一直等到那天~~

突然感觉到我的生活变得很空虚~
搞得我自己emo~
不知道为什么~
应该是因为没和你发短讯了吧~（没特别意识）
这都是我自找的！

对不起~
因为做了一些忽略了你的感受的事~
还害了你被挨骂~
愚蠢的我~
每次只会叫你不糊思乱想~
但是自己却满脑是负面思想~
咳！
失败失败！！！
搞到自己一直误会你说的东西~

老实说~
你是一位很特别的女生~
这是我个人对你的看法~
其实，我想知道你对我的看法~
对你来说~
我是一个怎样的人???
呵呵~

每天不管是手机短或是msn~
当看到是你发来的~
心里都会感觉温温的~
ERRR~~~
可能是我想太多吧~
自作多情吧~

在这两天里~
想在msn找你聊天~
但是不知道要聊什么~
找不到话题作为开场白~

你已说了~
不想那么早被恋爱约束~
让你在玩多几下~xD
我也不勉强你~
但是我会一直等~
等到你定性的那一天~
希望不会等太久哦~xD

soli gal~

This is the first time i confessed to a girl tat i like~
but FAILED!!!
and i think i had dissapointed her~
coz the way i confessed to is not as she think of~
maybe i was very nervous till dun noe how to express my words to her in the phone..
lol...
and also~
she was scolded by her dad becoz of me~
coz her telephone bill was very high last months becoz i sms wif her too much and never think of her feeling~
aiks...
soli gal coz "wei nan" u le~
i really din think of will causing u like tat~
>.<
after i had read her new updated blog~
i found out tat i had misunderstood her very much!!!!
omg!!!!
very soli ar~~~
y i had so many farking negative thinking playing in my mind!!!!!
aiks...
but i will change myself as soon as possible~
i had get lots of advices from friends and my dear sister~
i will improve myself to more strong and more confident in myself!!!!
gimme some time~
i will get it done de!!!
beat up my weakness!!!
^^
gud luck~

backed to normal boring life~

finished!!!
musical "PATRIOT OF LOVE" had successfully done!
it was a wonderful night~
wif the wonderful performances performed by all the performers ~
well done guys and girls!!!!
stage crew>>>
we have been working hard togather for almost 2 months for the stage~
we had sacrified our time and energy to build out the stage which used for the musical~
we estimated~
we had use almost a thousand nails to built the stage!!!
haha..
but our 2 months hardworks been destroyed by US ourselves in 2 mins!!!!
it is for sure tat our heart will being hurt~
but i noe tat is one of our target and planning of building the stage!!!
for me~
it is fun!!!!
haha....
coz we got the effects tat wat we expected and planned after destroying the stage!!!
we were so happy after destroyed our own built stage!
xD
sad~
coz musical had finished no more chance to stay in college hall as before~
but now go college hall also ntg to do le~
i do hope tat we can work togather again in the next events!!!!
gogogo!!!
^^

GO FOR IT ???!!!!!

this fews weeks i was very confusing tat whether i should go for it o not~
aiks~
i was single since i was born till now~
is already 20 years~
but i still not own tat braveness to go for it although i wanted to so much~
aiks....
i dun noe whether it is the right choice both myself and someone~
the first things ~
IF i go for it~
will she give me a chance???
can i really let her feel warm all the time with me???
will i hurt her???
did i hav the capacity to own her???
did i hav the qualification to own her??
did i suit her??(base on her types)
will i really care bout her after i owned her?
is this the right choice i made to owned her???
al these question keep running around and playing around in my brain~
and making me frustrating and emoing~
i dreamt of her this few days~
and i hope tat i cant get up forever from those dreams~
but at last wake up also~
><
WHY I HAVE TO DO????
GO FOR IT????!!!!!
aiks~


nitez~
5:12am (18/11/2010)
><||

HATE MYSELF VERY MUCH!!!!!!

Since i was young~

watever i had done was WRONG!!!

it was because i done anythings no matter is correct o wrong ~

i was scolded and shown angry faces by my dad~

i was asking myself~

it is because i am the oni boy in my family and he so care bout me till like tat??!!!!

is this the way how he taught me and grew me up~

and why my sisters are not being taught like tat???

issit because they are smart enough and i am not??!!!!

><

and i am telling the truth here ~

it had totally spoilt self-confidence~

aiks~

and now..

i am studying in college ....

because of no self confidence~

i have no confident in doing anything!!!

included my study,making friends,having conversations with other people,romance and etc~

wif all this kind of weakness~

how am i going to face the world outside within fews more years??!!!

fark!!!!

and the worst things is how am i going to built my self-confidence in such age now???!!!

haiz..

also because lagging of this stupid farking things..

i lost myself~

i had no way to go after i failed some of my stupid farking subjects!!!!

is caused me failed to make myself into advance diploma!!!

and stucking in diploma while all of my classmates are having their advanced diploma~

aiks~

why is tat all my friends can make it..

but why oni me cant???

issit i am stupid???

its not fair at all!!!!!

><

everytimes i saw my previous coursemates diploma graduations photos~

i felt very very down and very very dissapoited to myself coz i cant find myself inside those photos~

issit because of lagging of self confidence in studying???

haiz~

everytimes i go shopping with friends~

they are all in couples but oni me alone~

i was asking myself why am i alone???!!!

issit becoz again din own tat stupid farking confident again??

yes!!!

it was my answer~

SERIOUSLY~

i cant really face to face chatting wif a girl tat i am interested~

i will feel very nervous~

and cant really speak ~

lolz~

is becoz i scared i will say somethings wrong o i am not good looking~

and also i very care how she think bout me~

><

these are all becoz of no confidentS!!!

>< >< >< >< >< >< ><

how how how??!??!!!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

I HATE MYSELF VERY VERY MUCH!!!!!!

GOD!!!

show me a way!!!!!!

><

...........

5 more days~

we had worked for the stage for bout 5 weeks ad~

time past so fast!

and today we can moved in our things into the college hall~

we satrt our works 11 in the morning~

this is our progress for today works~

the most difficult part is th middle house which is double storey house..

luckily we had a pro carpenter in our team~

and he made it very stable and is all using planks and woods to built it up ~

we succesfully built the second storey till very tuft!~

it can hold three peoples weight!!!

the bad thing is i hurt myself today~

which is i made a mistake when trying to get down from the platform~

my chest had bang the edges if the platform!!!

omg!!!!

it is damn pain!!!!

like going to die and difficult in breathing!

i rested for 1/2 hour~

luckily no big problem happened to me~

thx god!

xD

oni left 5 days to the actual day~

i do hope tat..

we can finish it in time and we will tr our best!!!

gambatek togather lar all the stage crew!!!!

^^

exhauted day~

because the college is providing us(stage crew) foods for this two weeks before the musical !

we all said yesterday that today we nid to meet up at college at 10am in the morning~

to enjoy our free breakfast!!!

haha..

at last we all reached there around 10.30~

as usual will late a bit de..

xD

i enjoyed it very much~

because long time i didnt have a so wonderful breakfast liao..

normally i will juz buy one bread for my breakfast..

lol....

to be easy for everyone..

pheng parked his car at the road side in front of canteen 2~

it is against the rules in college and it will be clamped and fined rm 50!

haha...

pheng car nearly get clamped when we having our breakfast~

luckily xiong saw the guard was writing somethings infront of pheng car.

and pheng immidiately rush to his car and talkk the to guard~

luckily the guard let pheng go~

if not pheng will rm 50 poorer~

xD

then we went to our working place after tat...

we started our works at bout 1pm~

at 2 pm ~

angie pheng and xiong went out to buy some biscuits for which sponsored by college..

they came back wif a lots of things tat is delicious and we can eat for one week..

damn lots of niz biscuits~

haha..

and they also buy us our lunch..

because we ate too much in the morning~

and can stand till afternoon~

and we keep our lunch for dinner~

haha...

at bout 6 smtg~

we rest and we went to watch their rehersal for the musical~

and we hav our dinner while watching~

not bad ~

and nid more pratices...

gambatek!!!!

u all can de!

after finished makan...

we continue our works~

thn tat time i hav not much think to do ...

start asking myself why will i came here and help for all this works??

and not sleep and resting at home???

to statisfy my feeling~

i gave some answers to myself and they are:

1.i came here work for it because my friends need helps.

2.i came here work for it because i dun wan to watse my time whole day at home and doing nothing.

3.i came here work for it because i willing to learn new things from them~

4.i came here work for it because i wanna to keep in touch with my friends which work togather b4 at tt night 2010 and it is fun while working wif them~

issit all the reply statisfying myself???

i think yes!!!

because i am the person who like outing ~

and do not like to stay at home and facing the computer whole day without moving much~

tats me!!!!

i do hope tat i can accept my life now

which i need to wait for one year to get study my advanced diploma~

all the best to myself!!!!

gambatek!!!

^^

wat a day~

I woke up at 10.00am when alarm ringing but i off it and slept back ~

slept very late last night coz of ~~~~

hee~

cant stand to it when woke up, coz too tired and bit lazy~

xD

when i woke up~

it going to 1 pm~

omg!!!

i slept too much d~

lol..

i sms meng to ask him wat time going to start work for the stage and he told me 4 pm~

lol..

is ok then~

then i wen to college by 1.45 pm bus~

i tabao from canteen2 and bring to backstage to eat~

on the way going up to college hall..

i nearly "bang " by a little myvi of an "aunty"~

her driving skill is learnt from the game "burn out"!!!

fuh!!! luckily i am still alive now~

haha...xD

then the aunty stop her car~

and say she is going to class wor~

thn i say o...

then u go lar..

bye~

xD

then i straight to the backstage~

meng they all were there...

but they going for a 2 hours class at 2pm~

lol..

left me alone there..

after finished my "breakfast-lunch" meal~

very free there..

luckilyi brought the storybook tat "aunty" borrowed me last few weeks ago~

haha...

it is a quite niz story book~

but i read very slow because it is written in chinese and is in vertical~

==||

read sia rest sia~

it already going to 4pm and they are backed~

and we started our works~

when i goin to bend down and saw a plank~

i heard a sound"pluckkkkk"!!!

omg!!!!

is my pants!!!!!

my pants koyak!!!!

the hole was very big~

luckily i was at backstage and not going anyway, all are my friends..

then not so embarassed!~

i am wondering ~

is it true tat " aunty " said i am fat everytime??!!

maybe yes!

haha..

i should start do some sport and keep myself fit~

and not fat!!!!

xD

and also thanks to pheng who fetched me back~

if not i nid to go back by bus wif

a big hole at my backside...

tat will be very embarassing~

><"""

tats all for now..

will be back soon~

^^

修好了!!! 耶!!

今早起得比平时早了点~
因为是要和angie一起跟学校的van出去买做stage的才料的~
但是突然改plan讲没去了~
angie就叫我问pheng他们几点去买~
我打给pheng
他说他跟xiong两点才上完课
所以两点后才去~
结果,我12点多就去学校吃午餐(便宜嘛)~xD
吃到来是一点多。。。
还要等一段时间。。
刚想到我的重考的课目今天开始伸请~
趁现在记得~
就走到CITC去把事情先办好~
办好后倒回去canteen2买了两粒茶叶蛋。。。
时间刚刚好~
xiong就call了我问我在那里~
一阵子。。。
他们就到了~
用了一段时间才到了五金店~（因为忘了去那里的路。。哈哈~）
买了需要用的东西~
我就问老板，有没有卖衣柜里面撑着吊衣架的那两块铁吗？？？
老板说：有！
我心想〉〉幸亏有卖这种东西~
我就问老板：老板，怎么卖??
起初我还以为很贵~几拾快一对~
老板说：五角钱一个~
心里直接放松~哈哈！！
原来那么便宜哦。。？？
xD
就跟老板买了两个~
一零吉还给我几粒螺丝（便宜到~~~~xD）~
哈哈~
我们买到差不多五点多就回家了~
回到家第一件事就是~
衣柜！！！
就应为，我喜欢帮电子的东西“开刀”~
所以~我有很多各种不同的（screwdriver)~
哈哈~
一定有一个可以用的~xD
没有用电钻是有点吃力~
但是还好啦，就当作是运动吧~呵呵~
结果用了一个小时的时间才把它修好~
耶！！！
大功告成！！！！
终于被我修好了！！！！！！
谢天谢地~
总算今天最重要的事情已办好！！！

好啦~
先写到这里~
会再到回来~
^.^

yes!!!!!

my childhood favourite cartoon~xD

I was very boring at midnight juz now except chatting on msn~

it was bout 1am something~

i was thinking wat can i do at that time~

then i was thinking to go download some movie to watch on www.tom365.com~

i clicked on the "cartoon and anime" part to find something funny to watched..

but at the first fews pages~

all anime(tthose i din see b4 de)...

hee~

then u juz keep clicking next page~next page~next page~ nextpage untill the last last 20th pages~

i suddenly eyes become big big!!!

and so exciting~

i found something to watched and i like it very very much since i was a kids~

and is my childhood cartoon!!!!

muahahahahaha..

and it is full set!!!

i looking for it for such a long long time le..

finally i found it!!!

coz everytime i wan to watch it..

i nid to go youtube to search for myself and most of them i watched b4 liao de..

boring dou~

hee~

i 55 downloaded it..

it divided into ten part~

one part is one and an half hours~

i had bout 12 ++hours of the cartoon to watched le..

when i watched it ~

i think back when i was small ~

i will laugh like hell when i watched the cartoon~

kakakakaz!!!

it is so memorable!!!!

haha...xD

the last thing i wan to tell is the title of the cartoon is~

"TOM & JERRY" !!!!!!!!

MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

xD

**(dun come suan me ar "aunty"~xD)

my new cupboard~

Last month~

i found tat my cheap plak de cupboard cant stand the heaviness and the clothing tat i hav(is lots)~

and was going to fall~

i was so worry~

and it happened to my friend ~jason cupboard~

same problem we had~

to much clothing~

so i had discussed with him to share with him to buy a big adn wood made cupboard~

and we both can use and share togather to put in our clothes~

yes~

we agreed with each others le..

on the 22th october 2010~()

we went to genting klang to look for funiture shop(courts)~

we go by taxi~

and it had costed us rm 8.00++ to reached there...

we went in to courts ~

and we straight away go to the cupboard part ~

waseh!!!!!

all of them cost RM 500+++

omg!!!

cant affort it..!!!!

then luckily there a normal funiture shop~

we went into the shop with hope of getting a big and affordable wan...

finally we found one~

this~

the price is RM320

is bit expensive~

but quite big and is enough for us to put our clothes~

yes~

we bought it..

one preson RM160

heart pain~ >.<

and he sent o us next day~

But yesterday~

i came back from sunway~

when i open my cupboard ~i was SHOCK!!!!!

the holder of the tiang PATAH!!!!

omg!!!!!

WTH is happening~

IT ONI LAST FOR 2 WEEKS TIME?????!!!!!

RM 320??!!!!!

aiks...

i called jason adn tell him the "good news"~

><

then this morning he called the boss ~

but the boss say need to wait and they take to the dealer to change a new wan~

omg!!!!

nid to wait???

then how bout our clothes??

where to put???

for tat~

i had made a decision~

i will fix it myself..

2morrow I will go to the 五金店 to look for the metal made holder and srew it backmyself!!!!!

haiz..

i hope it will work!!!

god bless~

k la write till here lar..

will update again soon~

^^

when i was a kids~

the first photo is 4 of us~

hwa,wan ,qiang,fang~

it is very memorable photo~

thx mum and dad~

for teached and raised us up till now~

^^

to raised a child is very difficult ~

but my mummy and daddy~

had successfully raised 4 of us up without giving up!!!

they both are really geng!!!!~

i love them very much!!!!

i very appreciate it and now i am try my best to study well and get a

good and stable jobs in the next few years ..

at tat time is my turn to take care of u both le..

hehe..xD

and the second phot is when i was 1 years old with oni two teeth and "someone" say like a kid wif two teeth~

xD

Sunway pyramid~

I woke at 12pm something~
actually i didnt plan to go out today de..
and at bout 1pm pheng come ask me whether wan to go sunway to support M.I which are in semi final battleground 2010~
i had ntg to do at home so i juz said ok and follow them lo..xD
when we reached there..
i was vey blur and dun noe wat place was it..
haha.
coz it was the first time i go sunway pyramid although i been in kl 2 years ~
lol..
maybe because it is very far from where i staying now~
Then we straight go to the place and it just started~
and it was crowded and we squeezed to the front and get ourselve place to sit~
XD
the 1st fews group routine quite niz~
haha..
but i think MI routine is the best of all and is very entertained~
proud of u all!!!
haha...
congratz to them becoz they had done it very well and successfully proceed to the next round which will be on 2morrow~
good luck to them!!!
all the best!!!!!
after finished watching battleground ~
i was very hungry at tat time~
they said wanna to go BBQ plaza~
but i was thinking the price is bit out of budjet~ >.<
but i had no choice and closed one eye and go eat~xD
i spent RM22 having my breakfast and lunch at BBQ plaza~
quite "DAI" coz i ate till very full and i ate 3 bowls of rice!!!
lol..
xD
after tat we straight away go home~
i was very tired altough done not much things~
maybe is because of the weather today is damn damn hot~
aiks~
made me dizzy juz now~
i very enjoyed today coz long time din eat so "ho liao"
de things le..
haha..
k la...
write till here la..
will be back soon~
bye bye...
^^

today progress~

the pictures up there are the stage buliding progress till today~

is bout 50%++

but boss say still got lots of things haven done...

the actual night of the musical is bout less than 2 weeks away from today...

today i help not much~

like no mood and tired >.<

aiks..

sori guys~

i hope tat our stage can done b4 the actual night~

and is successfully function as wat we had planned~

lets add oil 2gather guys!!!

we can do it!!!

^^

off to college~

today woke up at 0930...
actually i nid to be in college to work out for the stage..
but as i noe..
the time in kl people will bit late de..
haha..
so i go a bit late lo..
haha..
xD
the stage for the musical"PATRIOT OF LOVE" (20th November 2010)progress now is about 50 % done~
and we worked it for 4 weeks ad..
thx for all the stage who brought me fun and jokes while the progress of stage building progress was going on..
i really enjoyed to work out wif u guys..
i learn lots of things from u guys..
especially how to build somethings wif plank and nail...
and how to make it stand still and long lasting~
besides i also learn bout colours and designs stuffs...
^^
haha..
and now i am going to college to work out wif u all lar...
see u guys there ~
bye bye~
haha..
xD

midnight~

juz finished editing and trying new thing on my blog..
haha..
but is 0250 now~is very late...
but i still not feeling sleepy!!!!
dun noe y ~
and 2morrow nid to wako up at 9 am!!!
omg~
aiks~
GOD~
help me to make me sleepy now~
sleep...
amitabha~

actully now i hav ntg to do except chatting wif someone~
xD
and juz write this for fun and to pass time~
anyway
gud night and sweet dream~
haha..

clubbing bird~

this bird sick ad~~
can shake till like tat~~
hahah.
funny~
but active~
hahaha...

step up 3D~

step up 3D ~
pro dancer~
niz and very geng~!!!
^^

halloween celebrated in japan~

niz dressed up and make up~
look so real..
bit scary~xD

shoe~

i wan this shoe!!!!!

SUPRA!!!!

but still have no confident whether suit me o not....>.<

give some comments ~

thx~ ^^

halloween event working day...^^

22th October 2010

my working day~

it is an event promotion at zouk~

we dressed up and make up like a ghost and walked along the way of pavillion road..

our job is to give out fliers and sweets to the people along the road we walked~

the crowds were enjoyed it and took photo wif us~

haha..

they are very friendly and polite~

it is a quite light and fun jobs~

it was my first time to dressed up and make u like a ghost and walked in the crowds~

i enjoyed it very much and hope to get this types of jobs again~

xD

lunch time~

i seldom have my breakfast since i failed to continue my advanced diploma after i failed some of my diploma subjects and it had "presented" me a long one year holiday to wait for my next badge advance course,for tat i stay at home everyday and doing nothing at home ==|||

it making me become very lazy and woke up at noon almost everyday.

i had skipped my breakfast and straight away hav my lunch.

this is actually one of the way to save money~xD

today i had my lunch at bout 2.30pm...

bought "zha fan" for my lunch at pv 7~

quite niz and cheap~

and was quite full~

at oni RM4.20...statified...

My life in kl today not so good~

it is becoz i felt alone especially when all of my housemates are not at home and went for classes~

left me alone at home and face the computer the whole day and juz like a paralyze human being~

ntg can be done and juz facing the computer..

aiks~

but at least have some part time jobs for me to work out and earn some extra pocket money~

actually i am still staying in kl is to let myself to study for my resit paper..

but the bad things is i dun even had mood to study!!!!

no idea y!!!???

and oni left 8 weeks...

and i haven touch anythings on my 3 resit subjects yet~

aiks~

wat i hope now is i can get back all my study mood asap....xD

tats all for now~

will be back soon~

^^

another boring without much things to do~

as usual woke up at 11:11 am(my alarm)...

thn wash face,bath and etc~

then sit infront of my computer and repeating wat i hav done everyday ==||

when i was fbing this morning, i found oldies song which i dint listen it for such a long time since the last time i listen was in primary school,and almost 3 years ~

lol...

the song named"friendships(朋友)" by 周华健..xD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ydingPIMWsg&feature=share

this is a niz and very meaningly songs to every human being in this world~

actually today should be having a class at 2 pm ...

but because of my tiredness and laziness~

i didnt attend it~

==||

tats all for now~

continue later~

xD