problem~~ i wont go~
on saturday~ went for movie "结婚那件事" wif my 2 sisters in klcc~~
it was a very touching and meaningful movie~~
i was hoping that there is somebody that is so caring, concerning and understanding me~~=]
i think i will go for 2nd time alone~ lol

after watching movie~~
we went to kinokuniya to spend the free book voucher~
at last my sister spent all rm 200~~ but i oni spend rm50~~ @@
i bought a japanese language dictionary and thinking to start learning japanese myself~~ =)
juz a backup~ if i manage to went japan and work~~ it will be easy for myself that i noe how to read, speak and write in japanese~~
hope it is not difficult to learn~~ hee~~

then i reached home bout 8 smtg~~@.@
was very tired!
who know they ask me must go later~~
i was like @.@~
i said i go there dun drink beer i go for wat?
they keep call and presuding me to go~~~
at last cant withstand it and then i go~~
talk to myself>> go ther drink a bit to relax as in i was very frustrating on something~~

reached there bout 1030~~
9 f us~~
me, ryan, ahdee, xander, angie, pheng, tzecheat, cookies and eva~~~
and i spent rm 43.50 !!!!
damn 7 expensive!!! >.<
i dun noe the price at first~
i was thinking that only rm 10++ oni!
aiks! =(

then we started to drink~~
i drank bit by bit~~~
but become worst whn playing dice game~~
over drinking!
at first my dizzy head~~ but end up wif bursting head!!!
it really killed me!
they went mamak besides overtime for supper as they were hungry~~
i was laying on the table while they were enjoying their food~~
i was not drunk i think~~ becoz i still can walk by myself~~
but juz feeling that my head was exploding!
worst feeling ever and it was juz like i am meeting the hell god!

the very worst worst things was i vomitted while stopping at the red light!
i open the car door and vomit~~~ ><"""
it was so embarrasing yet awful! >.<
i dun y i promised to go wif thm~~~
it is becoz i dun noe how to reject people offer? haiz~
muz learn up this things!
remembered myself!

finally i got home... take off my shoe and change my clothing and straight laid dead on my bed!
ah dee told me that i was sleeping dead wif the same sleeping position since last night i laid on my bed! ><

From this thing happened ownward~~
i promised myself and everyone that concerned bout me, i wont do this anymore in my life~~~
and i will control myself and try my best to reject them if they invite me to go again~~ ><
it is not only wasting money yet fooling myself~~
feel sorry to u~<3

2morrow having 8 am class~~
good night to "u" and sweet dream yea~~<3<3<3


** ps: to all my housemates~ no offences~~ juz dun like the feeling of getting drunk~~ =)

insomnia~~~ /_\

isshhh~~~

laid on be on 11 smtg~~

tot can slp early today~

but end up insomnia blocking my way to my dream! ><

really tiring these few days~ dunnoe y~ maybe age increasing~~~

nid to admit old liao~~ lol

gastrics visited me this afternoon~

backbone pain + gastrics = X(

double kill!

really killed me...

plus nid to work summore~~ isshh~~

but i successfully tahan it and done my job~ xD

actually i cant wait to get back to kl~~~

becoz~~

i do miss u a lots~

hope to meet u right now!!! hehe~~

feel sleepy a bit after facing laptop in a dark room~~~

good night ya~~ sweet dream~~ <3

Chinese new year 2012~

came to the ending of the third day of Chinese new year 2012~

time past so fast~

i juz hope cny to come asap~

with a clip of eyes~ fourth day are coming soon~

i came back malacca one week b4 the cny~

becoz of a reason i came back malacca one week b4 cny instead of staying in kl and shop till i statisfy~

it is to come back and help my parents in the busy shop~~~

i cant take it if when my parents are both busy like crazy to earn money and i am enjoying spending money~~

i did try my best to help out my parents yet still not much~~@.@

i work for one week oni~~ tired like hell!

i cant imagine how could they work daily without failed! @.@""

i felt that this year cny is very rush~~ everything came very fast and went in a clip of eyes~

we went visit papa side relative and it was tired but at least not a hot weather but rainny~~

=D

at night, we went to visit my 2nd and 3rd aunty~

the 2nd day of cny~

we went kl~~~ @.@

slept at 1 smtg and woke up at 5 am~~

totally not enough slp~~` ><""

and the worse thing is ~ i drove to kl~~ @.@""

luckily i still can tahan till kl~~ it was a safe journey ~ thx god~~xD

after visited my 2nd and 4th uncle~

then we came back from kl at bout 2 smtg reached malacca about 4 pm~

then the whole group of mum's relative came to visit us~ then we went out wif them to visit others relatives~~~

reached home bout 10 smtg and able to slp at 11pm~~

today woke up at 6 am and went to temple wif dad~~~

woke up in blurr mode~~ lolx~~~

reached home bout 12 pm~~thought can continue to slp geh~~~

whos know~~~

my sisterssss came and tell me ~~

we are going to sing k wif our cousins~~~

are u joining us?

i staight away said > no!

and she said> u nid to fetch us there~~~

i was like~~ 0.0

can slp again~ isshhhh!

after reached home straight away die on my bed~~ i was thinking to slp untill the next morning~~ but my mum woke me up and told me ~~ uncle came and visit us~~~ 0.0

ffffuuuuuu!!!!

y cant even got to slp well~~ then force myself to wake up and go and show my face~~

-.-

stay awake till now blogging~~~

but going to slp soon~~xD

tomorrow nid to wake up early in the morning also~~~

coz dad opening his shop for the first time of cny~~~

muz go get angpao~~ xDD

good night yea~~~<3

sweet dream~~~<3

difficult one!

happy new year~~~
is another brand new year~~
My newly known coursemate invited meto their house for steamboat.
thx for tat~ =D
the first impression of them from me is they LC~~~
but actually they are very friendly and they proved me wrong~
thats good sign~~~xD
is happy to met them ~
at first i thought i going to be alone for these 2 advanced diploma years~
but is in the other way round~~
i get to know 70% of them in this sem~~ hmm~~
is happy to met new friends~
hope can know all of them next sem~~ hehe..

and now is exam fever~
everybody is crazying with revision for exam; of course included me~
today studied almost for 14 hours~~
damn! but study little oni! >< not statisfied!
i learnt so damn slow! drained up lots of time!
maths ar maths~~~ why u sooo tuft!??!!!
tomorrow nid to continue in the afternoon~~~ @.@""
2 subjects down! left 5 more to go!><
the rest 5 subjects are all the main course subjects!
these really killed me!
this made me think of~~~ why i wanted to take this course at first?? @.@
but i think is too late to think that~~~
aiks~~
all the things i nid now is motivation and work hard!!!!!!!!
gambatek to myself!!!!

and also good luck and all the best to U in your exam o~~ xD




gtg~~~
bur bye~~
good night and sweet dream to "U"~~♥






** if u read this, then the "U" is always u~♥ xDD