everything went odd~~ not smooth~~~

Well~
The last time i updated here was 8 months ago
never touch or update it although i had a very wonderful moment in UK
Too busy? Too many trips? or Too lazy? XD
i dunno...
Anyway~ i can use one word to describe the whole 3 months life in UK!
DOPE!
Everything was just out of my expectation and imaginary while i was still in Malaysia
the weather, peoples and etc was just awesome!
really make me wanna stay there for life!
OK~ change topic... will update more photos of UK life here when i am free...
more than 10k photos~
skip~

Come to the things that i wanted to release stress here!
i find no more place or people for me to cry to~
only here... the best and the only place that nobody will read it only myself
Was really really frustrated recently due to job hunting attending interview
up to now only got 2 interview called up....

The first one~ and is the very first official interview for myself...
was really nervous due to i dun have confidence to answer and refresh my memory on the things i learnt in
Diploma end up failed to get it ...
Partly, the company also put too high expectation on fresh graduates who went for interview especially me
3 went for interview but only me failed to be recruited in the company
Disappointing  to myself cos i cant do well in the interview and because i got a bad result
they recruiting based on result...
Issit only people with good result can work better???
The people with bad result cant work well???
can i say they underestimating people who cant study well???
i was asked that why i get so low result???
how i am going to answer???
at last i juz smile to them as i really dunno how to answer and my heart is slashed...

The second interview was in ampang, it is a quite big company, quite lots of things to be learned from...
that are the thing i wanted to learn and the jobscope i wish to have...
Went for interview last friday and get hired...
i was told that is a 5 days work...
i was told that rm 350 is for car allowance
i was not told anything about boding things (WTF???!!! applying for scholarship meh??!!!)
i was not told that i had night shift work...

i went to collected the offer letter today from ampang office...
when the first page i flip i tot i took the wrong letter because it written saturday working hour~@@"
keep reading through~~ i saw the boding things~
 i do ask whether i got any training when i am in the company??
he answered me that i only have to follow the senior and he will guide me.. he never mention about the boding things... so if i dun have any training needed ,,, why the hell you include told training and boding stuff into my offer letter??? trying to framed me and seek benefit from my carelessness??
keep read through flipping through the next page
the allowance of RM 350 written as NIGHT SHIFT allowance~
what i have been told this RM 350 is for car allowance and what da hell is NIGHT SHIFT allowance??!!
FUCKING you never mention to me about working night shift??!!!
the most u told me is OT!
night shift and OT is fucking big different things! u noe that??
wondering how u can be a head of department!
or this is wat CEO told to do to their new coming employees??
End Up i had told the HR department to make an appointment for me with the one who interview me since he is not in today! i really wishing to hear what is he going to say!
i wanted to face to face to talk to him!
That is not the way u cutting cost for ur company man...
u keep doing this and not changing style of cheating people to come for interview...
ur company wouldn't stay long!
especially the graduates nowaday!
i hope it is HR department mistakes~
i really hope i can work here since there are lots of things i wish to learn from here...
i hope everything will goes well...

Really lost my mind... and really really down
looking for someone to accompany me.. but find no one~~
due something related self matter...
 y they wanted to decide for me whether to work o not...
 y not giving a decision-making chance for me to decide whether to accept this job o not~~
i really sked if they keep doin this to me ... I WILL NEVER GROW!!!
i am 23rd now arrrrr~~~~
when oni i got my own decision-making chance???
aiks...
o felt really really stress juz now...
really feel very very helpless and find no one to cry to~~ =(
the only is i went for pool alone at least able to cool down myself little bit~

The only wish now is i can get better offer from this company so that i can stay in company...
i wish to stay in ampang for changing a new environment for myself and due to some of the reason also~ =)
Wish myself good luck~
Amithaba~~

Good Night~ =) <3

Hope everything goes smoothly~

i got my last semester result on the 5th of February....
almost fainted when i got my result..
got a C- for engineering management
i failed!
"finally" huh?
really dissapointed to myself once i got my result
i failed to do what i promised to myself at the time when i made up my mind to continue for my advanced
i failed to do that
i promised myself not to failed for the entire advanced diploma
and fell in the last second sem
At first i tot i can passed all and able to relax a bit and fully focus on the only one subject in the last semester
but so unlucky
i failed to do that
anyhow is failed
i cant do anything to make it pass except i resit! (i kept telling myself)
but i really really down on the day and the entire next day...
moody
anyhow
i nid to accept it also
i didnt perform well in the final exam due to the fucking silly mistakes
this is what i can blame
whatever... the most important things now is the focus on this two final subjects...
others things  temporary i cant touch
sorry~
if i tell someone like this...
maybe he/she will say i keep giving reasons.... =X
i am sorry~~ =(

Finally my FYP thesis came to the end....
was really suffering period when doing the FYP...
at least it is working.... ^^
at least i learn how to write a android application although my coding is not so good
hehe
few more months i am flying
and i am going to spent quite a lot of money
i bought my dslr and ready for UK!
RM 40K needed to spent in UK
is a big amount of money
i feel a bit guilty of using dad sweat money
and i still not able to be as good as what i sister do
T_T
My tuition still going on
but will end at the end of MAY and get my self ready to fly!
i work hard to earn money and save some money to go UK and have some extra pocket money
but yet still not much
coz the currency of UK is 5 times our country @@"
i wil try my very best to save as much as i can

i found the spare part of my little digital camera on9~~
and it coz me rm 150
ship from US =X
i told my friend about it and he straight say me stupid
say i use rm 150 to fix a camera that cost rm 99
for him is stupid
but for me i just wan to try to fixed it by my own
gain some experience, try out new things.
fixing a digital camera is not easy though
waiting for it to reach here
hehe
as what i did fixed my desktop!
i went to lowyat and look for the spoilt spare parts~
and i search for the whole building of lowyat...
but end up i cant find
i was laughed by some of the shop owner
they told me, power supply cant be fixed one
and nobody go and fixed a power supply
they ask me to change straight away and dun waste time
i did go into their shop and look for a new power supply but it cost bout RM 200++
@@
i din buy coz too expensive for me
but i found the spare part in Malacca
 HELL YEAH i fixed it
 everything went back to normal
i proved u all wrong, power supply can be fixed!
and i spent RM10++ instead of rm 200++ ;)

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我真的想你了
我时常梦见到你
在梦里很甜蜜
多希望是真的
有种想永远都睡不醒的感觉
但最终还是得醒

很想找你
但找不到话题
很想打给你
但怕打扰你
不是故意不找你
而是我不知道我在你心中是否重要
最后还是保持沉默
依然无时无刻地想你
=(

晚安 <3 =)

TIRED! BUT I DID IT!

YESH!
finally i passed!
i made it for wat i had promised to myself!
must passed and get back that RM800!
hahaha!!!
issit because, there is a rule of...
if we pass in the test...
and we are able to claim back the fees that cost RM 800~~
(is a way of motivation)
now i PASSED!
in short from wat i earned from this huawei company short courses>>
-free brand new knowledge
-free meals ~xD
-free exam~
-free very 3 informative books
-free multiples of useful software
-free certificate
last but not least~
i gained another opportunity to work in their company! =D
this is my first external extra short course i took in college.. weird huh?
i drained up a week to study off 700++ pages of notes~
really killing~
study till very very very blurrr~~~
nearly giving up~ @@""
i remember her words "要吗就不要开始, 既然开始了就完成它!" ~
this sentence woke me up~
 and i "fly" back kl 2 days earlier to study with  FU SOON & SHAWN~~~
our exam we appoint to the company was on wednesday...
 1 day before i went fu soon house to study and work hard to finished the 800++ sample questions that given by the lecturer....
but at last i only manage to finished 400++ oni~
 i was damn sked on the exam day because i am not really prepared for that....
after that exam i was glad that i passed.
the passing grade was 600/1000
but i got 750/1000.. i am the lowest among three of us...
shawn got 800++ and fusoon got 900++!!!!
to me~ they are god!!! =D
i admit i not good in study and i am satisfied with the result..

After that suffering period~
now get back in touch with my Final Year Project!
we were told to add in more feature into our project in order to get higher mark..  /_\
is not and easy stuff to add in~~~
coding~ lol...
but i will try my best...

recently bought a second hand  DSLR... hehe...
Canon 550D kit lens 18-135mm~
with these accesories:-
-Canon 550D body
-lens 18-135mm
-canon original tripod
-canon original battery grip (BG-E8)
-nissin flash
-HOYA PRO 1 Digital filter
-2x Canon original battery
-dslr backpack bag (able to store two dslr)
-2 x 8GB memory card
the price is RM 2050 (asked my friends for opinion and he said can buy.. cheap)
thinking to sell off the nissin flash and the battery grip due to i am not a professional and i juz snap for interest only~
thinking of my nikon J1~ =(

meet her almost everynight in my dream...
is she in the same dream with me also?
hope she is~ ><
THINK TOO MUCH LAR! JERRY GUI! ><
but really she appeared in my dream everynight... =(

lastly~
no HOLIDAYS for this sem break!!!!!!!!!
all because of the short courses and FYP!!!
no matter how... still left 5 months!
and i am free! and i will do smtg that i wanted to do so much! <3 hehe~~


exam result released soon! 5th FEBRUARY 2013~~
wish me luck~~~
amitabha~~~

 night lo~~
sweet dream yea...
 how are u recently?
really miss u a lots.. <3

一定要pass!!!

自从开始预备终考, 脑就一直没得休息....
上个星期，刚考完终考。。。
隔天，就直接开始已经因为学生的大假期而暂停两个月的补习。。。
接着下来的一个星期，也就是这星期。。。上课！！！
这是一堂六天的课程。。。是由华为技术有限公司提供的课程。。。
它是个在世界蛮有名的公司。。。
再来，这课程对我来说是全新的东西。。。
因为想学习新的东西，所以就报名啦。。。
还有就是拿了它的几十仙的纸来做我将来就业机会的备用。。。
万一在我这行失业，还可以带着那几十仙的纸到他们的公司面试。。。 xD
课程的报名费是RM800。。。
那时跟过老爸提起这件事。。。
可能是因为报名费的关系而劝我不报名。。。
钱我有存到。。。
结果，没再跟他提起。。。就用私家钱报名去了。。。
但是到最后，老爸不但没有责骂我。。。
反而还汇了钱给我（都跟他说不用了）。。。
我会好好用的。。。
谢谢你啦老爸！爱你~~ <3

这课程是关于电讯。。。
ip address, router, switch......
今天是课程的最后一天。。。
学到的东西虽然难了一点但是还真的蛮有趣的。。。
难？一定的嘛~
从零开始叻~~~

很快上手。。。
可能是因为讲师给多practical...而让我们快上手。。
有两位讲师。。一男一女。。。
两个都教得不错。。。
果然是有到过中国的总行训练过。。。
不错不错~~~
我果然做对的决定。。。 =D

上完课了嘛。。。
接着就要预备着课程的考试。。。
三本厚厚的书一共是七百多面等着我去读。。。 @@"
不上都上玩了。。。
只好乖乖的读完去pass 了它~~~

最近的身体不是很好。。。
手臂，背后。。。
还有着几天都有漫严重的扁头痛。。。
真是要了我的命啊~~~
手臂~有想要去医院治。。。
但是，政府医院最厉害的就是止痛药最畅销的啦。。。
痛？？？
给止痛药你吃。。。 吃了就不会痛。。。
这样的话，不如我忍着痛。。。=.=
这是我朋友去医院的后果。。。
他气得差点就要拆掉整个医院了。。。哈哈！

在ipad 下载了基本华语书。。。
还不错读。。。
无聊没事做的时候读的。。。 xD

一定要pass!!!!
为自己加油！='')
gambatek!