Monday, September 8, 2014

Yes! i miss you and i need you~

Coming to 4 months~
i nearly forgot i have a blog for me to spit all my tension and feeling at...
in these 4 months, beside work still works.
nothing much i can do here.
tension? yes, like a whole building on the top of my head.
boring? yes, it is.
lonely? yes, is lonely.

now i am the only one who handle the whole maintenance job at a site twice the size of TARCollege.
previously was 2 guys handling the whole site of maintenance job.
But curiously, why left me alone ???
why boss so rest assured that letting me alone to handle the maintenance jobs of the freaking whole site since i am not old at this company?
confident in me? or lack of manpower?
haiz....
i wont mumble at this load of works.
 i will try my best to take them.
but i cannot assured that i met all clients requirements especially deadlines.
Currently right now,
I having at least 10 jobs pending and in progress, and new jobs are coming in accordingly and continuously without giving me any preparation.
Frenchly speaking, these will accumulate tensions on me if i couldn't met each clients requirements and deadline.
What i have to do if a job being activated:
1. walk down with clients
2. walk down with my supervisor
3. verified the ISO drawing drawn by my supervisor
4. get approval for the drawing and waiting costing engineer to produce the quotation 
5. get client to sign off the quotation before start work.
6. clients signed, purchase all the materials needed.
7. get supervisors to fabricate all the materials.
8. fabrication done? start to erect at site and get the work done and handover to clients

this is oni 60% of the process of a jobs. how if there is 10 jobs one shot coming to me???
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sometimes i juz trying my best to do what i able to do.
i refuse to do it when i not able to do rather than i simply do and give a low quality work to client and bring down the reputation of the company.
anyhow, i really hope that boss will assign an assistance for me to carry out the tonnes of works that i am handling alone.  

At work, i having a smiling face all the day, can i say i am pretending?
actually, i am thinking every-night before i sleep~
 am i choosing the right path?
 am i coming the right place to work?
am i doing the right choice to leave her hundred miles away to work?
everyday and night, i was thinking of her.

My mum really understand me.
That day, my mum friend was asking my mum: ur son got girlfriend ad?sure got someone he like ba.
my mum straight away answered>> he got, but he dun dare to wan.
yes i do. i had her in my heart all the time. but i really dun dare to want.
Maybe is because of my foreseeing and over thinking and made me like that, moreover, i need a girl who really care and really talk to me. i hope she would be the one. I dun have confidence at all on long distance relationship, i scare i will implicate her and ruin her wonderful life now.
Maybe she is prioritize more to friends and most are opposite sex, and this confuse me. sorry for saying this but this is how i feel. =)
To her, who am i ? am i important to her?
or just a normal friend as other do?
 =)

i really miss her.
i cried silently sometimes when i thought of her.
i do really love her.

good night and sweet dream=) <3


-Jerry-